Hi ladies. So as most of you know on this section of bnb i have 3 boys and felt bad GD when i was told my last baby was a boy. He was meant to be last baby but now pregnant with #4 by mistake. Im not excited about my pregnancy like you should be when you're growing a healthy child, i cry daily over it. How am i going to manage 4 under 6, how am i going to cope if its another boy. How are we going to get our financial situation under control to provide for this child. I feel so disconnected, so unhappy. I've been feeling a bit of movement more frequently this past week and im surprised because i have an anterior placenta , but even feeling him/her doesn't make me happy or excited. I know ill be thrilled if its a girl and it makes me feel terribly guilty to not feel the same way if its boy #4.