Hi ladies!
Am I able to join this group? You all seem like such a friendly, supportive group and it would be great to be able to interact with individuals that are going through a journey to baby as well.
Heres a little bit of background.
Currently 27, married since June 2015, been with my husband since September 2009, diagnosed with PCOS November 2014.
For as long as I can remember I have always wanted to become a mother and I have always wanted to be a young parent. Initially I thought that the best time to start trying would be around a year after our marriage (Fall 2016) but due to certain circumstances that was not do-able. I decided to take that time to consult with a fertility doctor to prepare for when we were in the right situation to start trying and he reconfirmed that I have PCOS. Throughout the re-diagnosis process I was also diagnosed with Vaginismus due to the fact that I experience pain when getting transvaginal ultrasounds, and the fertility doctor was not able to perform an internal exam or the conduct the HSG. Since then (April 2017) I had been visiting a physiotherapist weekly and it has made a world of difference. I was able to get my first pap smear in 6 years, able to properly wear a tampon for the first time in my life, my husband and I have noticed a significant difference with intimacy and I was able to successfully undergo the transvaginal HSG test at the beginning of September. The HSG resulted in no polyps, fibroids, cysts or blockages and we were officially given the green light to start TTCing.
I do not have regular cycles at all (cycles can last over 100 days) and therefore was put on Provera for 10 days to induce my period. I am currently 5 days post my last pill with no sign of my period (other than cramping which I have had since the 2nd-3rd day of taking the pill) and it is making me very nervous. Once I get my period I am to supposed to start Clomid (50mg) from CD 5-9 to see if it makes me ovulate. I am starting to feel very anxious about the whole ordeal and its only just the beginning. It makes me wonder whether I am really ready for this
especially since it most likely will take more than one try. I just have a feeling that this is a right time but am so scared that its going to take more than the average 1-3 cycles success rate that most PCOS Clomid users achieve. My husband is very supportive and optimistic (and surprisingly the realist in this situation) and tries to reassure me that everything will happen at the right time and that each obstacle we get through is a step in the right direction. I havent talked to any of my friends or family about starting to TTC because I feel like it will add extra pressure and judgement that I do not want or need.
So sorry for going on a tangent and thank you for taking the time to read it. I really needed to get these things out of my head before I drive myself crazy, although it may be too late for that.
Baby dust to everyone trying!