TTC after loss - over 40 - any takers? Our lucky thread - 9 rainbows and 1 BFP

[dancareoi]

CD2 for me.


feeling so old and decrepit.

I`ve said this before, in a way i want to know if i am Pg, but in another way, if i can not test for as long as possible you can keep that feeling of hope alive, because once that AF starts you feel all is lost and the time to OV again seems a life time away.

So sorry it is not your month.

At least if AF starts it will be over for our holiday on Sat. i won`t be temping whilst away so we`ll see what happens next month.

I will then start my acupuncute on 24th Sept.

Had a blood test last Wed at docs to check my progesterone levels to see if i did OV. Rang Friday for results, thinking if they were low, at least i would know i was out for the month! Results weren`t back. told me to try monday or Tuesday!

 

[Creative]

The months just seem to be piling up. I think 've come down with a crash, because although we read all the time about fertility falling rapidly after 40 that you never for one moment consider that it would happen to you.
AF came one day early ~ just as we were setting off on a three hour journey to go and collect the 198 year old from a viola course he's been on which includes a 5 hour concert in two halves. That's a long haul when you are feeling rough on the account of not being pregnant and also having AF.
Was a brilliant day though!!!! and DS has been invited to play at the millennium concert hall in Cardiff with his quartet in Oct. Maybe I'll be pregnant by then!

 

[dancareoi]

The months just seem to be piling up. I think 've come down with a crash, because although we read all the time about fertility falling rapidly after 40 that you never for one moment consider that it would happen to you.
AF came one day early ~ just as we were setting off on a three hour journey to go and collect the 198 year old from a viola course he's been on which includes a 5 hour concert in two halves. That's a long haul when you are feeling rough on the account of not being pregnant and also having AF.
Was a brilliant day though!!!! and DS has been invited to play at the millennium concert hall in Cardiff with his quartet in Oct. Maybe I'll be pregnant by then!

You always like to think you are not as old as you are or not as old as you look and think you can get away with it. But the reality check of fertility brings us back to reality with a crash.

Big congrats to your DS - i assume he`s 19 not 198 - although he`s doing well for a 198 year old

He must be really good and you must be bursting with pride.

Well my DS is 10 (11 in November) and will be starting year 6 in Sept and starting secondary school next Sept.

We are hoping to get him into a local grammer school as he is a bright lad, so for the last 18 months he has been having tuition to help him along the way. He is doing well and has sat 4 mock exams and has done well in all of them.

He is stting the first exam on 8th Sept and we are starting to get jittery now because it is getting so close - he will then sit another exam on 15th sept.

I spend time with him going through stuff so that helps to take my mind off things. We run our own business and I work two days a week there. Plus a DD who is 7 going on 17 and a monkey of a 2 year old.

you would think i wouldn`t have time for B & B and FF and all the like, but here we are!!!!!

in a way i wish the internet didn`t exist, life was so much easier then - no charting or sympton spotting, or the worst thing of all google!!!!!!

 

[Creative]

Well it happened. My sister had her baby this weekend and I survived. I had been anticipating coming crashing down and I didn't. My daughetr was at my mum and dads this weekend and on Sat afternoon texted me and said Auntie was contracting 6-8 mins. I started to feel angry. I don't really know why, just that I was so conscious that my baby would not be coming.
No further news came, and on sunday I headed off to church and mum and dad told me there that my sister had had a baby boy late on sat night. I actually felt relieved (and you are the only ones I am telling this to) but because she had a little boy, i didn;t feel jealous. I have two boys and one girl and would dearly love another girl (or another boy for that matter)
She chose a name that I had picked for when my daughter was born if she'd been a boy and i still didn't feel upset.
So I have survived. I am now frantically sewing a new quilt in time for my mum and dad to take it down when they go on Wednesday.

 

[Xanth]

Well it happened. My sister had her baby this weekend and I survived. I had been anticipating coming crashing down and I didn't. My daughetr was at my mum and dads this weekend and on Sat afternoon texted me and said Auntie was contracting 6-8 mins. I started to feel angry. I don't really know why, just that I was so conscious that my baby would not be coming.
No further news came, and on sunday I headed off to church and mum and dad told me there that my sister had had a baby boy late on sat night. I actually felt relieved (and you are the only ones I am telling this to) but because she had a little boy, i didn;t feel jealous. I have two boys and one girl and would dearly love another girl (or another boy for that matter)
She chose a name that I had picked for when my daughter was born if she'd been a boy and i still didn't feel upset.
So I have survived. I am now frantically sewing a new quilt in time for my mum and dad to take it down when they go on Wednesday.

