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[bklove]

Chilli sending you lots of I know that worry comes from a place of hurt but i've always admired your courage in dealing with this thing and moving forward. I think you should go in on monday and see whats going on. It'll put your mind at easy. 8 weeks can be to early, but I did get a hb around that time and saw a little something on the screen to. It'll be ok .

Peach- I like the idea of relaxation. I think an added bonus is it probably premotes good blood flow to the uterus which is important. I had issues with that during the pregnancy and had to keep off my feet ALOT towards the end, so I think starting early is good. I did think of doing accupuncture to help but never got to it. Anything that promotes overall well being for you and bubs is a plus.

 

[Peach Blossom]

Hey ladies. Chilli did you go for your scan? How did it go? I hope all is ok... xx

 

[bklove]

How are my ladies doing?

 

[Chilli]

Sorry girls, computer has had very badly timed virus so not been on-line!

Scan is tomorrow lunchtime and I can barely breath just thinking about it....

 

[Peach Blossom]

I hope everything goes well Chilli... Sending you all my love and hugs.

 

[Chilli]

 

[Peach Blossom]

Oh no... what did they say? I'm so so sorry hon.

 

[Chilli]

Baby was gone at 7w1d - even earlier this time - so much for all the waiting for tests - aspirin did nothing, but then I'm sure I read in Lesly Regan's book that it's ineffective if not prescribed with heparin. Am in on tues for another op - know the bloody nurse by name these days!

 

[Peach Blossom]

Oh hon. I'm really so so sorry. I had hoped so badly this one would stick for you. Sending you love and hugs. xxxxx

Did they test you for Antiphospholipid syndrome at St. Mary's?

 

[Chilli]

I don't really kno what they tested for to be honest, just placed my faith in them

 

[Peach Blossom]

Get through the next week hun and then we can have a chat about it all. My thoughts are with you right now and I'm so sorry that you are going through this again.

 

[Chilli]

Thanks hun - I'm a bit flat right now

 

[Baby-Cakes]

I am so so sorry Chilli, can't believe your having to go through this again

 

[Peach Blossom]

Chilli, how're you doing hon? Been thinking of you over the weekend. xxx

Did you guys see the sad news that Lily Allen has lost her baby? Poor thing...

 

[Chilli]

I'm surviving - into hospital tomorrow for erpc - lovely! Still know the score these days.

Called ST Mary's today and have appt in 6 weeks "once all back to normal" to see if anything else can be done - also signing up for promise trial as am quite sure my progesterone levels are a factor in all this and hey, we'll try anything won't we? Not giving up yet though - have a beautiful daughter and know how good things can be!

Glad to see everyone else is advancing well - bit like talking to yourself in here these days - need to do some recruiting. Once you all pop you won't have time or energy to come on here and listen to me

Yes poor Lily and every other mother who suffers these dreadful feelings - at least in a horrrible way as a celeb she manages to raise the profile a bit, I still can't quite get over how ignorant most people are about our feelings. Had a dreadful doctor the other day who kept referring to my baby as "it" and barely made eye contact - her lack of interest or compassion was astounding and this was in the EPC!!?? I reminded her that for us our baby was very much that - our baby and I would prefer it if that was the term she used - luckily being 3rd time round I wasn't quite so fragile as I have been previously so managed to be assertive rather than just weeping

 

[Peach Blossom]

Oh hon, that is really awful of your Doctor. I will continue to strive to raise awareness through my blog as long as I can. I don't think that I will be on here any less when I pop... (may be being delusional!) I'll always be on the end of a phone or email too so you don't have to feel like you're alone or talking to yourself.

When you go to St. Mary's make sure you ask if they tested you for antiphospholipid syndrome (or lupus anticoagulant) That is what I tested positive for and the reason I'm on heparin. I'm sure they did test for it originally, but it's worth checking. Also insist on Cyclogest when you get pg next. I had to fight and fight to get it and my progesterone levels dropped by half at the beginning of this pregnancy... even though all the tests prior to the pg had come back fine.

I'm so sorry that you're going through this again. I hope that things go ok tomorrow and it's not too distressing for you. Sending you lots of love and hugs. xxx

 

[Chilli]

thanks Peaches, all appreciated as always - but yes don't underestimate how little time you'll have to begin with - you won't want to tear yourself away from your precious LO even if you can!

what is cylcogest?

 

[Peach Blossom]

Cyclogest is the progesterone suppository. I strongly believe I would have lost this LO if it hadn't been for my FS jumping to my rescue whilst my GP was being an idiot and refusing to prescribe it for me... GP actually said, well if it drops again there's nothing you can do anyway... I'm sure that you have nicer more understanding doctors though! Importantly it doesn't matter if you have too much progesterone, it doesn't harm the pregnancy... too little however we both know is not a good thing.

As for how little time I'll have... I'm planning to train the cat to change nappies and my OH to just latch baby on to the breast whilst I'm on the computer I know that I won't have as much time as I do now, but I wouldn't be here without the Team Angels ladies and will try my best to keep in touch regularly on here. :hugs;

 

[RobenR]

Chilli - I'm so sorry that this one didn't stick, I was really hoping for you and sending out good vibes. I hope you are not giving up hope or faith.

 

[Peach Blossom]

Chilli, hon, how are you doing? Hope Tuesday wasn't too horrific for you.

Just thought you ladies would like to know that my blog on baby loss has won an award! [removed]

Hope you're all well. x