We'll Be Over The Moon, When We Get Our BFPs In June! Newbies welcome :)

[clynn11]

I hope it's a girl Emily!!!

Waves- i'd get a hold of your doctor and get bloods drawn to get a beta and then a repeat beta. FX everything is ok hun

 

[pdxmom]

OOh and my thermometer is barney purple too ..... but i dont temp vaginally

 

[wavescrash]

Oh no, Waves I would definitely call your doctor in the morning and tell them whats up and ask for betas. Unfortunately, like you said, being so early they probably wouldn't be able to do much at the ER. Thoughts are with you xx

Waves- FX everything works out!

Waves - as everyone else said and you already know, there isn't anything the ER could do unless you were bleeding excessively. I don't even think that an ultrasound would show much at 4 weeks. How many dpo are you? I do agree that you should call your doctor and request a beta bc if you are experiencing a MC then you will need to monitor your levels. If you aren't comfortable with all that then certainly go to a doctor, they can't turn you away. Just know there isn't really much that can be done. Good luck.

Thanks everyone.

I was going to go to the ER but even if they did do an u/s, even if they did see something... I'd have to go back to see if there were any changes to know one way or the other and it'd be a wasted trip waiting for hours.

Several times I've gone to the bathroom because I felt a "gush" and there was a lot of blood. Sometimes it feels lighter so I go check and it is but it's bouncing between light and very heavy. Still no cramping or clots but that can change at any time.

I'll just call my doc in the morning and go from there. I work all weekend and all next week so I'm very limited as to when I can get in to the office so I just hope if she has me come in, there's appointments available around my work schedule.

Regardless, I have a feeling it's going to result in a m/c. I've had two already (well... one and a chemical but still) so it's not like it's totally out of the question. I just feel like gushes of blood can really only point to that outcome. Especially since my symptoms are virtually non-existent again and my tests weren't getting darker. It is what it is... it just sucks since this would be the third time. And if so, it'd be nice to know why my body has such a hard time staying pregnant especially since I've carried 2 pregnancies to term, without problems.

 

[Cowgirl07]

Amanda- I have my fingers crossed for you!

Ashlee-I love the kitty picture, especially Tiny!

My husband got worried because I took my dog to the park *gasp* before her last set of shots. She had the first two sets, I wasn't going to let a raccoon get her or something goodness.
Still no AF and my backache is getting better! I wish she would just come or make up her mind not too. I usually get a headache but no sign of that yet!

 

[wavescrash]

On my phone/going to bed so ill just paste what I posted in another thread for an update:

Thanks everyone. The bleeding got pretty heavy for most of the evening. Wasn't filling a pad in an hour but I'd wipe and the toilet paper would be soaked and there'd be a puddle of blood on it. Contemplated going to the ER but called my ob's office and the on-call doc said its probably a m/c with the amount of bleeding but to give it a couple hours. If it didn't improve to go to the er but if it slowed down, just call the office for an appt in the morning. It seems to have slowed down quite a bit so I just put on a new pad and will see how it looks in the morning. I set my alarm for 9am and plan to call the office right away. The on-call doc mentioned doing an ultrasound so we'll see what happens. I'm not that hopeful about things but definitely relieved that the bleeding seemed to ease up just a little.

 

[TTCaWee1]

Here's this mornings fmu test. There's a vvvvv faint line IRL....I would think it should be darker since the first line showed up 2 days ago. Maybe I'm just getting evaps? Only time will tell I guess. I'm 11 dpo. Temp holding steady, boobs hurt worse....oh I hate the tww.

Btw Emily can't wait for your scan!! I'm going with boy bc everyone else said girl...I really am not good at guessing lol

 

[TTCaWee1]

 

[morganwhite7]

I APOLOGIZE THAT THE PICS ARE SO BIG, I spent an hour resizing them and they're still huge..

The good ones were taken by the Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep Foundation. They take free amazing photos of babies/families that lose their newborns/have stillbirths. Amazing, I am SO thankful for them.

