TTC after loss - over 40 - any takers? Our lucky thread - 9 rainbows and 1 BFP

[josie1234]

Thank you T. House seems so empty.

I really hope that you are ok. But you are in the best place to be looked after. Take care of yourself hun. Hope you feel better soon xxx

 

[Serenjay]

Thanks Jo. X

Wasn't the best idea to only have a pink bra and white Jim jam top. Lol

 

[Left wonderin]

Hehehe T looks like you haven't lost your sense of humour !!! Lol.....you look fab !!! Do you feel better on the drip ? Have you managed to take your aspirin ? You poor thing hopefully this phase won't last too long xxx anyone interesting to look at on your ward ??? I loved people watching lol

 

[dancareoi]

T - big hugs, hope you feel better soon. I loved being in hospital when pregnant, every one looks after you so well and it's so comforting to be there and know someone is checking on baby too.

 

[josie1234]

Hi T, love the pink bra! I hope that you are feeling better. You are in the best place to be looked after.

How is everyone else? More baby pics? Hope you all have a good week. Becks - how are you hun. Xxx

Lisa how is Caitlin? I bet getting bigger and growing up so quick.

 

[Left wonderin]

Jo do you think your AF will return soon ? Any feelings about it ?

 

[josie1234]

Speak of the devil Regina. Had cramps earlier today and now backache. Here she is. Finally

 

[Alien73]

Hi Ladies, just a quick check in, sorry to read about your dog Jo Hope you are feeling better, I know how sad you must be.

T, good they have a close eye on you. Are you home now?

Yes, def time for some more baby pics!

Afm, doing ok. So far the miscarriage has been manageable, hardly any physical pain, but weirdly also hardly any bleeding. I had genetic testing done on the baby and already got the results; a little girl (as I thought) with Turner syndrome. Bittersweet, as in a way I am happy it was a genetic reason so there is a chance the treatment with all the stuff I have been taking might work next time around, but also so sad to know it was a little girl ....

 

[Left wonderin]

Kim I'm sorry about you little pink are you going to name her ? I know it doesn't make it any easier loosing her but I'm sure its a small comfort to know there was a reason for why she didn't make it . She will be with you always xxxxxx

Jo that is hilarious , I am sure there is some relief ( physical ) with her turning up ! No Menopause for you yet ! Hope your doing ok after your loss xxx its hard but hold on the the memories xxx

AFM was at the hospital today just to get my bloods taken , appointment next Monday . Its not about my fertility but I'm hoping for the green light or at least a ball park of a time frame ! I think oh has gone cold on the idea again so may need to start operation " warm him up again " soon

 

[dancareoi]

Kim, sorry about your little pink angel xx

Caitlin will be 18 months old tomorrow, and although it saddens me, have made the decision to stop breast feeding after tomorrow.

She only has it when she gets up in a morning and if I'm honest it's more for me than her.

It will be the last time I'll breast feed a baby, another chapter over.

 

[Left wonderin]

Awh Lisa its all emotional isn't it ? Its such a journey !!! Every milestone breaks my heart a little . But as my mother keeps telling me every time I get melancholy think of all the amazing times you have ahead of you watching them grow ! Think of all the FIRSTS not the LASTS . I hate to say it but sometimes she makes sense lol......

Enjoy your morning feed , make an extra special memory xxxxx

 

[Left wonderin]

T HOW ARE YOU DOING TODAY ! are you still in hospital ? You have a scan tommrow right ?

 

[josie1234]

Aw Lisa yes so emotional for you but I agree with the 'first' and not the 'lasts'. You still have so much to look forward to hun.

T - how are you doing? Hope you are ok?

Regina - I think men just don't focus on things as much as us. I am sure you can warm him up lol.

Thanks Kim, yes so sad about Rover but at least it was quick. It is like losing a member of the family. Morning and night tomes are hard as we had a routine. Also I keep expecting him to get off the settee to welcome us when we come in. I have bought a nice thank you card to send to the animal shelter to thank them for a great dog, will send some photos too.

 

[Serenjay]

Hiya all xxx

Kim xx dont know what else to say hunny.. but I have been thinking of you and Becks xx

Hi girls thanks for the thoughts.. 4 days in pink bra and 3 white tops!! lol OH wouldn't go get me a new bra(boobs grown).

Anyway I have been home an hour, im re hydrated but still vomiting a few times a day and unable to eat proper food. They have given me some prescription protein drinks but they are so disgusting so OH is in Tesco getting me a tin of vanilla slim fast (packed with protein and vitamins) I have always loved the taste of that blended with ice cubes... and I am going to try some complan drinks too not sure of those tastes.. I need to get some nutrients into me.

Scan was 11.15am and I was nervous as you all know... as I was scared about the 2 days no aspirin.. well they had a brand new scanning machine at the EPAU and it was great.. as soon as she put scan on me Baba was there with Heart beating away and she said "There's the face..." OMG!!! in a week it has a face arms and legs and it was DANCING!!! I just stared at the screen...she done her measuring and still measuring a day more so measuring 9+4.. she done a side view and Baba was disco dancing arms n legs moving about... then I broke down.. cried like a baby.. then vomited into my bowl. I got back to my bed and the women had seen I had been crying they looked too scared to ask.. I said its perfect.. im just emotional.. I left later on this afternoon as I am re hydrated I just got to try and keep some fluids down..

