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[CrazyCharlie2]

Mrs H we do get down too. But it will happen for all of us when it's our time. 💛💚💜

 

[Charmed86]

Thank you MrsH!

I didn't mean to upset you Danna, I really hope something happens for you soon! The waiting is the worst

I feel so rotten today Sick to my stomach, I feel weak & a bit dizzy, massive headache and cramping I know this is so cliche, but I can smell weird things too.. like I could smell eucalyptus in the kitchen, but no idea where it's coming from. My boobs are still a bit sore. Ugh.

I hope everyone is having a good day! I've only got 2 days of dog walking left & can't wait for the wkend. I will be so sad to see everyone go, but I feel so rotten! My energy is wiped already & I've only been up an hr!

 

[patienceiav]

MrsH normally we encourage eachother to get a treat for ourselves when af turns up, go do something you couldn't do if you were pregnant, it can ease the pain a bit but nothing can really remove that upset

Because I'm sad all the time I'm going big and not just doing it at af, hubby gave the go ahead for me to buy/create a crafting station in the front room for my hobby, which apart from my darling hubby, my kittybear and ofcourse you girls, is the only thing that gives me actual happiness these days

 

[Charmed86]

MrsH normally we encourage eachother to get a treat for ourselves when af turns up, go do something you couldn't do if you were pregnant, it can ease the pain a bit but nothing can really remove that upset

Because I'm sad all the time I'm going big and not just doing it at af, hubby gave the go ahead for me to buy/create a crafting station in the front room for my hobby, which apart from my darling hubby, my kittybear and ofcourse you girls, is the only thing that gives me actual happiness these days

Oh wow! That's quite a treat! Have you seen the Cricut Explore? I am dying to get one of them! *hugs* It will happen for you, I am sure of it xxx

 

[Ms Elizabeth]

Hi guys. I miss you all!! Hope you don't mind me coming back...but I need you!

I think my Mom said it best which just really put things in perspective for me...the world has handed me enough crap...time for some good.

So...here's my update:

• Ex-husband who was awarded the house (which he was supposed to sell) still hasn't paid the mortgage in 5 months and now the HOA has put a lien on it.
• My security clearance is in jeopardy because of this aka...my job
• My Dad suffered an aneurysm in July and was given 10% chance to live...he was given the "you're a miracle come back in 6 months" from the dr
• OH is waiting on his ex to sell their house so he can help me with rent and expenses...she's stalling

and then....I started to feel like so you guys know I was trying to figure out the HCG...thanks to cdex .... then came tuesday...i was so nauseous and had the worst headache i've ever had. it wasn't that i was going to throw up...but it was that feeling right before you do constantly...so OH told me to test. so i did. I wrapped it up and brought it back and lay in bed with him. he told me to look. I did.
Positive. and not a slight line....a big fat pink one. Reality just smacked me...and this is part of I think where I came across wrong to you guys.

I ALWAYS get the short end of the stick. It's not negative…it's my reality. Get married...husband cheats within 9 months. try and make it work for 10 years...just get fed up and walk away. Court awards him the house and orders him to sell...he doesn't pay the mortgage. i move to be with OH...movers lose all my clothing. i go thru 3 cars in 2 years due to mechanical issues (newer ones too). March they find pre-cancerous cells on my stomach (like that ever sees the light of day)...it's always one negative things after the next....and trust me...i am always smiles and if you ever met me.

then this....i was SO ready for the long hall. Mentally i was ready for it. i knew....ok i have 6 months to a year to get prepared, bigger apt...save $ and leave (used all my leave for my dad). So again, I DEEPLY apologize if anything came across wrong. I am still and was just in shock. The possibility that for once...ONCE...a miracle happens to me?!?!?!?

Tomorrow AF is scheduled….so scared!

i need to go back and read.

Whatever luck I have....I was to share with you all. You all deserve it SOOO much!! to you all

 

[patienceiav]

Good to hear from you MsE, with all the crap you've been handed its understandable you kinda brushed it all off with a sorta "yeah, right" attitude, you never know what life throws at you, look at me, I waited till we were financially stable now I'm being torn apart because of it, you bet if we'd thrown caution to the wind I'd be pregnant just because life never follows your plans, just its own!

