Thanks everyone for checking in. Hi Josephine, long time no see! How are you?
Re tests - boring today, fainter than yesterday possibly because I drank loads before bed but I guess we shall see tomorrow.
I'm going to copy and paste what I wrote in my journal because I can't be bothered to rewrite ...
Ok I had a brief toilet break but something really effed up just happened and I don't know what to make of it. I had a check of my cervix after seeing pink cm on toilet roll (I have had the odd spot a couple of times before but nothing like this - this was like proper pink streaked cm), cervix is high, soft and closed and I had more pinky brown cm on my fingers. Went to finish wiping when this weird thing came out. I don't know wtf it is. It looked like a mini water balloon but red, not like a clot, more like a ball of ewcm but red and slightly firmer in texture. I would post a photo but I don't know how to spoiler it. I can't remember how to. I squished it about with my fingers and toilet roll and it didn't keep its shape, some looked pink some dark red. I don't know what it is?!? It can't possibly be a loss surely as it would be too small to see. This was the size of the top of my little finger. I know what clots look like from a mc as I had one at 8 weeks before and had clots with that. I have had small clots with af before, none of which are like this. I haven't had a proper implantation bleed before, only the odd tiny spot a couple of times before, so I haven't any frame of reference for this.
I don't know what to make of it? I don't know if I should be worried?
Could it be because the pessaries seem to block the way for cm to come out, I had IB and it collected behind dissolved pessaries and kind of coagulated? To add, I don't think something like this could have come out of my cervix because it's closed, and this was sizeable. Seems more feasible it's a collection of blood and other crap outside of cervix? I'm trying to make sense of it so I don't panic
but I haaaaate those ICs!
