TWW Support group to help get you through the nitty gritty...and beyond

[ReadynWaiting]

Hey ladies!
Wishing how are things with you?
Bab-what all are you doing to get things straight?
I just finished af and am back to ttc. Here's what I've been doing the past few months preparing:
Supplements: Vit c and d, milk thistle, Maca, omega 3, collagen, multi Vit, Chinese botanical 'nourish the essence', probiotic
Nutritional: no gluten, very minimal dairy and sugar
Exercise: trying to move every day for an hour
Spiritual: yoga and mediation with some hypnosis
I'm scared shitless to try again for fear I have another loss. This past week I have really been struggling with it. It's been nice the past 2 months not being concerned.
I hope you ladies are well?!

 

[Wishing_]

I'm so sorry Ready!!
I'm okay. Currently 3 days late. We aren't trying or preventing. I finally got a new job since I moved. I'm going back to school in June. & I'm slowly learning how to drive. I can't turn for my life, but I'll get it eventually.
My sister-in-law miscarried. I think she's going to try for another one even though the last baby wasn't planned. I'm trying to see if planning my nephew's 1st birthday would distract her, but so far it isn't working.

 

[BABTTC123]

Ready- I'm still on metformin, prenatals, vitamin d, potassium, vitamin c, spearmint tea. I've been working out regularly but have had only a little results.
My cycles are down to 29 days now so that's good.
I'm getting more OPK'S and if I haven't conceived this cycle I'm going to try clomid again.
I am also getting a good fertility supplement to help things along. It has maca, raspberry tea leaf and a bunch of other herbs that are known to help. This supplement is especially good for those of us with PCOS.

I just ordered Horny goat weed for my husband, he currently takes multivitamins, vitamin d, vitamin c, potassium and zinc.

My friend is now ttc for her second child and I am honestly feeling pretty rushed to concieve. I wanted to have at least my first child before she had her second and I know she will fall pregnant very fast. I do want her to have a second, just not so soon lol

I totally understand your fear of trying again... I keep thinking that even if I get pregnant I will probably miscarry it anyways. I don't feel like my body is very accepting of growing a baby.

Wishing- I'm sorry to hear about your SIL
That's good that you are learning to drive! When I first started I would creep along at 10 miles per hour. My teacher got irritated and start fucking with me to try and get me to be less tense lol now I am fine with driving just about anywhere
I hope you are 3 days late for a good reason! Fx!!!!

 

[Wishing_]

Ready do you still talk to the other ladies? How are they all doing and their baby(s)?

 

[ReadynWaiting]

Wishing sorry to hear about your sil. Are you going to test?
I haven't spoken to anyone in a couple of months but they all seem to be doing well as do the babies.
Bab-I totally get that rushed feeling. I have 3 sets of friends that are all of with their 2nd pregnancy since we have been trying. I cried each time we found out but try to not let it get to me. It's hard as each month passes.

 

[Wishing_]

I'm not sure anymore. We dtd roughly and now I'm somewhat spotting. I put on a pad hours ago and there's barely anything. I see some blood when I wipe. That's about it. I'm beyond confused.

Remember when I told you that two of my friends were pregnant and how we weren't talking at the time? Well, they want to try for her second child and the other wants to try for her third. My bf's cousin is pregnant and one of his friends just told me they finally conceived. I"m all emotional now.

Hold Bab you're taking so many things! I forgt to take my gummie vitamins 96% of the time. You're a trooper!

 

[ReadynWaiting]

Wishing that's hard! We have had so many friends and family have babies over the past 2.5 years. I'm happy for all of them but just feel bad for myself.

 

[ReadynWaiting]

Add one more friend telling me she's pg. she just took a test today and sent me a pic of it. Trying to remain calm and not feel rushed to get pg!

 

[Wishing_]

At least you kept trying. I wish I could've kept trying. It's eating me alive now. I want it more than ever. I'm going to my bf's cousin's gender reveal party. I want her to have a boy so if I ever get pregnant I get a girl and she'll be the only girl!

I'm sorry ready. If I hear about one more pregnancy I would go mad. You're strong.

