Jelly, I was very positive after my MC. Of course I grieved, but after a few days I was pretty much just A-OK. There is nothing wrong with wanting to move forward. In fact, I think it's better to let go of the negative feelings and embrace what was while you embark on a new journey. Very recently I have encountered some very raw and negative emotions regarding my loss (since the last cycle ended) and that's OK too. I'm not saying it will hit you later, but it could. I didn't think it would, thought I was "over" it, but bam, sack of potatoes to my gut. Don't worry if you are dealing the right way or not, you will find your footing and no one but you knows how you should feel. If you ever need to talk, I'm here.