I'm gobsmacked to be honest. It's gone from one extreme to the other. I think it took a good 2 weeks to get to that darkness last time because of the way things were going wrong. This has happened in 4-5 days. It's hard not to draw comparisons but there'll always be there i think.
So far, things seem to be going great. I'm trying to work out when to do my next digi to see if i get the 3+ but the fear is overwhelming me. I didn't go beyond 2-3 weeks test wise last time. I am petrified that while this has started out so well, what if it goes wrong and history repeats itself?
I sat and i worked out the doubling rates so friday or Saturday would be a good day to test to see if i get the 3+ but I don't know if I can even bring myself to. I'm dreading it. If I see another 2-3 weeks, I think I'd cry. I might just hold off til monday to be on the safe side but then i don't know if that would make me feel worse knowing that i should have that 3+ by then. These digis have a lot to answer for but then in fairness, they were what made me realise something was very wrong so they were good for me in that respect.
I just don't know how I'd handle seeing a 2-3 again after having such a good start and lines progressing well.
You all know me by now to know i probably won't be able to hold out for very long lol but believe me....the fear is real!
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