TTC After A Loss... Race for the BFP! - 211 BFP's!!!

[CJSG1977]

Amos, please dont be sorry for me, today we are here to support you!!! But thank you too

I'll take a peek sequeena.

 

[sequeena]

Thank you both, I'm so nervous now

 

[groovygrl]

SOOOOO SORRY MY SWEET

I don't know what you feel today but I agree that it's beyond devastating to wrap your heart and head around the loss when you have heard the heartbeat. What-y what-y WTF????? OH HOW UNFAIR.

I would like to jump on a plane right now - (even though that's what I was supposed to do this week but I'm pulling a sicky ) and come wrap my arms around you. and keep pouring you big glasses of red wine. I know that's probably not the best thing to do but... as someone else said on another thread today perhaps getting drunk, taking drugs and smoking ciggies is the way to go 'cus it's obviously working for a lot of other girls that have healthy babies. SOOOO UNFAIR

Megg - you and Amy might want to banish me from this thread forever for what I'm about to say but... Babe, Amy knows how much you love her and are hurting for her. She's so very lucky to have you. BUT... you need to move away from this for a wee bit and go have a little meditate too move the energy of grieving out of your body. You have a little blastie or two or three that need to attach so go breath some light into your uterus and then come back to pour some on Amy! I mean this in the most loving way ladies. xo

 

[animalcracker]

If anyone wants a good laugh, feel free to read the last 2 pages of my journal! Today sucked... and I'm STILL cracking up!

I am LMAO at the term 'joo-joo vibes!'

This TTC after a loss thread is awesome. I came in here today to share my condolences to Amos. I've been so depressed since last week and you've all made me smile, laugh and cry in the span of an hour. I really needed that.

Thank you all. If you don't mind, I think I will become a permanent fixture in here too!

 

[Amos2009]

Sequeena- this thread is about you ladies and happy thoughts. I'm sorry I had to bring in the sadness today. But NO MORE....let's move on. Now I gotta go look at your pics.

 

[sequeena]

Sequeena- this thread is about you ladies and happy thoughts. I'm sorry I had to bring in the sadness today. But NO MORE....let's move on. Now I gotta go look at your pics.

No hun it's ok don't you worry yourself You can cry/rant as much as you like!

Thank you for looking xxx

 

[Megg33k]

SOOOOO SORRY MY SWEET

I don't know what you feel today but I agree that it's beyond devastating to wrap your heart and head around the loss when you have heard the heartbeat. What-y what-y WTF????? OH HOW UNFAIR.

I would like to jump on a plane right now - (even though that's what I was supposed to do this week but I'm pulling a sicky ) and come wrap my arms around you. and keep pouring you big glasses of red wine. I know that's probably not the best thing to do but... as someone else said on another thread today perhaps getting drunk, taking drugs and smoking ciggies is the way to go 'cus it's obviously working for a lot of other girls that have healthy babies. SOOOO UNFAIR

Megg - you and Amy might want to banish me from this thread forever for what I'm about to say but... Babe, Amy knows how much you love her and are hurting for her. She's so very lucky to have you. BUT... you need to move away from this for a wee bit and go have a little meditate too move the energy of grieving out of your body. You have a little blastie or two or three that need to attach so go breath some light into your uterus and then come back to pour some on Amy! I mean this in the most loving way ladies. xo

I would never banish you for that! I totally understand! I've actually started laughing more than crying... and because of these same women. I will meditate some tonight... listen to my PMA music... take me time! I'm eternally grateful that you sucked up enough courage to say something even though I could have taken it badly! Thank you!

If anyone wants a good laugh, feel free to read the last 2 pages of my journal! Today sucked... and I'm STILL cracking up!

I am LMAO at the term 'joo-joo vibes!'

This TTC after a loss thread is awesome. I came in here today to share my condolences to Amos. I've been so depressed since last week and you've all made me smile, laugh and cry in the span of an hour. I really needed that.

Thank you all. If you don't mind, I think I will become a permanent fixture in here too!

I agree! Amazing thread, if I do say so myself! *pats self on back* Please become a permanent fixture.. but I expect you to be preggo through a good deal of your residence here!

Sequeena- this thread is about you ladies and happy thoughts. I'm sorry I had to bring in the sadness today. But NO MORE....let's move on. Now I gotta go look at your pics.

You're AMAZING! Just saying!

 

[groovygrl]

Oh crap I put my foot in it. I read back a few post and CJ - I am so sorry. The crap I said about alcohol, drugs and ciggies was a bad joke. How terribly insensitive. I'm so sorry. I am sorry this is something real to people you love.