Awww I'm glad it wasn't as bad as you thought it would be

 

[Xanth]

Dancareoi where are you? I saw you got your BFP. How's everything going?

 

[Creative]

Dancareoi where are you? I saw you got your BFP. How's everything going?

Oooo I didn't see that. What great news!

 

[dancareoi]

Dancareoi where are you? I saw you got your BFP. How's everything going?

Hi, I have been keeping a low profile as I didn't really want to say anything yet. However I did realise my FF showed + and I was going to remove it from my signature, but I didn't get round to it and didn't think anyone would see it!

So yes, I got my on 19 aug, so I am approx 7+2 and as you can imagine I am worried sick.

As you know I found in June my LP was only 9 days, so I saw doctor and started taking a 50mg of vit B6 everyday along with pregnacare conception. Also the week before I OV I had an unhealthily diet, we were in butlins and I was eating sausage and fried egg every morning for breakfast!

I then had an acupuncture consultation at the beginning of aug and he thought my blood was poor quality and suggested I eat more protein and to keep eating 2 eggs a day and change from flora pro-active light, to Kerry gold butter.

Whether all this helped I don't know, but I got my BFP on the fourth try.

This morning I was at redditch hospital to see the diabetic nurse and dietician for gestational diabetes, discovered in first PG. so now having to check blood levels 4 times a day and start eating boring food!

It was hard going to the hospital this morning because I hadn't been back since I gave birth to my LO in jan. I thought about going to the babies memorial garden, where my LO's ashes were laid to rest, but I couldn't do it.

I then lost it talking to the nurse and the dietician explaining what had happened in my last PG.

When I left hospital I went to my docs to get my green notes, because on Friday I have an early scan booked in the recurrent mc clinic at birmingham heartlands hospital. Diabetic clinic wanted me back next Monday, but I have a midwife coming to see me.

I was also getting worried because I have no morning sickness yet, sometimes just a little queasy around tea time. However, I looked it up on Internet and doc confirmed that vit B6 actually reduces the effect of morning sickness, so I will keep taking it now, it can also help sustain a pregnancy by helping to Keep progesterone levels high. My progesterone levels were low before B6 because of short LP.

Before I found I was PG my doc had taken a blood test 7 days after OV to see if I had OV. A level of 30 or above is fine and mine was 44 so I am hoping this is a good sign.

I am trying to take each day at a time. I am so scared about the scan on Friday.

How is everyone else?

 

[Xanth]

Oops sorry for outing you lol. My eagle eyes are always checking my friends charts.
Sounds like everything is going well. I hate pricking my fingers. Although at the moment I can just do it when I feel like it lol. I had my HBa1c done last Friday and I'm back at the preconception clinic this Friday. And it's my birthday tomorrow

My sister used to work at Birmingham heartlands. She's back in Wton now though.

It must have been so hard for you going back. I've never stopped going to the hospital since my first miscarriage or I think it would be hard for me. I have to sit with all the pregnant women every time. Hopefully one day you will feel at peace enough to visit the memorial garden xxxx

Keep us updated. You could start a journal xxx

 

[Creative]

So happy for you. I understand your worry and concern and hope for a really happy ending.
I only manage to BD once during the OV period. It's becomming such a chore (for both of us!)
I have suspicions that this time it's not happened, but I have another couple of days yet before AF.

Nice to have you all back chatting again.

 

[dancareoi]

creative -you never know - once is all it needs!

i tried to do things a little differently this month, i.e not every day, because as you say it becomes a chore!!!!

BD - Thurs, Fri, Sun, Tue (day of positive OPK) and wed - OV day. i felt that every other day gave those spermies a little more time to recouperate!!!!

Xanth - i don`t mind being `outed` it`s quite a relief actually to have someone to talk to who knows exactly how i am feeling at the moment.

My first reading this morning though was 5.8 and should be less than 5.3, so we`ll have to see what happens there!!

Have been feeling very slightly queasy this morning, as well as extremely tired. I went to bed at 9.30pm last night - woke once in night for a wee - this never used to happen as i would always sleep through! went straight back to sleep and woke just before 7, still feel tired though!

i am hoping these are all good signs.

 

[Xanth]

creative -you never know - once is all it needs!

i tried to do things a little differently this month, i.e not every day, because as you say it becomes a chore!!!!

BD - Thurs, Fri, Sun, Tue (day of positive OPK) and wed - OV day. i felt that every other day gave those spermies a little more time to recouperate!!!!

Xanth - i don`t mind being `outed` it`s quite a relief actually to have someone to talk to who knows exactly how i am feeling at the moment.

My first reading this morning though was 5.8 and should be less than 5.3, so we`ll have to see what happens there!!

