\and now for my venting:
To OH (of course
): You. have. serious. mental. problems. Do you realise you are the only person who doesn't see how bad it is? Hopefully my leaving will mean you can finally go back to the mental hospital like you keep saying you want to do, you really do need to.
When you talk in that angry aggressive voice, it scares me!! I don't really care that you say you aren't mad when you're talking like that, just listen to yourself. The fact that you're scaring me, someone you're supposed to care about, should be enough to make you stop. And just because I keep asking you to stop talking like that and saying I refuse to talk to you when you're talking to me like that, does not mean you need to lash out and punch the table! You gave me the most evil look as you did it too, you wanted to hit me. If you think I'm going to wait around until you do then you are an idiot. Soon to be a lonely idiot. And yes every time you scare me like that I am going to cry, I am going to take Kili and lock us in a different room, and I am going to message "999" to my mom because she takes that very seriously and calls for help immediately. You know what happened to me in the past, how can you just not care?! Be nice to me FFS! Or don't..it doesn't really matter any more because I'm leaving you.
And when I said I won't come back from america I was serious.
And the last few times we actually did have sex (which is rare!) I was thinking about a women the whole time. How's that for a kick in the balls.
Oh and stop talking about how ugly and disgusting you are. You aren't even really ugly. Yes you are overweight, you were when I married you, I don't care! I know you don't believe me when I say I don't like really thin guys (or girls for that matter) but it's true, so STFU about your weight! I understand that you feel inferior to me, (this will sound so conceited but it's just to make a point) yes I know I am thin and pretty, I get it, but that doesn't mean you're some horrible ogre. The only reason you see me as pretty is because I am confident and natural! I accept how I look, I am very pale, I have tons of freckles, I have very curly hair, but you aren't supposed to focus on the negatives, every single person has things they don't like about themselves. I focus more on the good things, I've got pretty grey eyes and really long eyelashes, I have high cheekbones, my hair is really soft, my skin is fairly soft and isn't sun damaged, my teeth aren't perfect, but I like my smile anyway, because it's mine. I have unusually long arms and big hands with long thin fingers (I can nearly reach my knees while standing up straight), but I also have long strong finger nails and I can scratch my own back easily! It's all about focusing on the positives!! Oh, and I shower regularly, that really helps you should try it!!
Oh and how the hell can you call me high maintenance?! I have a bath every night, with Kili, I brush my teeth, put on lotion, and leave my hair to dry naturally. I don't wear makeup, I don't wear jewelry, I don't wear fancy clothes. I can be ready to leave with 5 minutes notice. Last time I checked the definition of high maintenance was a bit different to that!!
to MIL: If your son (my OH) tries to move back in with you once I'm gone and our lease is up in december, just say NO!! He treats you the same way he treats me, except you don't have to be next to him all the time. You don't realise he's supposed to be on medication because he keeps telling his cpn that he wants to KILL you!! (I am going to tell her this though). I'm actually really glad that you've already converted his old bedroom into a girly looking guest bedroom. He treats you like sh*t, and even though you get on my nerves a lot and I don't always like you, you don't deserve his crap. The only reason I disliked you so much in the first place is because of the things OH told me you did to him as a child, but now that so many of his lies have surfaced I'm not so sure I believe him any more.