TTC After A Loss... Race for the BFP! - 211 BFP's!!!

[Megg33k]

Is it just me or does time just seem to stop when your TTC?

No, it definitely stops! Its a cruel, cruel joke!

 

[aussiettc]

Wow... I am so excited for you girls. I love seeing the number go up and up. Just hope I get mine soon, but my PMA is quickly flying out the window with no one really to talk to about it!

Oh well.... bring on the additonal BFPs! I can live vicariously through you guys.

I know what you mean. i sit here thinking how great all the new BFP are and then get upset thinking but i should be there too. my PMA flew out the window last week. ............. hmmmmmm maybe i should try shutting the window when (if) it come back.

Okay... Because I'm a stat junkie:

We should see this!

1st month of thread: 17 (17)
2nd month of thread: 9 (26)
3rd month of thread: 19 (45)
4th month of thread: 12 (57)
5th month of thread: 18 (75)
6th month of thread: 5 and counting! (80)

2008
100% of our girls have BFP's!

2009
(until Nov, there are very small #'s of people in each month)
Jan 100%
Feb 0%
Mar 25%
Apr 50%
May 67%
Jun 60%
Jul 0%
Aug 0%
Sep 67%
Oct 37.5%
(parentheses show # of people in months with quite a few girls)
Nov 56.25% (16)
Dec 70% (23)

2010
Jan 41% (22)
Feb 23.5% (17)
Mar 44% (25)
Apr 44% (18)
May 16.67% (18)
Jun 0% (8)

Annnnnnnd *drum roll* We have 80 BFP's in 160 days!!! That's 1 every other day!!!

We have 108 ladies still waiting... If no one new ever joins and we keep up this rate... We'll all have BFP's within ~7 months, in theory!

wow love seeing all the stats but today i keep thinking i'm the one with the 0% chance of anything ever changing.

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Here it is.... i think i o'd on Mon 21st, so i think i'm about 10 dpo??

Couldn't upload the decent one from camera so this is the not so good one from my phone.

Can't let myself believe it yet, going to test again Sat and hope for a darker result

Rach xx

Uhhh.. That's BFP! No doubt, sweetie! Even blurry its obvious! Your eggo is preggo! LOL CONGRATS!

roonsma lovly BFP you have their, and megg have you been watching Juno lately

 

[Megg33k]

Mary, honey, I feel reasonably the same! My fear since starting this thread was that I would eventually be the only one left!

Nope, not recently, but I did steal the line! LOL

 

[groovygrl]

hiya chicadees!

it's been a long time since I visited BnB! Great to catch up tho! Congrats to VGibs and all the other recent BFP's! Sorry about anything and everything sad

Can anyone help or at least cyber hug? I'm kinda reaching out I guess. I've been in a bad place for a few weeks and haven't had the will to post but... maybe it'll help. I had a whole battery of tests done and it all came back okay, I thought. My reproductive hormones were looking pretty bl***y good for a 41 year old but then... the mother of all fertility tests...the AMH. So it's 0.07 which means I have a barely detectable ovarian reserve. I think it's over and I have to figure out how to let go. My fertility specialist has been away so I've just been driving myself mental with all the info. online. it all points to pre-menopause. and in the highly unlikey to conceive again category OR looking at early losses as an outcome for any miraculous pregnancy. OUCHIE

I'm devastated, crushed and shocked. Haven't been able to move and just staring into space for the last two weeks. Help?

 

[groovygrl]

oh heh!

thought I'd better add that I'm a big girl and I completely take responsibility for making decisions in my life that led me to TTC at this late stage in life. I know that at my age my AMH result shouldn't be a big surprise. But it is to me right now. I have to learn to deal. just hoping for a little support here I suppose. thanx

 

[Megg33k]

hiya chicadees!

it's been a long time since I visited BnB! Great to catch up tho! Congrats to VGibs and all the other recent BFP's! Sorry about anything and everything sad

Can anyone help or at least cyber hug? I'm kinda reaching out I guess. I've been in a bad place for a few weeks and haven't had the will to post but... maybe it'll help. I had a whole battery of tests done and it all came back okay, I thought. My reproductive hormones were looking pretty bl***y good for a 41 year old but then... the mother of all fertility tests...the AMH. So it's 0.07 which means I have a barely detectable ovarian reserve. I think it's over and I have to figure out how to let go. My fertility specialist has been away so I've just been driving myself mental with all the info. online. it all points to pre-menopause. and in the highly unlikey to conceive again category OR looking at early losses as an outcome for any miraculous pregnancy. OUCHIE

I'm devastated, crushed and shocked. Haven't been able to move and just staring into space for the last two weeks. Help?

