AQ... I'm still staying positive!!! It ain't over til it's over!!! And I completely understand how crushed you are right now.... But don't you ever say that this is the end of your road!!! You have been through a lot...And you've made it. You are a warrior!! Don't let your doubts and fears put negativity into your mind. This is another obstacle in your path. Another page of your story.... But not the end. There are so many other options, and you will have a baby... No matter what it takes. Obstacles may mean changing your path, but it doesn't mean giving up on your destination!!! You are strong, you are determined and you will WIN!!! Keep your passion.... You're amazing!!!!