Amos - you don't need to turn the channel to something happier on here. Let everyone here support you.

 

[Megg33k]

I mean this in the nicest way possible... but I have a hard time taking posts seriously with your avatar, groovygrl! He looks so dumb and confused! I him!

 

[groovygrl]

megg - I am laughing my head off right now. ha ha ha. ya he does look dumb and confused. I tried to put an actual photo of myself into the profile but...well dumb and confused. so maybe he is more fitting than you know?

 

[Megg33k]

Nah! But I love him... and he cracks me up! You should keep him forever!

 

[Amos2009]

Groovy....

And CJ- I apologize too...I shouldn't spout off things sometimes.

 

[CJSG1977]

Oh crap I put my foot in it. I read back a few post and CJ - I am so sorry. The crap I said about alcohol, drugs and ciggies was a bad joke. How terribly insensitive. I'm so sorry. I am sorry this is something real to people you love.

Amos - you don't need to turn the channel to something happier on here. Let everyone here support you.

Please dont worry!! I have learned to live with it for a very long time now, as my mother also has the same problems. God did good when he planted one moderately sane person into my family Did I just refer to myself as sane! Wow I really am nuts LOL!

And I'm repeating what everyone is saying but this thread truly is awesome! And the support is boundless. Amazing what we can do when we all come together in sorrow.

 

[Amos2009]

CJ- I don't know your whole story- have all your losses been early and have they found anything "wrong" in testing?

 

[CJSG1977]

CJ- I don't know your whole story- have all your losses been early and have they found anything "wrong" in testing?

Please dont worry about the comments, I really dont look at life like that. Always got to be positive.

All my losses have been early, I got to 7-8 weeks on 2 but never had a scan as didnt know then I had problems. Since then I haven't got past 6 weeks. I have been tested for blood clotting diseases - all clear, chromosomes checked for me and the dh and all clear. The only thing they tell me is they dont see a problem and I will carry to term one day! My last mc last month showed low levels of progesterone and even lower hcg so they left me to miscarry as they didnt believe my results were high enough to warrant a viable pregnancy!

I am now waiting to go back to the FS but my GP made me out to be a routine case and I am on the longest waiting list. I went a bit crazy today.

Will they be giving you any answers??? I think even with answers we dont feel better - it doesnt bring back what we've lost.

On a cheerier note....groovygrl....I LOVE your avartar! Looks like it should be a character in ice age

 

[Amos2009]

I really don't have any answers either. The only testing I haven't had done is genetic testing and that is because it is so expensive over here and is not covered by my insurance. The only thing I have "wrong" with me, and they really don't look at it as being "wrong" is I am homozygous for MTHFR. Which is just basically a clotting thing. But I was on aspirin this pregnancy and it didn't seem to matter. Plus, I don't think a clotting factor would have even let me grow a pregnancy this far if that was the problem. Could be wrong though...

 

[dawny690]

Amy my darling im so sorry for your loss sending you millions of at this time and im in tears for you as you deserve so much better than this mucho love to you and your family es Xxxx

 

[animalcracker]

megg - I am laughing my head off right now. ha ha ha. ya he does look dumb and confused. I tried to put an actual photo of myself into the profile but...well dumb and confused. so maybe he is more fitting than you know?

LMAO I agree with Megg, your avatar is hysterical! I have no idea what it is but it looks so lost and confused

 

[groovygrl]

thanks CJ - I think I'll keep him then. he does actually suit 'cus no matter how hard I try to be cool, I end up being... the charming word is "quirky" but the real word is 'dorky'. I mean this in the most fun way of course, it actually makes me giggle. Also... I don't know how you feel about Naturopathy? I have only had two losses but because of my age, Dr.s won't do any testing at all, full stop. i don't even qualify for waiting lists. So...I found a Naturopath (specialised in fertility and obstetrics) that was happy to do all the testing. All the same testing the med. community would/should have done. It was all stupidly $$ but enabled me to be in the driver's seat of the whole process. I honestly don't know how it works in the U.S.

 

[groovygrl]

HA HA HA he's a kiwi bird. It's sort of the national bird of New Zealand. they are very, very cute in reality but the poor things are flightless. Even though lots of money is spent on programs to help them out, they are forever screwed. These programs keep re -locating them to different remote regions (away from people that have dogs and cats) and I'm pretty sure that you guy's hit the nail on the head - lost and confused and freaked out! ya, and your right CJ. he does look pre-historic 'cus these birds are left overs from an age of flightless birds. If they lived anywhere else in the world, they would have become extinct a long time ago. Okay that's my 'geek -off' N.Z. bird lesson of the day. SEE?