first i want to thank all of you ladies for all your kind & caring words
everything each one of you wrote has help put a :smile: on my face for the day & gives me hope that good things do happen to good people!.
it does really suck that i had to find you all this way but im glad that i have
im also gonna send this link to this thread to two bnb friends of mine who have also gone through a loss.
we were all suppost to be having *July* babys
it really sucks to know ive got to bring in *YET* another -New Year NOT PREGNANT
however maybe i'll have another october baby or september or nov or maybe even a christmas baby!!!
i don't even care when my baby is born or if it is a girl or a boy i just want my rainbow baby:-/ by the man i love so dearly
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ive been trying to stay as busy as i can to try not think about it!!!
i only just wish now i didnt get rid of my opks or my concieve plus idk why but i just kept on having a bad feeling that all of this was just good to be true
and it really was.
i just still can't believe the dream i had was real
i mean the dream was not all real because of course it was alittle odd but the part about me having a scan and the baby not moving part was real!!
how long does it normally take for your levels to go down?!
i want to take a hpt to see what it comes up as but like ive said before if it still comes up positive i dont want to see it because i know theirs not no baby in there
and if it comes up neg i dont want to see that either because ive had to see nothing but one line for two WHOLE YEARS and you know its actually been longer then two years because when we first got together we never used condoms at all and i was never on no birth control,what we did do was both get tested before we slept together though even though we had been friends for years but being friends with someone doesnt tell u if there clean or not anyway...
when we finally started dating it was the best ever ive always been in love with eddie my *DH* i mean i knew the first time we kissed we'd be together forever
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you know i just wish i would have met him before i got with my ex or he got with his:-/ because then maybe then we had alot of kids together by now!!!.
it just makes me so upset that she has 4kids by him and we've been together for 3yrs and got 0 and 1Angel
atleast now we do know that i can get pregnant though that is about the only good thing that has come out of this....(ugh) so sad
well id love to type more as i have so much venting that needs to come out plus so many more questions but i got to get DS ready for his bowling league and then i got to go pick my stepchildren up god i love them i wish she'd just let them live with us its not like she ever has them anyway makes me sick to my stomach i will def see what everyone is up to later though!! have a great day good luck & god bless everyone