A big fat line is great great news for just before af is due, means you're progressing nicely so get down to the Dr and confirm it! things will be rough with all you have to deal with but just think of that little bean and remember why you're doing it

 

[Ms Elizabeth]

thank you patience...i've always been the one to have to "figure things out". i am always the one to make things work....i work two full time jobs to make it that way and never complain.

i am SOOO ready for this...i've waited way too long for it. but i'm still soooo scared.

but, when OH said to me different possibilities for daycare...and how he was excited...i guess a huge weight was lifted.

i called the dr, going for blood test saturday. we will see!

life works for different reasons. i never really was quite sure what my course was until my dad got sick. that put things in a huge reality check for me. we are super close (call each other every day). so when dad called so say there's a letter from the lawyer. i just said "oh well, nothing i can do." not going to give my ex one moment of stress. nope, not gonna do it!

so patience, don't be torn apart! i will share my glue with you!!

 

[patienceiav]

Surely it's your ex's problem, not yours, you have far more fun things to think about like surfing for bargain baby items, you've got 9 months to prepare so don't buy anything full price unless you have to!

I'll gladly take some of that glue, these last days before af just waiting to see if I spot, knowing it's too early to test drive me up the wall!

 

[cdex67]

MsE I am so happy to hear from you and so happy for you. It sounds like you truly deserve this. Huge hugs.

AFM- AF due today. I got scared cause I had cramps all night but a nice dark test this morning. Test line almost matched the control. Cramping has stopped and no sign of AF. I will stop testing now

 

[Ms Elizabeth]

patience - it is HIS problem...but until he sells...my name is still on the mortgage so...i'm responsible financially....i don't have any rights to the property, i just have to foot the bill. and i refuse. i paid for the down payment for it and i paid for the lawyer to get rid of him. LOL who needs good credit right?

oh noo....never pay full price for anything!!! and my glue is free...you may have it all!! here (hand you the glue).

hi cdex. feeling well? AF is for me tomorrow. this wait is like the tww.

why must mother nature always make us wait?

 

[patienceiav]

From all the pregnant people talk, I think it'll only get worse from here! The nightmare of every cramp and mild spotting signaling the end, always go to the Dr if you're unsure but Twinkie is a shining example of how spotting isn't always going to be bad, she had it for a long time!

Maybe I should test at 9dpo if I'm not spotting or have a temp drop, (since it seems to be a magic number here!) though I've never gotten a line before 10/11dpo which is the length of my lp no wonder I always have chemicals! This month I'm going mad on the cream, the instructions say if you get af while using it to up the dose!

The annoying part about testing is I've never gotten a line on my ics which say they're 10miu, only frer which is meant to be 25, so probably won't see much anyway!

 

[cdex67]

patience - it is HIS problem...but until he sells...my name is still on the mortgage so...i'm responsible financially....i don't have any rights to the property, i just have to foot the bill. and i refuse. i paid for the down payment for it and i paid for the lawyer to get rid of him. LOL who needs good credit right?

oh noo....never pay full price for anything!!! and my glue is free...you may have it all!! here (hand you the glue).

hi cdex. feeling well? AF is for me tomorrow. this wait is like the tww.

why must mother nature always make us wait?

I'm feeling well right now lol yesterday was iffy but so far so good. When you're ready I joined a thread in first trimester for July babies. Of course I'm still following these amazing ladies though

 

[Ms Elizabeth]

well...i am sending you magic line dust! i want to see those lines!!

 

[cdex67]

Patience I got my lines on dollar store cheapies...I have everything crossed for you.

 

[patienceiav]

I don't know where to buy ones that'll work, seeing as I live in Sweden the selection is awful and there are no cheapies in the shops, I can order from amazon UK though! But I can't find anything better than what I have now, they're called OneStep pregnancy tests, if you have any names or recommendations please share

 

[Ms Elizabeth]

I don't know where to buy ones that'll work, seeing as I live in Sweden the selection is awful and there are no cheapies in the shops, I can order from amazon UK though! But I can't find anything better than what I have now, they're called OneStep pregnancy tests, if you have any names or recommendations please share

i used wondfo pregnancy tests to begin and then first response

if i understand it correctly, the wondfo will show progression

 

[patienceiav]

Stupid question, these right? https://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/aw/d/B0...200_QL40&qid=1414672275&sr=8-1#ref=mp_s_a_1_1

 

[Ms Elizabeth]

that's them. 10DPO they showed up for me.
it was faint but you ladies saw it for me!

 

[Charmed86]

Good luck patience! FX for you xx

 

[patienceiav]

I'll try them out, thanks won't be here for a while but I'll have use for them sometime!

I just found out tomorrow is a half day at work, if that can't put you in a good mood nothing will! Yes I'm cheerful today living off the high of "you can't prove I'm not pregnant so I'll hope I am" high, I've had so many disappointments that it won't be much of one if af comes, but getting a few days where I can sit and hope makes me more cheerful till I know otherwise it'll all come crashing down with af but a couple of days of deluded happiness is better than nothing!