1DPO! TWW Buddies?

lilsoy - It's right, but I'm not pregnant. I actually have to stop TTC for now, as I am beginning to go off my Epilepsy/Bipolar medication, and it's going to be very hard, and adding a pregnancy into it would just make it that much worse.

Speaking of my medication, I'm only on the second day of tapering, and its already being terrible. I've been taking this medication since I was 14 years old, and my body is completely addicted to it. So even after going from 200mgs to 175mgs, after two days I'm already feeling major withdrawal. Sudden outbursts of crying without warning or trigger, throbbing headaches, tremors, etc. My Doc said the withdrawal symptoms should mellow after the first week, but it will get worse leading up to the seventh day. I'll be taking 175mgs for 3 weeks, then I will go down to 150mgs for three weeks, and so on. This is going to be a trying time in my life. :cry:

On a good note, my best friend is coming to visit me in August, which I'm really excited about! :clap:

I hope everyone is doing well!

lilsoy - what's the gender!?!?!?
 
Hey girls,

what's up? :blush:

Wanna congrats on your son! I just flew over the past couple of pages and saw you had him! Awesome news!

How is everyone doing?

We had a few crazy weeks here, we had a fight with neighbors, well it wasn't a fight yet until they basically tried to kill my husband by manipulating his motorcycle. Thank God he noticed before anything happened to him. We can't prove it was them so nothing is going to happen unfortunately but it is very obvious it was them. We have geared up on security stuff on our house and garage, I am slowly starting to feel safe again but I sure hope we won't see them on the street any time soon, not sure if any of us can control ourselves right now.

Then our dog started walking funny and the vet suspects a ruptured ligament on his knee. We are going to a clinic with a specialist on wednesday, if he confirms what it is then he'll have surgery right then. :cry: He is my baby and I am so scared for him. I am devastated about the whole thing and I am praying that it is something else and he doesn't need surgery.

We have basically stopped TTC for now. It wasn't consciously stopping, we were just busy and tired and didn't feel like doing the whole OPK and temping thing anymore.
I will request our records from our fertility clinic and we will go to a different one for a second opinion. If the result is the same we will probably quit trying. We are both tired, we want to start moving on and if one day a miracle happens then that would be great but we want to stop waiting for that miracle and putting our lives on hold. We are not a 100% set on that decision but we are talking about it a lot and we are both leaning towards giving up at this point.
Many days lately, I have been feeling ok with this being our life. And then there is days like mother's day, father's day, hurtful things people say and I still realize how angry and bitter I am over this whole thing. But I am praying to find acceptance and for me to stop being angry.

I am hoping for many BFPs for you girls. For myself, I stopped hoping..
 
Hey Mrs. Vet. :hug: it's good to hear from you. I'm so sorry you are going through so much. You are in my prayers, and so is your Hubby and doggy. :flower:

AFM, I finally got AF today, on CD40. The longest cycle I've ever had. The cramps are awful. :cry: The withdrawal symptoms are getting better, or at least today wasn't excruciating. Trying to stay positive! :thumbup:

Hubby is super stressed at work, so he took a few days off to relax and recover. He goes back to work tomorrow, and I will miss him. :(

Chi is doing well. She's 10 months old! Still can't believe it!

I hope everyone else is well!
 
Hey ladies! I hope you all have a fabulous Independence Day!

Not too much going on here. Still halted with TTC as I'm going off my Lamictal. It's been excruciatingly hot this week. Yesterday it was over 100 degrees Fahrenheit.

My best friend will arrive in a little over 3 weeks! YAY! I'm so excited!

DH is having a tough time because his grandfathers health is failing fast. He's 98 years old, and lived a long and healthy life. He's the sweetest old man I've ever met. We are probably flying to Michigan soon to say our goodbyes. :(

But Chi is doing well. Still no signs of heat with her. I've been putting off getting her fixed, but I need to soon. She should go into heat anytime now, I'm guessing. But she's still as sweet and cute as ever!

I hope you all are doing well!
 
Hey everyone. It's been super quiet here. :nope: I'm packing to fly to Michigan. DH's grandfather had a heart attack and his kidneys are failing. He's 98, and his doctor doesn't expect him to make it through this coming week. Please send up prayers.

I hope everyone is alright. I haven't heard from lilsoy about her gender scan. I hope all of you are well.
 
Hey there!

I'm sorry I never updated about the scan! There has been so much going on. Well, we found out that we are expecting a boy!! We are super excited. I've had a worrisome pregnancy because I keep spotting like every 2 weeks but they said it's because I have a friable cervix which basically means a tender spot on my cervix which is prone to bleeding. So that has kept things interesting. Also, they saw 2 Choroid Plexus cysts on his brain at the anatomy scan so I had to go have a Level II Ultrasound at a high risk doctor because, while harmless on their own, they are also considered a soft marker for Downs Syndrome or Trisomy 18. Thankfully, all looked well at the scan and the cysts will most likely go away o their own. So, back to being excited for November to get here! I'm getting ready to start the next school year and Cross Country which is over in October so time will fly by and November will be here before I even realize. Fun stuff.

How's everyone else doing? It's been super quiet on here but I think about you gals all the time and keep hoping to hear of BFP's soon!!
 
Hey ladies.

lilsoy - I'm glad all the scans turned out okay. I pray you will have a beautiful and healthy baby boy in November!

AFM, my husbands grandfather died on July 14th. Just three days after we flew in. The funeral is on this coming Monday and on Tuesday I will be heading to Ohio for the last week or so of being in the Midwest. Not much else to report at this time. Lots of love!
 
Hey ladies! My cycle is FINALLY starting to regulate since beginning the Prometrium. Had a 27 day cycle this time around, which is much healthier and more normal. I ovulated CD15, but DH and I have been so stressed and with everything else it's been so hard to even DTD at all. But at least I'm regulating and ovulating! I can't post too much since I'm out of town and I'm on my mobile, but I hope you all are doing well!
 
