Thanks ladies. Sorry I've been slow to update.
William arrived on the 2nd September. I was induced because things were looking very preeclampsia-like. The induction didn't work and I failed to progress. We now know he was posterior, had his head stuck in my pelvis and the cord twice around his neck. I managed 16 hours of induced back labour with about 10-20 seconds between contractions. My midwife then said the only way we can potentially avoid a c section is to try an epidural. Reluctantly (because I was managing the pain) I agreed. I wanted to do everything to avoid a c section because I was determined I was having a vaginal birth. The epidural dramatically dropped my BP and William went into distress so I was left with no choice but an emergency c section. I was very close to haemorrhaging and they had to cut the cord quickly. William needed help breathing and he was taken away and my husband went with him. I was asking if everything was ok but no one would answer me. Eventually I heard him cry and they came back to me. William was draped over my face and we were wheeled through to recovery.
The after birth pains were intense. The recovery was horrible. For the first week I could virtually do nothing to look after my baby. He would cry but I couldn't do anything to look after him, except breast feed if someone brought him to me. I was drugged up for the first 4 days. The nurses at the hospital were the least empathetic people I've ever met, telling me to get over it and move on. They gave me sleep and breastfeeding advice that was dangerous and were just all round cruel. I thankfully got to go home on day 4 but then had to be readmitted 3 times for a uterine infection, retained product and my uterus not contracting down fast enough. William has also been not gaining weight fast enough and is currently on the 3rd percentile (he was on the 47th at birth).
It's been traumatic and feels like a cruel joke after infertility and a high risk pregnancy. I really don't mean to complain because I know how lucky I am to have my beautiful baby. But my body (and my mental wellbeing) has just been left in shreds. I would never wish this kind of birth on anyone.
And enough from me, congratulations Krissie. That's exciting!
Angela, you must nearly be ready to start your next cycle. Good luck! I can't wait to hear how it goes.
Red, good luck with the house buying! It can be a really stressful time!