Have been feeling very slightly queasy this morning, as well as extremely tired. I went to bed at 9.30pm last night - woke once in night for a wee - this never used to happen as i would always sleep through! went straight back to sleep and woke just before 7, still feel tired though!

i am hoping these are all good signs.

Mine was 6.2 i've a feeling I might be taking more metformin when I go on Friday

Got everything crossed for you, but everything sounds like it's going ok.

 

[dancareoi]

creative -you never know - once is all it needs!

i tried to do things a little differently this month, i.e not every day, because as you say it becomes a chore!!!!

BD - Thurs, Fri, Sun, Tue (day of positive OPK) and wed - OV day. i felt that every other day gave those spermies a little more time to recouperate!!!!

Xanth - i don`t mind being `outed` it`s quite a relief actually to have someone to talk to who knows exactly how i am feeling at the moment.

My first reading this morning though was 5.8 and should be less than 5.3, so we`ll have to see what happens there!!

Have been feeling very slightly queasy this morning, as well as extremely tired. I went to bed at 9.30pm last night - woke once in night for a wee - this never used to happen as i would always sleep through! went straight back to sleep and woke just before 7, still feel tired though!

i am hoping these are all good signs.

Mine was 6.2 i've a feeling I might be taking more metformin when I go on Friday

Got everything crossed for you, but everything sounds like it's going ok.

Reading 1 hour after luch was 6.6, so well within target, for me it will be trial and error. I assume you are a diabetic. what will the metformin do?

Felt queasy this afternoon as well - dietician said little and often and if i need to snack, try a hob nob as these aren`t too sugary and the oats help as well.

You will probably notice I have changed my ticker! With the last one I was so worried about doing things that mught jinx it - i.e when I had my prescription exemption form i didn`t send it until after the 12 weeks scan, just in case - fat lot of good that did. i`ve posted the one now today - que sera sera, doesn`t matter what i do or don`t do, it won`t change the outcome.

Although if all goes to plan, we don`t want to tell anyone for as long as possible, especially the kids. there is no way i want to put them through that again, to be told they are going to have a sibling and to be told a couple if weeks later their sibling has died - worst thing ever.

Anyway, i suspect other people will start to guess before told, because I am getting a baby bump already and my jeans and trousers feel tight!! there again that might be due to excess food on holiday

feeling very irritable today and very tired, nearly fell asleep at lunchtime!

If all goes ok on Friday, I think i will be at Heartlands again 2 weeks after that, as they said previously they would scan every 2 weeks to check all is going ok, so if something were to go wrong they will find out earlier than last time to prevent us having to go through that again.

They have promised they will look after as best as they can, so that is comforting.

just had salmon, mash potato and peas for tea, so hoping for a good reading!

Happy birthday for tomorrow - anything nice planned?

 

[Creative]

CD1

 

[Xanth]

creative -you never know - once is all it needs!

i tried to do things a little differently this month, i.e not every day, because as you say it becomes a chore!!!!

BD - Thurs, Fri, Sun, Tue (day of positive OPK) and wed - OV day. i felt that every other day gave those spermies a little more time to recouperate!!!!

Xanth - i don`t mind being `outed` it`s quite a relief actually to have someone to talk to who knows exactly how i am feeling at the moment.

My first reading this morning though was 5.8 and should be less than 5.3, so we`ll have to see what happens there!!

Have been feeling very slightly queasy this morning, as well as extremely tired. I went to bed at 9.30pm last night - woke once in night for a wee - this never used to happen as i would always sleep through! went straight back to sleep and woke just before 7, still feel tired though!

i am hoping these are all good signs.

Mine was 6.2 i've a feeling I might be taking more metformin when I go on Friday

Got everything crossed for you, but everything sounds like it's going ok.

Reading 1 hour after luch was 6.6, so well within target, for me it will be trial and error. I assume you are a diabetic. what will the metformin do?

Felt queasy this afternoon as well - dietician said little and often and if i need to snack, try a hob nob as these aren`t too sugary and the oats help as well.

You will probably notice I have changed my ticker! With the last one I was so worried about doing things that mught jinx it - i.e when I had my prescription exemption form i didn`t send it until after the 12 weeks scan, just in case - fat lot of good that did. i`ve posted the one now today - que sera sera, doesn`t matter what i do or don`t do, it won`t change the outcome.

Although if all goes to plan, we don`t want to tell anyone for as long as possible, especially the kids. there is no way i want to put them through that again, to be told they are going to have a sibling and to be told a couple if weeks later their sibling has died - worst thing ever.

