Hi lovelies, sorry I've not been around, a lot been happening.
Firstly thanks for sharing all about your boys Poppy. it was lovely to hear. They sound like good boys and I laughed at you thinking Korben was going to be an electrician
I think you're right about Ellen buying another of the same toy that was bought for Gerri...it might be lovely for you to keep.
Ellen you asked me about the timing for Joe's funeral, I think it was fine to be honest although I'll be totally honest with you in saying I found it very difficult when it was all over, as people stop asking then and there's an expectation that you just get on with things. You also asked about work. I went back about 8 weeks after Joe. I have to say that I am part time which is why I was able this time to go back sooner, I also have the most amazing boss who has been understanding beyone belief and so I am under no pressure to go back and if I don't want to go in then I just don't go in! The other thing which I think helped is that I actually work with my OH, so I suppose I had additional support at work.
So, today I have been at the crematorium for a combined service for the baby we have just lost. It was really nice, there were 4 other couples there and all the babies were brought in in a coffin that was bigger than Joe's had been. I found it very difficult though sitting listening to similar words and looking again at a white box with my baby that didn't make it in.
In other very major news, my OH has left me
There's loads on my journal but basically it started as something very little and he has acted unreasonably and had decided to leave me as he (yes HE) can't cope...he left from the service this afternoon, we went seperately which was weird and he tried to comfort me but to be honest I just didn't want it from me, he has hurt me at a time I'm hurting enough.
Sorry to bring a downer on things, love to you all as usual