count, and honestly i have lost hope that it will happen on its own at this point. My job situation being up in the air makes it an additional stresser that I dont want to add to the mix, and our finances are tight right now, me and DH have a plan in place to pay off our debt in 3 to 4 years once I get a steady reliable job, and than after that we will put the plan into place. We have even talked about downsizing our home as an option, although we dont want to unless we absolutely have to. DH will also be getting a raise this summer, and hopefully he will be able to move up in his job so that will mean our finances will be better over time as a result of that as well. Hopefully my job situation is going to improve over time as well. 
So now it is back to the drawing board.... With most jobs i will be working during the day along with DH, and I dont see anyway we can afford daycare right now... sigh...
with TTC, me and DH are NTNP, I am not making him use protection or anything, but I am also not doing OPK's and timing sex for my OV window...I dont really want to look into fertility options until about 3 to 4 years into the future, I honestly dont think that I am going to get pregnant naturally due to DH's low
I just cant handle the emotional roller coaster of TTC month after month right now, and crying and feeling so devestated when AF arrives, i am emotionally exhausted and just cant handle it anymore right now, plus my job situtaion and our finances are too much and will push me over the edge at this point i think... So I am choosing not to focus on TTC so much anymore and in 3 to 4 years if it hasnt happened naturally we will look into fertility options. I figure by the time I am 35 than I can start to panic and really focus on TTC, and still have a few more years...I hope....
When I quit my last job, I was going to be working late evenings and would be working around DH's shift if I got pregnant, so it was an answer to us not being able to afford daycare, and i thought it was a solution for our problems, but instead the job was a nightmare, and I ended up hating it....
Don't really know what to say. Sounds good that you have a plan. NTNP sounds like more fun than TTC... The partial excitement of could happen mixed with less pressure, hopefully you wont still get disappointed month after month. Great that you want to pay off your debt first then look into fertility. The other job sucked, no point in looking back, it was a nightmare, it's over, and there's no point in thinking that it would have been a solution to daycare. We looked into daycare and it costs almost as much as I was getting paid, so that's why we're taking a year off.
I agree that focusing on past mistakes isnt a good idea, and focusing on the future is more productive. Yes, daycare is very expensive, one reason why if i actually managed to get pregnant naturally than we would most likely downsize into a cheaper rental place, instead of the home we own now and put stuff into storage, another option is us considering doing a short sale to get rid of our other house in the previous state that we moved from.Thanks for your earlier post!!!
Sorry that you and DH are disagreeing right now, I can only imagine the added stress the closer it gets to baby coming, the more nervous the two of you are becoming, it is exciting and i know you are both happy, but it is such a big change and it puts alot of pressure on the two of you, plus I know your raging pregnancy hormones arent helping the situation either, just try to calmly talk to your DH about your concerns and let him know you just want to make the most of the time you two have left together before baby comes, and how it upset you that he is choosing other stuff over being with you in your last few days, good luck hun, I am sure the two of you will work it out...
Yes, we are both nervous/excited/worried/happy about such a big change. And you are completely right, I do just want the most of what time there is for just the two of us. It's never going to be the same after James is born, and while it's a good change, neither one of us feels ready now that's really happening, and we have different ways of coping... Thank you for what you said, it's the rational part of what I said but couldn't put it into words. 
But, it is for a great cause after all and will be worth it soon enough once u get your BFP!!!! Wow, I am not a fan of needles and dont envy you with the injections, thank goodness your friend can help u out with those, lol
I'd be pissed too, especially after $19 of parking!!! And after having passed it before. There is going to be a better job out there for you, obviously it's not a right fit for you!
I'm so sorry this is confusing for you right now! Congrats on the BFP! There is a lot of second guessing throughout a pregnancy (especially when you feel bad) if it was the best decision and even if you were trying! Don't beat yourself up. Let us know if there's anything we can do to help! I'm sure OH's hesitation is making you question things too. I'm sure if he were more excited you would be too. It's a lot to sink in. It's a great idea in theory and then you go "oh shit, what have we done?!"
The pregnancy is a blessing because it took so long for it to happen, remember all of the heart ache and time it took to get that positive, hang in there hun, things will get better....Wannabe - I think that's a sign that this job wasn't meant to be! That's so annoying!
Chelsea - if the shots didn't have to be in my ass, I'd give them to myself!
I felt bad because my poor boss had to deal with me all day Friday (when I was really wicked) and Saturday (when I was only half as nasty). I go to work at 7, DH goes to work at 11, I get home anywhere from 3-5, DH after 9. So he doesn't get much of the attitude, lucky him.
So excited, just found out the Foo Fighters are coming to NJ two weeks before my birthday - going with my sister, her boyfriend, and a few of my friends. DH won't go, he doesn't like concerts and doesn't know FF. I'm thrilled because after that one, I will have seen ALL my favorites in concert. In the back of my head, I'm thinking if IUI works in the next couple months, I'll be anywhere from 14-21 weeks along - and of course I start worrying as to whether that'll be "safe." One of my co-workers saw Lady Gaga in concert at 30 weeks, and she was 2 rows from the front - so if she survived, I will too.
That's probably something I will miss the most after baby - the ability to just GO to the concerts. That's my biggest hobby. How about you girls? What are you not looking forward to giving up?
I think I'll miss being able to go out and spend money without worrying too much. Losing my income and adding a baby will mean money is more tight and I can't just run to Walmart or Target and buy random crap.