Soooo... here's the pit puppy. His name is Kilo (umm.. he's white. DH's idea..lol) He is about a month in this pic, now he's about 2.5 mos.. aww, my boys
https://i1272.photobucket.com/albums/y390/mo0rganwhite7/224020_10200240355146376_1770350354_n_zps12035f25.jpg

This is Emma, my childhood dog.. she's a 12 now, a lil Shih Tzu. My baby too..
https://i1272.photobucket.com/albums/y390/mo0rganwhite7/37208_1470276474169_2080239_n_zpscd6460fa.jpg

My poor baby boy hooked up to all his junk..
https://i1272.photobucket.com/albums/y390/mo0rganwhite7/155778_10200304586352116_833826697_n_zps03de9964.jpg

My FAMILY
https://i1272.photobucket.com/albums/y390/mo0rganwhite7/jaxon2_zps451e7887.jpg

My EASTER BOY He had like 50 Easter baskets.. lol born Easter weekend.

https://i1272.photobucket.com/albums/y390/mo0rganwhite7/71fcd2b5-71f4-4493-ab95-98b4037c6092_zpsc84e06cb.jpg

My ring on baby's toes.. just precious (Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep photo)

https://i1272.photobucket.com/albums/y390/mo0rganwhite7/536892_10200358904550037_1536815210_n_zps86214ad6.jpg

DH's silly friends at our WEDDING in the Nicu.. See my nursing bra hanging out of my beach cover-up dress and no makeup/afro hair?! Amazing how all your cares go out the window when your babe is sick.
https://i1272.photobucket.com/albums/y390/mo0rganwhite7/408053_10200338500119939_5823955_n_zps800fd81a.jpg

Another Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep photo, so raw.

https://i1272.photobucket.com/albums/y390/mo0rganwhite7/383091_10200358915830319_538202636_n_zps53929863.jpg

Just ONE of DH's many injuries.. He shattered his kneecap, broke his tibia in half, broke his nose, had a massive concussion, broke 7 of his ribs, totally ground down all his teeth, his chest wall caved in and his OTHER knee had a HUGE laceration. Oh and the one he complains about most? His "broken" tongue.. lol he bit down so hard and its got a big bump haha.
https://i1272.photobucket.com/albums/y390/mo0rganwhite7/72799_10200314163871548_1397456308_n_zps1c5136b3.jpg

 

[Disneybaby26]

My goodness, absolutely beautiful pictures Morgan!! You made me tear up at work! You are so pretty and such a strong woman, I'm glad you have such precious memories with him!! Xx

 

[asmcsm]

Morgan- my sisters dog is named Kilo too lol and her other one is Hennessey so I always joke with her and say everyone is going to think she's a drug addict alcoholic lol.the one of the three of you with the babe on DH's chest is so precious. So glad you got to get some sweet pictures with him in the little time you had together.

 

[TTCaWee1]

Morgan those pics are priceless. So glad you got to spend time with him.

 

[morganwhite7]

Kara- Aww thank you! I just wanted everybody to see them so they could really understand. And OH MY GOODNESS your dog is SO CUTE I showed DH your pics lastnight and that last one with his face all smushed up looks just like our lil pit!! Haha I can't wait for him to grow up and be my big baby

And, if you have one, add me on fb plz!!

https://www.facebook.com/morgan.berkemeier

 

[HWPG]

morgan, please excuse me if i am too forward, but do you have a story about jaxon in the "loss" section? i am wondering if he was just too little to survive, even though he made it through delivery and lived several days, but perhaps you already have his story written somewhere else. also, i am TRULY not trying to dredge up anything, or offend, so please tell me if i have. your story is amazing and heartbreaking in the same breath, and i loved all the pictures you posted. hoping you get your rainbow baby soon.

 

[BubsMom17]

Morgan - you are so strong and beautiful. I have tears in my eyes. Jaxon is a beautiful angel.

And yes, Kilo is adorable, and what a fighter!

 

[goldstns]

Emily thinking of u...can't wait to find out!!

 

[RobertRedford]

I am sobbing at work, Morgan! Those pics are so sweet. I'm so glad you were able to spend some time with him. Your poor hubs, too! Is he healing up well?

AFM, haven't tested yet and I dont know if I want to. My boobs are still sore and I was nauseous all day yesterday, but im feeling fine now. So who knows. I think its just pre-AF symptoms. I may cave and buy tests today, to take with FMU on saturday. We will see.

I had a super vivid dream that I had had a baby (a girl) and everything was just a little too real. It was really sad when I woke up and realized that it was a dream, not reality.

Emily, what time is your scan? Im waiting anxiously to find out!

Happy Friday everyone!

 

[HWPG]

yes, Happy Friday!

 

[pdxmom]

Morgan it breaks my heart to know wat u went thro...the pics r amazing...so sweet tht u have such amazing memories of little Jaxon... stay strong hun... lots and lots of hugs to u

 

[Cowgirl07]

Morgan-I am so sorry for what you went through! What a beautiful little angel he is!
Emily- Have you had your scan yet?
Afm- still no af, I think she is just biding her time.

 

[NDTaber9211]

I'm glad you got to meet your little Angel Morgan. I am so sorry for what you went through.

Today is officially cd1 for me! I feel weird being so happy af showed up lol.