I haven't had AMH done... I stopped at FSH. But, I know how terrified I was of it being bad! So, I can't imagine how you're feeling! I certainly can offer cyber to you! And, just because you're freaking out a bit doesn't mean that you aren't taking responsibility for your life (re: your 2nd post... but didn't quote both)... I think it perfectly normal to expect to be be able to have children at 41. Its not like you're 70 and expecting miracles! I'll lend all the support I can! I just wish I had more to give in this difficult time!!!

 

[Amos2009]

Oh Groovy- I can't imagine how you are feeling I wish I could offer some comforting advice, but I know words are not going to help. Here are some

 

[Amos2009]

Sis- I seem to remember you saying something about Hedgewitch but now I can't find it. What is going on?

 

[aussiettc]

oh heh!

thought I'd better add that I'm a big girl and I completely take responsibility for making decisions in my life that led me to TTC at this late stage in life. I know that at my age my AMH result shouldn't be a big surprise. But it is to me right now. I have to learn to deal. just hoping for a little support here I suppose. thanx

Just for you

































hope you feel loved, not sure what else to say but more

 

[Tulip]

Amos - Hedge's little Agatha-Grace has an abnormally long cord wrapped around her neck. Docs have given them a 97% chance of losing her the same way as Lilly-Maye. But they're monitoring her closely and she has been offered help from a cord accident specialist in the US who will remotely monitor Aggie's heartrate 24-7 and alert Hedge and hospital when it's time to whip her out with an emergency c/s.

Mary, so sorry to hear you lost your bean, darling

Groovy - I have no advice or action plans for you but plenty of xx

 

[WannaB]

Groovy have they only done the AMH or did they do the your FSH and an antral follicle count with a look at your ovarian volume?? The AMH is the sensitive of the three, but alone it can only be used as an initial screening test for your ovarian reserve, the three together tell the real story. If you want to give something a last ditch effort these are the guys I was going to next, have worked miracles on ladies who have been told no bloody way, including a 42 year old in my small town, now has a lovley baby boy, maybe worth the look? https://www.sharkeyshealingcentre.com.au/

 

[Vickieh1981]

Hi gals!
I'm in the hospital with gallstones,fun!! Not!! But I'm doing well and got a peak at a very healthy baby with a beautiful beating heart! I should go home tomorrow and will have gallbladder removal surgery in my second trimester..

Congrats on the BFPs!! Keep them coming!!

Oh what a nightmare. YEY for the beating heart thoguh.

Is it just me or does time just seem to stop when your TTC?

I found ttc went pretty quickly. I swear the last few days since the bfp have seemed forever.

Mary, honey, I feel reasonably the same! My fear since starting this thread was that I would eventually be the only one left!

Nope, not recently, but I did steal the line! LOL

That's not going to happen hun

hiya chicadees!

it's been a long time since I visited BnB! Great to catch up tho! Congrats to VGibs and all the other recent BFP's! Sorry about anything and everything sad

Can anyone help or at least cyber hug? I'm kinda reaching out I guess. I've been in a bad place for a few weeks and haven't had the will to post but... maybe it'll help. I had a whole battery of tests done and it all came back okay, I thought. My reproductive hormones were looking pretty bl***y good for a 41 year old but then... the mother of all fertility tests...the AMH. So it's 0.07 which means I have a barely detectable ovarian reserve. I think it's over and I have to figure out how to let go. My fertility specialist has been away so I've just been driving myself mental with all the info. online. it all points to pre-menopause. and in the highly unlikey to conceive again category OR looking at early losses as an outcome for any miraculous pregnancy. OUCHIE

I'm devastated, crushed and shocked. Haven't been able to move and just staring into space for the last two weeks. Help?

I am so sorry. That is just so crap.

