Starting clomid in February... buddies?

[krissie328]

Angela- that is fantastic news. I've got everything crossed for you.

 

[brandi91]

Angela I have everything crossed that this will work! While I haven't done IVF, I know the pain of unsuccessful treatments and how frustrating and heartbreaking it can be. I will be checking to see how it goes! I hope that those twinges mean something positive!!!!

 

[AngelaALA]

Thanks guys well I couldnt wait Im only 5dp 5dt which is equivalent to 10dpo I took a cheapie the last one I had and Im sure it was a very very faint BFP using FMU but its so faint that I cant be 100% sure Im going to hold out now till Friday and take a clearblue 5d early one and see then Ive got one Clearblue 5day early and 2 clearblue digis left Im not buying anymore I do hope that it was a BFP but we shall see on Fri. The dreaded witch is due on Monday and I should start spotting by wknd leading up to it if Im not so we shall see not long to wait now but it feels like its dragging so much just want the 5th Dec to be here now x

 

[krissie328]

I hope this truly is your bfp Angela! I can't wait for Friday.

 

[AngelaALA]

Guys I couldnt help myself after a very very faint BFP on a cheapie yesterday I went out and bought some FRERs Ive took it this morning using FMU and I got a definite BFP the line has colour its pink

 

[krissie328]

I'm so so happy for you Angela! I am hoping so much for this baby to be your rainbow.

 

[AngelaALA]

So just to male sure I took a CB later on in the morning and a clear line showed on that one too AF is due on 3rd Dec which is Monday I just really hope its not a CP keep everything crossed for me guys. Ive attached pics now its daylight so you can see the colour better Im over the moon right now and so is DH

 

[brandi91]

Congratulations, Angela!!! That is so exciting! I am absolutely ecstatic for you!!!!!

 

[AngelaALA]

Thanks Brandi it still doesn't feel real AF is supposed to show tomorrow so Im just praying its not a CP and AF stays away I have to test again on 5th and call the hospital then and I'll also inform the Dr as well then.

Cant believe it DH is treating me like a princess wrapping me up in cotton wool he's really excited. We've been TTC since Nov 2013, 4 years 1 MC, 6 rounds failed Clomid 1 failed round of a fresh IVF Transfer and now it's finally happened a natural FET Ive took no hormones at all so the positive is definitely real.

I'm just mindful that Ive been here before I need to just get through the first trimester I'm going to request an early scan. I really hope this is my rainbow bany and that little bean sticks xx

How is everyone anyway how are you doing Brandi xx

 

[krissie328]

That is lovely DH is being so wonderful. Hopefully Tuesday shows a nice strong bfp! Will they do a beta at that time?

 

[AngelaALA]

Took another test today used up the final FRER took it this afternoon, no hold and had drank plenty of water before hand and the test couldn't get any darker Im so made up xx

 

[AngelaALA]

I dont know if they will Krissie Ive never been in this boat before I'll know more come Tuesday x

 

[brandi91]

What a beautiful line, Angela! I will be praying that everything goes smoothly and that baby is developing nicely. I'm so happy for you. You've been waiting so long and patiently. You deserve this.

I'm doing okay. I've been busy with teaching and my graduate program, which is good. I am just struggling with what to do next. I feel like I'm stuck at this awkward stage in my life where I want to go to the next stage (parenting) but I can't get there. Also, it's been tough on my husband. I feel like we have had so many arguments in the past year, and it all goes back to the baby stuff. I just don't know what to do. I want to pursue treatment, but there are things holding us back. It just sucks.

 

[AngelaALA]

Me and DH had a rough time after the last failed attempt in Jan the years of TTC had talen it's toll and we were at breaking point in a bad way. I think the best thing we both did was fake some time out from it all and get to know eachother again. We grew close again and had a long discussion about going back befire we did we talked about our fears of feeling worthless through it all and like failures and our worry that it wouldn't work again and it would cause a rift between us. I think this time that we went back we were closer in it together, we didn't put any pressure on eachother and there was no stress I think thats why it worked. Im 34 yrs old DH is 35 yrs old I turn 35 next yr so you have plenty of time.

Maybe take some time out and focus on each other again take as long as you need and then come back to it when your ready it might do the trick xx we took 9 months out of our TTC journey and I think it did us a world of good xx

My DH was the same as yours back then I felt like I was on my own in it all by the end of it now he's fully on the same page as me xx

 

[RedRose19]

Oh wow hun huge congratulations! You must be so excited! Praying this is your rainbow baby.. xx so happy for you! You deserve this!


I feel really crampy today and when I wiped there was a pink tinge on the tissue.. odd as I'm only on CD 23 in wondering if it's a slow build up before af! Doesn't normally come til least CD 32.

 

[AngelaALA]

Thats good if your cycles got shorter hun I generally spot red for atleast 3-4 days before AF comes maybe its that xx

 

[brandi91]

Thank you for those words, Angela! I am so glad to know that I am not alone. It has really taken a toll on our marriage. I'm sure it's very frustrating for my husband, especially since it's not something that is wrong with him physically. I feel like through this we will become closer, but there have been a couple of times that I literally am not sure that our marriage will survive because of the frustration and animosity at times. He just seemed so unhappy. I feel that it all goes back to the infertility, though, and sadness.

On a more positive note, hubby was really upset about everything a few nights ago and I told him that we could pursue treatment again. I told him there is no reason for us to continue waiting and that if we are just waiting to have thousands of dispensable dollars, it isn't going to happen. I told him that I was ready to go back to the doctor, and that it had been a year and a half. He told me that when he gets his bonus this month he wants me to schedule an appointment. So, assuming he doesn't change his mind, I'll hopefully have an appointment in January! I am really excited about the prospect of moving forward. I assume if we move forward that we will be doing injections. Our insurance doesn't cover IUI so I'm hoping that just the injections and times intercourse will do the trick.

How are you feeling Angela? Do you have an appointment tomorrow?

 

[AngelaALA]

Brandi I really hope the onjections work keep us posted how everything goes and your right there is never a good time to go back on my transfer wknd I had my brother visiting for the wknd with his wife and 2 children, I also had my nieces 13th birthday and promised my twin I would help her with the party and I also had to pick up my grandma and take her home after the wknd. It was hard making sure I was careful didnt over strain myself and also keeping it quiet from everyone.

Well my latest test below I had to take it as contact hospital today and gave them the news I have my first scan on 28th Dec at 12pm, Ive also informed my Drs surgery and my midwife has alrwady been in touch she seems nice from speaking to her on the phone

How is everybody else doing xx

 

[krissie328]

Congrats Angela!! I can't wait to hear how your ultrasound goes. That will be a good gestation to see a lovely little bean in there.

 

[krissie328]

Brandi- It sounds like you have a lot going on right now. I hope that you guys can move forward with treatment in the new year. I am pretty sure I got pregnant at the worst possible time with my DS, but in the end it did work out well.