I have started spotting. As most of you know, that is my sign that in 1-3 days, that ugly, ugly witch is coming. While I know that I shouldn't be down until she actually comes, I can't seem to stay positive this time. I've seen this part too many times to think this is implantation. I just can't. This was our third cycle, and for some reason, it has been the easiest. We were relaxed, I didn't realize the predicted af was as close as she was until this morning. My temp was still good, but my bathroom trip told a different story.
I'm having a much tougher time this time around. I am sure that I will turn around by the end of the day, but I hate this rubbish of spotting for days before my period. It gives me so many more days of grief. When menses comes, we get our Conkers treat, but I sit here for days spotting, and I cannot even treat myself until that witch comes because I could still be in, technically speaking, even though I know that I am most likely out.
Sorry for the pity party. It just occurred to me how much this spotting thing is weighing on me. I took herbs, and it made me feel better. With all of the holiday/traveling stuff we've had going on though, acupuncture treatments were tough to fit in. We are going to get back on a good treatment schedule now that things have slowed down.
Just writing this down has made me feel better. I'm still sad that I have to sit here knowing I'm most likely out without a comforting bath or the Kahlua I received in my stocking to pour into a consoling cup of coffee or hot chocolate.
Send your love this way! I'm a teary-eyed mess today.

In no more than a few days I will know for sure. Send your dust for a miracle!
Anyone have some good news?
