This is how many days are for us. Natalie wakes up depressed or irritable. She refuses to eat anything for breakfast, and loses her mental state over anything I try to feed her. She cries on and off all day. I have to plead with her over doing schooling. She does things most normal 8 year olds shouldn't do. Paints on the walls, draws pictures on the walls, destroys things that don't belong to her. She cannot be trusted with scissors or other "sharp objects" or she will do something spontaneous like cutting her hair off or God forbid hurt herself. She is very clingy with me, wants to lay on lap hold my hand and pick my finger cuticles (has obsessive ocd traits too). Everywhere I take her, I have to keep a close eye on her because she wonders off anywhere we are at. She is extremely hyperactive, beats up and punches her older sister. She is a compulsive liar, lies about anything and everything (hopefully she doesn't get us arrested one day with a lie). She lies all throughout the day. She makes up elaborate lies. Everyday she uses the bathroom she has to be supervised, she makes trouble in bathrooms, goes through everything gets all the hand soap and throws it down the drain. She will get into me or Alyssa's perfume and just spray it everywhere and drain it. She has temper tantrums everywhere, even at the park. The other day at the park she threatened to throw herself off the play structure. According to her she wanted to see if my older daughter cared. So she told her, "I'm going to through myself off, lets see if you catch me or even care!" I had to run to her and tell her not to do it. That Alyssa wouldn't be able to catch her because she was too high up and that she would break some bones or get very hurt if she did it. We went home early because I didn't trust if she would attempt anything. A lot of times when she gets very mad or cries she runs off hysterically and locks herself in my room. I have to go quickly and unlock the door because I am scared she will hurt herself. Every single night it takes us hours to get her to sleep. She is terrified every night to go to sleep and there are times when she is up until 5 in the morning with these sleep issues. She never ever goes to sleep without issues. This has been going on since I can remember. When she is not depressed or manic, there are periods that she has gone to bed without any problems but those times are few and far in between. There are times where she acts euphoric or that she is untouchable or any she will be extremely silly and laugh hysterically and then all of the sudden she will start crying hysterically. Anyways, sorry to burden all of you. I felt like I need to tell somebody of what I go through everyday and I only trust all of you ladies. BTW, there is much more that goes on, but I can't even go anymore into detail, but we will talk about all of this with the Psychologist. She has always been like this even as a baby, there was something seriously wrong. And another thing that puzzles me is that Sophia doesn't react to Natalie's temper tantrums she just looks puzzled or interested when she sees Natalie losing it. Do you ladies think this is normal? Sophie also laughs sometimes when she sees Natalie crying. I am hoping its because she doesn't understand. But its better for her to not cry and be affected right? Now you see why I was so desperate to get her insurance. Sorry to vent SO much.