Hey girls - no posts today so I'm gonna give a wee update on what's happening with me. I'm pretty surprised by all this but am happy with my choices and generally just happy all round.
I'm on a love-cloud at the moment with my BF, like actually have never been in such a good relationship before
![Er... what? o.O o.O](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f635.png)
. Just not used to someone actively wanting to do things to make me happy. He thinks I'm beautiful
![Blush :blush: :blush:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/blush.gif)
, has written me poems, takes an interest in things that interest me, our opinions are basically the same on everything. He actually gets me - I can't believe my luck.
The list goes on, I don't have the words to say how I'm feeling - there isn't a way to sum up how awesome he is
![Cloud 9 :cloud9: :cloud9:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/cloud9.gif)
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Think the deal clincher was when we were talking about nerdy stuff when he was round last night and somehow I ended up playing my pokemon blue on my gameboy colour at 1am in bed with him just watching. I'm not sure what I'm getting at but it feels just so right, and I feel so silly for not seeing it before!
I thought there were issues, so i've been very upfront about the fact that I don't really want to be in a relationship with someone who doesn't want anymore children - because I definately do. He was pretty sure he didn't but could never have said never since he didn't know if he'd ever find someone he wanted to have a family with.
Truth is, before I met him I really was starting to think about possible TTC with a donor or even talking my FOB into helping. I'd love to have slightly less than 2 years between babies, I'm ludicriously happy with Silas and it would be amazing to do the whole thing again but with someone involved and supporting me - to be a proper family. I do know I could cope without if I had too - but I don't have to anymore.
Well, long story short at the moment we may start NTNP in December, certainly if my feelings are the same then I can't see any reason why not to. It's what I want and he's quite sure he does too
Just never thought this would ever happen -
![Happy Dance :happydance: :happydance:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/happydance2.gif)
, possibly TTC 2012!