Anyway, i suspect other people will start to guess before told, because I am getting a baby bump already and my jeans and trousers feel tight!! there again that might be due to excess food on holiday

feeling very irritable today and very tired, nearly fell asleep at lunchtime!

If all goes ok on Friday, I think i will be at Heartlands again 2 weeks after that, as they said previously they would scan every 2 weeks to check all is going ok, so if something were to go wrong they will find out earlier than last time to prevent us having to go through that again.

They have promised they will look after as best as they can, so that is comforting.

just had salmon, mash potato and peas for tea, so hoping for a good reading!

Happy birthday for tomorrow - anything nice planned?

Thank you. Had a nice day with the family and even went out while the boys babysat for a couple of hourse

Sounds like you're doing well with your control. How was it after the mash. I can't eat it (I love it though).

Bad news today, he wanted to start me on insulin, but I said no (the long version is in my journal lol). So now I'm taking 4 x 500mg of Metformin a day to see if that helps. I've got 8 weeks to get it right or it's insulin. If my control is ok over the next 8 weeks then he said we can start trying again

CD1

 

[dancareoi]

CD1

So sorry.

 

[dancareoi]

creative -you never know - once is all it needs!

i tried to do things a little differently this month, i.e not every day, because as you say it becomes a chore!!!!

BD - Thurs, Fri, Sun, Tue (day of positive OPK) and wed - OV day. i felt that every other day gave those spermies a little more time to recouperate!!!!

Xanth - i don`t mind being `outed` it`s quite a relief actually to have someone to talk to who knows exactly how i am feeling at the moment.

My first reading this morning though was 5.8 and should be less than 5.3, so we`ll have to see what happens there!!

Have been feeling very slightly queasy this morning, as well as extremely tired. I went to bed at 9.30pm last night - woke once in night for a wee - this never used to happen as i would always sleep through! went straight back to sleep and woke just before 7, still feel tired though!

i am hoping these are all good signs.

Mine was 6.2 i've a feeling I might be taking more metformin when I go on Friday

Got everything crossed for you, but everything sounds like it's going ok.

Reading 1 hour after luch was 6.6, so well within target, for me it will be trial and error. I assume you are a diabetic. what will the metformin do?

Felt queasy this afternoon as well - dietician said little and often and if i need to snack, try a hob nob as these aren`t too sugary and the oats help as well.

You will probably notice I have changed my ticker! With the last one I was so worried about doing things that mught jinx it - i.e when I had my prescription exemption form i didn`t send it until after the 12 weeks scan, just in case - fat lot of good that did. i`ve posted the one now today - que sera sera, doesn`t matter what i do or don`t do, it won`t change the outcome.

Although if all goes to plan, we don`t want to tell anyone for as long as possible, especially the kids. there is no way i want to put them through that again, to be told they are going to have a sibling and to be told a couple if weeks later their sibling has died - worst thing ever.

Anyway, i suspect other people will start to guess before told, because I am getting a baby bump already and my jeans and trousers feel tight!! there again that might be due to excess food on holiday

feeling very irritable today and very tired, nearly fell asleep at lunchtime!

If all goes ok on Friday, I think i will be at Heartlands again 2 weeks after that, as they said previously they would scan every 2 weeks to check all is going ok, so if something were to go wrong they will find out earlier than last time to prevent us having to go through that again.

They have promised they will look after as best as they can, so that is comforting.

just had salmon, mash potato and peas for tea, so hoping for a good reading!

Happy birthday for tomorrow - anything nice planned?

Thank you. Had a nice day with the family and even went out while the boys babysat for a couple of hourse

Sounds like you're doing well with your control. How was it after the mash. I can't eat it (I love it though).

Bad news today, he wanted to start me on insulin, but I said no (the long version is in my journal lol). So now I'm taking 4 x 500mg of Metformin a day to see if that helps. I've got 8 weeks to get it right or it's insulin. If my control is ok over the next 8 weeks then he said we can start trying again

CD1

In my first pg I took insulin from 34 weeks, luckily next ones were diet controlled.

Had scan today at heartlands - heartbeat found - measuring exactly right to when I OV and so far everything is exactly as it should be. Have a picture showing a little blob!

Another scan booked for wed 26th sept.

First hurdle cleared but a long way to go yet.

 

[Xanth]

Glad the scan went well x

 

[dancareoi]

Hi all, I have started a pregnancy journal, hopefully this link will get you there.

Please come and stalk me!

https://babyandbump.momtastic.com/pregnancy-journals/1191087-pal-worried-sick-my-pg-journal.html

 

[dancareoi]

Won't be writing in pg journal now, will therefore be staying here with you lovely ladies.