I totally over analysed everything. I was just telling super that I had more of a positive feeling of being pg on a cycle I wasn't than on the one I was. LOL....
I even kept a journal....to compare each month. It's an exciting but tough road....worth it in the end. There is another gal on here that is a week ahead of me, Reeds. She is great support. A few of the gals on here have also sadly had a MC.....so they know the TR worked, just a matter of getting a sticky bean.
Yes, I am keeping a journal too. My doctor urged me to because he wants me to be more familiar with every aspect of my cycle than I ever have been before because of the higher risk of ectopic...as SOON as I think I am pregnant, I have to call him and we'll schedule an ultrasound to see where it implants....but I like keeping the journal for another reason. Last month, every little thing, I kept thinking...well, maybe this means I am....and this month, I can just flip back and say...no, that happened last month too...I guess this will be normal...OR...this is completely new and MAYBE...
I'm really hopeful...with my other three, I was a single mom nearly the entire time. My husband left while I was having a tremendously difficult multiple pregnancy...I was on bed rest from month 5 forward...everything that could go wrong DID go wrong and my twins ended up being born 10 weeks early...and I did it alone. I am not complaining...I am really proud, looking back, that I was able to do that. It made me one tough cookie...but I ALWAYS had mother's guilt...I always wondered if I was enough as I had to be both mom and dad...every time I left them at daycare so I could work full time to support us...I felt a tremendous amount of guilt...always...
But, I have really great kids...and I like to think that did not happen by accident...so I must have been doing okay...but THIS baby, if we are lucky enough to have one...would have two parents that love it...and I am able to stay home now...which is something I have always wanted to do (I have done BOTH, so I am not saying one is better than the other...it's just that my mom stayed home with me, and I always wanted to do that with my kids...it just didn't work out that way). If we are lucky enough, this baby will have the best of circumstances...I KNOW my husband will be there for me and will be a good dad...he already is to my kids. It's just almost surreal though...before, I was actually trying NOT to get pregnant...and DID...haha. That's how easy it was....I have never actually TRIED, so I couldn't help but worry a little...and finding this board has really helped me put those fears at bay...It'll happen. I will just keep doing what I am doing, stay positive, and keep checking this board!