 

[BABTTC123]

I get pissed off when people send me their bfp's randomely. It's like they are rubbing it in my face.
I am fine finding out over facebook, but when they send it straight to me it frustrates me. Ugh...
One friend just had a baby and she keeps sending me pics of her baby and wants me to come over. She knows I've had miscarriages and have a hard time getting pregnant. I'm avoiding contact with her right now.
A couple other friends have also recently given birth, my sister had her baby in January and there are a few other friends who are pregnant.
It's just too much ×_×
My cousin had an engagement party last week and as soon as I arrived my sister comes to me and says, "We were just talking about you! Wouldn't it be funny of mom got pregnant and gave you the baby?"
What kind of question is that???
It felt like she was basically saying that my 47 year old mother has a better chance at getting pregnant than I do!!
So I'm not too pleased with her at this time.
When my mom got there she kept on handing my nephew off to me. I didn't feel like holding him and she told me "You have to get used to holding a baby before you can have one."
Umm.. no I dont. It's not my baby. Sure it's my nephew but I don't like holding other people's babies much because it hurts. I get jealous. So I try and avoid it.
Just the other day at my mom's house she was babysitting the baby and she kept forcing me to hold him and take care of him. I explained that I don't want to and she just ignored me.
Oh well I guess.

I guess other people don't understand and don't care to understand why stuff like pregnancy announcements, baby talk and being forced to interact with other people's babies hurts some of us.

Anyways, I am cd 24 and I am estimating 9 dpo possibly...
The other day I had a really bad cramp that went away. I had shooting pains (not too bad) throughout my breasts for a few days and now they are slightly tender. But the tenderness is a new pms symptom. I have also been very nauseas. Some mild nausea is also a new pms symptom but this got bad enough that I threw up.
I've noticed the past 3 days that I have had zero energy. I normally can't nap at all and I have found myself able to take multiple naps in a day.

I hope this is all a good sign for me. But if not then I'm going to start clomid as soon as this cycle is over. My opk's were supposed to arrive this week but amazon took their time at shipping them so now they will arrive on the day af is due lol

 

[ReadynWaiting]

Bab I'm so sorry you are surrounded by insensitive people. People just don't talk to me about it which is fine. If I had people saying the shit to me that they are saying to you I would snap.
I started going to a pregnancy and infant loss support group in March and it has been helpful. I am surrounded by people that understand and want to hear my story. They offer a shoulder to cry on or listen when I need to lose my shit. Do you have anything like that around you?
Ps I so hope this is your rainbow getting settled!!

 

[Wishing_]

Dam Bab. I got mad reading your post. What kind of crap is that?! I don't think anyone knows how it feels unless they've been through it themselves. I would've snapped as well. I hope all of those things are good signs for ou bab!

afm I just got back from a gender reveal party. It's a boy. I was glued to my phone most of the time. It was hard to be all smiley and happy.

 

[BABTTC123]

So an update:

I'm more like 10 dpo today, I looked at my app and found where I put the estimation before lol

Anyways, I just woke up to get ready for work. Went pee and when I wiped a TON of brown discharge appeared. My boobs have been more sore throughout the day but that can easily be af. The thing that confuses me is that if this is pms then it means that I will start within the next two days, putting me at cd 26 or the latest cd 27.
My cycles have NEVER been that short! But I guess there is a first for everything.. the funny thing is that I was tempted to test but decided to wait instead.

Ready- I wish there was... I would probably attend it if there were. But then again, maybe not... it might make me feel too awkward because I'm not the type to cry in public and I'm not very good at making others feel better xD

Wishing- I'm sorry you had to sit through that I think it's best to just distance yourself as much as you need. It's good that you attended as support though, but having your phone was a good way to escape the party for a while.
Though if I read it right, you said you hoped they would have a boy so that you'd have the only girl, right?
Well then this is your sign!
Go make that baby!!

 

[BABTTC123]

Oh I forgot to mention that this entire time my cp has been high-soft-medium and my cm has been going back and forth between creamy and watery.
I checked my cp with this and it is the same but feels a little higher up there.

 

[ReadynWaiting]

Bab-how have you not tested? I have no will power even when disappointment is staring me in the face. I so hope this is a bfp in the making.
Wishing-sorry you had to go through that but like bab said...time for a girl.

 

[Wishing_]

Yup! It sounded completely selfish, but I'm happy lol. I need to find about a dozen article about how to conceive a girl. I read one a few days ago saying that he needs to cum first, but of course he didn't believe me. Maybe if i show him a few he'll want to try. Fingers crossed!

Bab - Test! I pray to everything holy that this is it

 

[BABTTC123]

I tested a couple of days ago but I feel it is too early. I don't want to waste any tests because my cheapies are out of stock at the store xD

 

[ReadynWaiting]

Will you wait until af is late then?

 

[BABTTC123]

I caved and tested after a 4 hour hold... Bfn.
My spotting isn't going away either though it is getting more ewcm type stuff in it.
Cervix still high-soft-closed.
Boobs have begun hurting BAD!
Mild bouts of nausea, bad car sickness.
It could all be pre af hormones though. They have been affecting me weirdly the past few months....
I will stick to waiting until either just before af is due or after.

 

[Wishing_]

I think to be on the safe side you would wait till af is a day or two late. Especially since you're running out of cheapies.