TTC after loss - over 40 - any takers? Our lucky thread - 9 rainbows and 1 BFP

[crysshae]

Thank you both. The thought to NTNP has crossed my mind. I guess I'll see how DH feels. I don't know...

We have 8 altogether. I have given birth to 6 of those in 5 pregnancies. Now I can say I've been pregnant more times than I've given birth rather than the other way around like it used to be. Not real fond of that.

Yeah...We have planned on stopping twice now...first after the twins were born, and then after our 4-year-old was born, and for some reason that bug hit me again in January of this year. I planned it all out, took supplements for 3 months prior to trying, did everything right, or so I thought! Never dreamed I would be in this situation twice in 4 months.

 

[Oasis717]

Cry I'm so so very sorry to read that I really am. I did exactly the same as you last year with the vitamins etc and did everything right and to prepare my body but I lost my precious angel at 12 weeks then again in September I lost another at 11 weeks but I found out at 5 weeks that it never progressed past 5. Then in January this year I found out I was pregnant with Brooklyn. It doesn't matter what we do life has already sadly made the decision for us but here I am after two back to back losses about to give birth v soon so it can definitely happen although that doesn't make the loss any easier to go through. Sending you masses of luv and I'm thinking of you xxxxx

 

[dancareoi]

If we did try again, which we won't, I wouldn't want to go through the heartache , worry and feeling of desperation that I had after our 2 mmc last year

I am hoping once my hormones settle I will begin to feel a bit better about Caitlin being my last

All I am doing at the moment is looking back over the last 7-8 weeks and just wishing and wishing I could go back in time !

I have given birth to 4 babies out of 7 pregnancies.

I have to weigh it up which feeling is worse, having mmc or not being pg again.

 

[crysshae]

Thank you, Becks. Your story definitely gives hope.

I thought I was doing fine, just going to get through it. But I replied to someone on another thread and started crying while typing. As soon as I sent that DH texted to see how I was doing, and I just broke down. I guess it actually started when I saw someone's bump picture who got pregnant about 3 weeks before me the first time. I should have a bump now.

I don't know what I want to do at this point. I go back and forth between thinking we should just call it quits and thinking I'll never lose this want to have a baby... and it's just made stronger by the loss.

Did you continue on the vitamins and everything after your losses?

 

[garfie]

Cry - so sorry to hear your news hun BIG I have also been pregnant more times than I've had children so I am sending you lots of love while you go through this terrible emotional and physical time and hope you feel stronger soon

Give your self some time hun - don't make any rash decisions don't forget hun as we all know to well your hormones are all over the place

I personally continued with my vitamins etc.



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[crysshae]

Thank you, Garfie. If we continue to try, I know I'll stay on my prenatals and folic acid and most likely fish oil. I have been taking fish oil and CoQ10 to help with egg quality....but I'm beginning to wonder if that truly does anything.

 

[josie1234]

Crystal, I know it is heartbreaking the emotional journey, all of the ups and downs. With the temping, opk's and everything, it just seems to add to the stress.

I know people say what will be will be and things happen for a reason but it is so hard to accept that, especially what we have all been through. Big hugs to you hun xxx

 

[josie1234]

Does all that help? All I have been taking is the prenatal tablet and B6 (to help LP increase). But I am really starting to think that all the exercise I do may have something to do with it so I am going to try and cut down on my classes.

 

[crysshae]

I truly have no idea if it actually helps or not. I've had two very early MCs since taking them. I never did that with my others. I only took them because of my age this time.

 

[josie1234]

Personally for me I think that it doesn't matter what I do or take, if it is meant to happen then it will. I know we want to prepare so that the worst does not happen but sometimes fate takes over. I know it is so hard Crystal, making a decision and as well, you think you are ok and then something sets you off.

Lisa, you have been through such a lot and you must be so happy with your little Caitlin, but I understand how you feel now, hormones are all over and you want to keep nurturing your baby. Hope your hormones settle and you can enjoy your special time with your gorgeous daughter.

This is what is so good about this thread, so many people understand and are there for us when we need to express our worries and concerns and also share our joy when we all get our BFPs.

Notice the PMA there???

Best I order some more OPKs. What day you think is best to start testing, about CD10?? going to try and test every day. Mind you have hardly seen DH so hopefully we may catch that goddam egg when he is on his couple of days home.

 

[Oasis717]

Cry I did continue on the prenatals in fact I've been taking them since the beginning of last year just in case I continued with them. Maybe it helped for this time I really don't know. I know if we do try again after I will stay as positive as possible and remind myself that I have every chance of having another healthy pregnancy as opposed to dwelling on loosing again, I think that's all you can do as this pregnancy has shown me with each new pregnancy it really is a fresh start and you have every chance of succeeding. Don't make any hasty decisions, don't rush yourself, give yourself all the time you need and you have lots of time to decide. Be kind to yourself. Not stopped thinking of you xxx

 

[josie1234]

Quiet today, how is everyone doing?

 

[dancareoi]

Quiet today, how is everyone doing?

I'm ok, how Are you? I'm still checking your chart each day and keeping everything crossed for you xx

 

[crysshae]

I'm doing okay today. More crampy than most AFs for me, but not horrible at least.

I don't know anything about OPKs Jo, but if you usually ovulate at CD14 or later, I think CD10 is a good day to start. I agree. It is quiet in here today. How are you?

Thank you, Becks. You said it perfectly. I need to look at it that way and stay positive too. I know I was just emotional yesterday. I don't really think I could give up that easily at this point.

 

[dancareoi]

I'm doing okay today. More crampy than most AFs for me, but not horrible at least.

I don't know anything about OPKs Jo, but if you usually ovulate at CD14 or later, I think CD10 is a good day to start. I agree. It is quiet in here today. How are you?

Thank you, Becks. You said it perfectly. I need to look at it that way and stay positive too. I know I was just emotional yesterday. I don't really think I could give up that easily at this point.

 

[dancareoi]

Thought I'd update you on xanth. She went in yesterday to be Induced but no luck yet! They are going to do a controlled rupture of her membranes tomorrow so hopefully that will set labour off, otherwise she'll have to have a section

 

[Oasis717]

Sending you loads love Cry xxxx.
Thanks for updating Lisa. Hope all is well with her xx.

 

[josie1234]

Thanks for the update Lisa, looking forward to seeing a piccie of the second rainbow baby on this thread. Sending Xanth my love. Hope you are ok Lisa and your hormones are settling and the pain is going. How is Caitlin sleeping?

Becks - not long now, another day closer, how are you keeping in yourself?

Crystal - sending you big hugs, I know sometimes I say things but think it is said 'in the moment' due to circumstances and emotions. Good luck to you hun x

AFM - I am doing okay, tired as seem to be constantly on the go, but keeps me out of trouble. DH is back on Friday for 2 nights and then back on a course for another 2 weeks.

 

[Oasis717]

I'm ok thanks Jo just quite tired but we've done a lot last week or so you know what you were saying about the exercise you do, I was aware that over exercising can hamper ovulation are you thinking that it may have anything to do with your cycle? I hadn't thought of that until you said it. Xxxx

 

[dancareoi]

Caitlin isn't sleeping too bad, but she is being a bit is putting her weight back on, she is still 6% less than birth weight. So between feeds I need to express and feed every 3 hours and if necessary top up with formula.

My hormones are still all over the place and I am still sad knowing no more babies for me.

Here is a picture of Caitlin which I have just taken