Really hating my body right now and feel like I have failed
Lo was EBF from birth until 19 weeks. At around 15 weeks her weight plateaued and then dropped so it was monitored for a while... Then at 19 weeks me and my HV decided it was best to supplement with formula, so LO started having just 2 bottles of formula a day and was still BF in between. It seemed to be going well but when I took her for her fortnightly weigh in 2 weeks ago she had lost 2oz in 2 weeks even though I had been supplementing with formula

so I was advised by the HV to switch to formula for all day time feeds and just BF at night. Well 2 weeks has passed and LO has adapted really well to formula but I haven't

it seems that my milk isn't even good enough for her in the night anymore, recently I've been having to get up to make a bottle to get her back to sleep, whereas before she would quite happily have some boobie and go back to sleep! So it looks like I have pretty much stopped BF completely. I know it was going to happen at some point, but I wanted to choose when to stop, not have to be told. I didn't even want to BF the whole time I was pregnant with her, so to have t
managed it for 24 ish weeks is a big achievement I know, I just didn't expect to find it this hard to give up! I feel like I've let her down and I'm worried our special bond will be gone

I'm getting her weighed on Monday for the first time since switching totally to formula, so I'm hoping she's gained weight this time. At the moment she is just above the 25th centile, which shows how much she's dropped, because at birth she was on the 91st centile!
Rant over, just had to get that out there... Thanks for reading if you made it this far