Amos - Hedge's little Agatha-Grace has an abnormally long cord wrapped around her neck. Docs have given them a 97% chance of losing her the same way as Lilly-Maye. But they're monitoring her closely and she has been offered help from a cord accident specialist in the US who will remotely monitor Aggie's heartrate 24-7 and alert Hedge and hospital when it's time to whip her out with an emergency c/s.

Mary, so sorry to hear you lost your bean, darling

Groovy - I have no advice or action plans for you but plenty of xx

Ooooh noooo. That's terrible. I can't believe after all her miscarriages and losing Lilly-Maye that this could possibly happen again. I will be thinking of her.

 

[Firedancer41]

Yay, congrats Roonsma and Africaqueen!!

 

[Amos2009]

Amos - Hedge's little Agatha-Grace has an abnormally long cord wrapped around her neck. Docs have given them a 97% chance of losing her the same way as Lilly-Maye. But they're monitoring her closely and she has been offered help from a cord accident specialist in the US who will remotely monitor Aggie's heartrate 24-7 and alert Hedge and hospital when it's time to whip her out with an emergency c/s.


Oh no....that breaks my heart to hear that but I am so glad they are monitoring her. I will be praying for her and little Agatha.
How far along is she?

 

[roonsma]

Wow... I am so excited for you girls. I love seeing the number go up and up. Just hope I get mine soon, but my PMA is quickly flying out the window with no one really to talk to about it!

Oh well.... bring on the additonal BFPs! I can live vicariously through you guys.

I know what you mean. i sit here thinking how great all the new BFP are and then get upset thinking but i should be there too. my PMA flew out the window last week. ............. hmmmmmm maybe i should try shutting the window when (if) it come back.

Okay... Because I'm a stat junkie:

We should see this!

1st month of thread: 17 (17)
2nd month of thread: 9 (26)
3rd month of thread: 19 (45)
4th month of thread: 12 (57)
5th month of thread: 18 (75)
6th month of thread: 5 and counting! (80)

2008
100% of our girls have BFP's!

2009
(until Nov, there are very small #'s of people in each month)
Jan 100%
Feb 0%
Mar 25%
Apr 50%
May 67%
Jun 60%
Jul 0%
Aug 0%
Sep 67%
Oct 37.5%
(parentheses show # of people in months with quite a few girls)
Nov 56.25% (16)
Dec 70% (23)

2010
Jan 41% (22)
Feb 23.5% (17)
Mar 44% (25)
Apr 44% (18)
May 16.67% (18)
Jun 0% (8)

Annnnnnnd *drum roll* We have 80 BFP's in 160 days!!! That's 1 every other day!!!

We have 108 ladies still waiting... If no one new ever joins and we keep up this rate... We'll all have BFP's within ~7 months, in theory!

wow love seeing all the stats but today i keep thinking i'm the one with the 0% chance of anything ever changing.

View attachment 95610

Here it is.... i think i o'd on Mon 21st, so i think i'm about 10 dpo??

Couldn't upload the decent one from camera so this is the not so good one from my phone.

Can't let myself believe it yet, going to test again Sat and hope for a darker result

Rach xx

Uhhh.. That's BFP! No doubt, sweetie! Even blurry its obvious! Your eggo is preggo! LOL CONGRATS!

roonsma lovly BFP you have their, and megg have you been watching Juno lately

Thanks Aussie, i feel the same as you do too, i can't believe this isn't going to be any different than the last 3, i have so much more confidence in everyone else's pregnancy's than i do my own

Rach xx

 

[groovygrl]

First, absolutely! congrats to firedancer and roonsma. how fantastic! you both must want to jump over the moon! YAAAY!

, oh dear poor hedgewitch. put's things into perspective 'cus I was thinking that life can be scary sometimes but WOW! for you ladies in touch with her please let her know that her and Aggie are getting lots of love and light from all over the world.

Thank you soooo much for all your hugs and support. Aussie, your hugs covered the whole screen in beautiful colour.