Work are still making me call in every day!!! Stressing me out. Got a 7 day sick note off ward Dr.

Anyways I am just about to be sick again so I am going to pop off here for a while (I also have vertigo hence not been online the screen makes me giddy)

Want to send you all a MASSIVE back when feeling better xxxxxxx

 

[Left wonderin]

T you description of your scan just made me cry !!! A happy cry I'm so happy for you . After such a hard journey its your time . I bet your happy to be home to your own bed
Any scan photos ???

Jo that is such a lovely idea with the card and pics I'm sure they will appreciate it . Have you always had dogs ? We have even as a child . Don't ever think I've never had one or two plus the strays I would always find ans bring home when my last dog died I was so heart broken I thought I'd never get another . A friend said something very inspiring and asked which Bruno my dog would prefer , me alone and sad or to give a gift of a new wonderful life to a poor dog who was down on his/ her luck .. So I have now ended up with 3 !! Two collies and a lab all rescues and wonderful . Bruno sure gave a gift xx

 

[dancareoi]

Thanks for your words Regina, think of the firsts not the lasts, that is helping me.

No feed this morning and Caitlin didnt miss it at all. The time is right to stop as it can't go on forever. Must think firsts not lasts.

BF is a lovely way of being close to your little one, however, she now gives such lovely hugs, that's a lovely way of being close to her.

How are you today T?

 

[Left wonderin]

Lol Lisa thank my mum hehehehehe .... Was actually thinking about it ! There are SO MANY firsts in the future I think we could miss the joy in some of them by focusing on what is past and regretting the lasts .

Hi everyone, I really don't want to go to work today uck xxx

 

[garfie]

Hi Ladies

I'm still here - just waiting to see what my body wants to throw at me this cycle - last cycle was over 50 days long and no ovulation this is quite a few that are behaving this way. The dr is reluctant to investigate and is putting it down to my age

Lisa - Wow you have done so well with the breast feeding and Regina is right you have a lot of FIRSTS to look forward to (heck I still hear a lot of firsts from my boys - stuff a mother should never hear ). Glad you also enjoyed your hols (late I know) but you know me more a stalker than a talker! (not in real life though - haha just realised how bad that looked)

Regina - I hope your blood test gives you the green light - it's awful having to wait and I'm sure you can warm your hubby up. Last cycle typically I had no problems with hubby - I think it's because we have had the conversation and I told him what the dr said "enjoy life enjoy your hubby!" because my age is against me - does she think I haven't worked that one out yet?

Josie - So sorry to hear about your dog - we have two elderly dogs and although they have their own room (we lived in a caravan a few years ago whilst waiting for this house) so they became out door dogs - and as they are old they smell (not the smell you want when showing people around) but still we allow them in the house every few days and still one of them have an accident we are still not looking to the days when I don't have to clean up after them, although we all know the spaniel especially is on borrowed time. They are very much a part of the family and even the cat tries to play with the eldest spaniel - the collie is not tolerant of the cat at all - so imagine it when the cat slips in - it's like a cartoon he pulls on his brakes when he sees the collie and quick action from us saves the collie chasing the cat!!!!!

Kim - I m so sorry to hear your news - I also had a baby boy who had a chromosome defect - it was a very hard time as you just come to accept (is that the word) you have miscarried and then you find out the baby would have had a problem. Then the sensible part of you (again maybe I'm not putting this very well) I don't mean to upset you - the sensible part of you thinks wow what if the baby would have lived how would we have coped, what would have happened and then the guilt sets in - OMG how could I even think like this - I've lost my baby (perfect in my eyes) and you seem to go around in circles - feeling guilty as well as dealing with your loss. I guess I should stop my rambling and just send a BIG hug instead

T - I've never suffered with sickness with the boys - so I hope this is soon over for you and you start to feel better. Just an idea what about having smoothies? - maybe that will help replace some of the goodness you are losing and if you can stomach it what about green smoothies?

Hi to all the other ladies, as I said I feel like I am coming to the end of my journey very rapidly now - some days are easier than others and now I just wish my body would play ball and just give me a glimmer of hope maybe this month after all it's no good me getting his soldiers lined up if the golden eggy doesn't put in an appearance



X

 

[dancareoi]

Fiona, sorry your body's messing you about.

Mine is too, so advice is needed.

For the last 3/4 months I've been taking vitamin b complex to try and increase my LP as my cycles are so short. I stopped taking it last week when my AF started.(as they werent actually making any difference and I know long term use can damage your nerves!)

I am now on CD9 and still bleeding (sorry if tmi) I'm thinking that maybe stopping the vitamin B is playing a part. Has anyone encountered this before.

Two days now without bf and feeling quite sad, very tempted to start again before its too late! Am actually hoping that finally stopping bf may help my cycles lengthen a bit.

 

[Serenjay]

Hi girls... having trouble with screen as I now have vertigo to go with HG... xxx

Just want you to know I will catch up soon xx