Tulip and Vickieh and Amos and Megg, thank you for the hugs and kindness.

sunshyn - ouchie gallstones! poor you. glad bubs is happy and that you'll get permanent relief in 2nd tri.

wannab - thanks so very much. I've had a look at the Sharkey's site! It looks cool! An interesting place to snoop around indeed. i currently see a really great Naturopath and TCM practitioner but sadly they didn't offer much in the way of incentive to keep going. Might look into a skype consult but first, I will talk to my specialist RE when he's back (from big Fertility conference in Rome) and ask him to give me a straight up and accurate assesment based on the AMH result and my FSH combined with antral follie count and ov volume. Thank you VERY much for that, I appreciate the info and the knowledge passed on. I'll defo go in armed with that info. I just want a really straight up explaination you know? Right now I'm all over the ice and trying hard not to come undone. Old habits die hard man! I still want to count days, I'm still symptom spotting and still trying to sit on my hands re: testing. I keep telling myself to stop it 'cus these impulses are cruel! As bad as it is to face not having a baby, it's worse to think that I might become like a crazy old 'Mrs. Havisham -esque' kooky thing who's still hobbling to the loo to POAS when I'm 60. "OH look I'm 80.000 DPO, time to test "

I crack myself up

thanks for the love ladies

 

[Megg33k]

Amos - Hedge's little Agatha-Grace has an abnormally long cord wrapped around her neck. Docs have given them a 97% chance of losing her the same way as Lilly-Maye. But they're monitoring her closely and she has been offered help from a cord accident specialist in the US who will remotely monitor Aggie's heartrate 24-7 and alert Hedge and hospital when it's time to whip her out with an emergency c/s.

Oh no....that breaks my heart to hear that but I am so glad they are monitoring her. I will be praying for her and little Agatha.
How far along is she?

She's 20+3 (3ish at least)... There's nothing that can be done if something happens before 24 weeks. But, they'll do whatever they can to save her if she can get to at least 24. Obviously, the longer she can go the better! But, I believe lil Aggie is a fighter!

Here's the code for her blinkie if anyone wants to carry it! Big thanks to lindseyanne for making it and passing the code to me!

https://i222.photobucket.com/albums/dd316/lindseyj85/witchlette.gif

Code (no *'s): [*IMG]https://i222.photobucket.com/albums/dd316/lindseyj85/witchlette.gif[*/IMG]

 

[Megg33k]

First, absolutely! congrats to firedancer and roonsma. how fantastic! you both must want to jump over the moon! YAAAY!

, oh dear poor hedgewitch. put's things into perspective 'cus I was thinking that life can be scary sometimes but WOW! for you ladies in touch with her please let her know that her and Aggie are getting lots of love and light from all over the world.

Thank you soooo much for all your hugs and support. Aussie, your hugs covered the whole screen in beautiful colour.

Tulip and Vickieh and Amos and Megg, thank you for the hugs and kindness.

sunshyn - ouchie gallstones! poor you. glad bubs is happy and that you'll get permanent relief in 2nd tri.

wannab - thanks so very much. I've had a look at the Sharkey's site! It looks cool! An interesting place to snoop around indeed. i currently see a really great Naturopath and TCM practitioner but sadly they didn't offer much in the way of incentive to keep going. Might look into a skype consult but first, I will talk to my specialist RE when he's back (from big Fertility conference in Rome) and ask him to give me a straight up and accurate assesment based on the AMH result and my FSH combined with antral follie count and ov volume. Thank you VERY much for that, I appreciate the info and the knowledge passed on. I'll defo go in armed with that info. I just want a really straight up explaination you know? Right now I'm all over the ice and trying hard not to come undone. Old habits die hard man! I still want to count days, I'm still symptom spotting and still trying to sit on my hands re: testing. I keep telling myself to stop it 'cus these impulses are cruel! As bad as it is to face not having a baby, it's worse to think that I might become like a crazy old 'Mrs. Havisham -esque' kooky thing who's still hobbling to the loo to POAS when I'm 60. "OH look I'm 80.000 DPO, time to test "

I crack myself up

thanks for the love ladies

 

[Amos2009]

Thanks Sis for the blinkie......Come on little Witchlette!!

Groovy- you crack me up- I pray that your RE is learning something new in Rome and can come back and give you better answers!!

OH- and LOOK- my FF chart says I actually ovulated. Whoo hooooo......I guess that's good.

 

[Megg33k]

It is good! It means that you'll have some end to this cycle eventually! Ya know, sperm can live up to 5 days... and there was a 5 day gap when I counted on your chart! Love ya, Sis!