Hey girls,

just checking in!

Lilsoy congrats on having a boy! I hope he will be healthy and time will fly!

Gohan I am so sorry for your loss! I am glad you guys have been able to see him before he passed away! Good news on your cycle!

AFM: I am not on here very often anymore, I am just having a hard time coping.
We are having an appointment end of August at a different clinic for a second opinion (after doing some research I had more and more the feeling of ours being a rip off and we still don't feel like they really went through the alternatives to IVF with us and kinda stopped talking to us after we said that IVF isn't an option for us). If they confirm that IVF is our only option if at all we will try to come to terms with having no kids. It is difficult, some days I'm ok with it, others I'm not. Sometimes I think I can live with it, then comes a Facebook post or news article or something that is immediately throwing me back down and hurts a lot.
I know if they tell us the same at this clinic it will rip open the barely healed wounds again from our last appointment but we need to know that we tried and that we trust the doctor's judgement.
This cycle we actually used OPKs again and BDed on time.
Today I am CD 31, no AF and BFN. Nothing new to us but I hate it. I told DH that after the tests we still have I want to buy no more, I can't take the monthly slap in the face anymore.

Barclay ended up not needing surgery, the ligament is ok! I was so grateful to hear that!! They are suspecting an old injury and that he just got used to not walking right and got issues through that, he obviously has back problems that resulted in him limping. He has been in physical therapy for almost a month now and is almost fully recovered, we have another appointment tomorrow and hopefully won't need anymore after that. It was a stressful couple of weeks, the physical therapist lives far from us so I had to always use my days off for going there with him and because he wasn't allowed to run he was very frustrated at times. But now he is happy and slowly getting back in shape.

In 3 weeks we are going to Vienna, Austria for a friend's wedding and I am really excited about that and try to focus on that! I am so ready for a vacation, even if it is just a few days!

I will keep checking in here to see how you guys are doing and let you know how things are!

Love to all of you girls!
 
I hope everyone is doing well. Chi officially went into heat this weekend. I had an appointment scheduled to get her spayed but DH got the dates mixed up as I was in Ohio when she was supposed to go. But she's in full blown heat now; but it's not as bad as I thought. I will call again tomorrow to make another appointment.

My best is here in town visiting me. I'm having a great time with her! We are watching anime and doing some sewing projects. I don't have a lot of time to fully update, as I am falling asleep. But I will do my best to update fully as soon as I can. I have some big news! (Not pregnancy related) Love you all!
 
Hey ladies. Just a quick update. I woke up yesterday and had excruciating diarrhea, and it continued throughout that day and today. I went to the doc and I apparently have Salmonella Poisioning. I just can't catch a break. Love you all.
 
Hi gals!

Sorry to hear about the Salmonella poisoning . It does seem to be one thing after another with you. I'm so sorry!

Mrs. Vet- Is your second opinion at another fertility specialist coming up soon? I'm glad to hear no surgery was needed for Barclay. Did you have fun on your trip to Vienna?
I'm doing well. I'll be 28 weeks on Friday and starting to get a little uncomfortable. I've been teaching and coaching so I'm tired all the time! I think I'm ready for my little guy to get here even though I'll have no idea what I'm doing.

I hope you guys are doing ok!!
 
Glad to hear you are doing well, lilsoy!

AFM...I'm CD4 over here. Taking antibiotics for Bronchitis again. It's never ending, I tell you. My best friend left two days ago, I'm already feeling empty inside. I really need to update fully. I'll try my best later today. I love you all!
 
Okay, ladies! I FINALLY have enough time to sit down and post a whole bunch! It's been crazy, let me tell you! I'll start with the bad stuff, and work my way to the good. :thumbup:

As you all know, DH's last surviving grandparent passed away in July. It's been tough on him and especially his mother. DH's mom has been doing well enough, with all that's happened. My FIL wasn't able to be there with us during his passing or the funeral, but DH and I did our best to help in every way we could. DH did so well in helping, I'm so proud of him that he was able to set his mourning aside to help his mother. She is an only child, and all the pressure and responsibility was on her, so DH and I did our best to help her. She seems to be doing alright, but she does break down from time to time. Please keep her in your prayers.

In my personal life, I am still fighting off this Bronchitis. It's been worse this time than in March, for sure. I'm not sleeping well due to all the coughing. I am keeping DH up at night, because every time I cough the bed moves. So we are sleeping in the living room as of the last couple days. I sleep on the air mattress and DH sleeps on the sofa next to me. I'm not on the same bed, but we are still within reach. It's a little lonely, but I know he's right there. The Salmonella has mostly worked its way out of my system, but my appetite has not returned to normal quite yet.

Fertility-wise, I am ovulating regularly, but we seem to keep getting smacked in the face every time we want to BD. We want to TTC, but every time we seem to get to the place we can, I get sick, or he's working overtime, or his mother and/or father bugging us for one reason or another, or other things get in the way. It's very frustrating. So, that brings me to my next part of this update...

WE ARE MOVING! :happydance::happydance::happydance::happydance:
DH's grandfather's house was given to his mother, so she is letting us live there, as long as we pay the utilities. It'll be about $500 per month, but it's 3 bedroom, 2 bath. Our room will be almost twice the size of what we have now, and we'll have rooms for when we can *finally* expand our family! We have a target of this coming March. DH is working as much as he can so we can bank as much money as we can. Our goal is $4500, and we are already at $1200. We are moving to Michigan, which where we live will only be 3.5 hours away from my family! :happydance: I'm so excited! We do need to buy a stove and dishwasher, but we'll have plenty for that, which is why are saving like mad! :thumbup: The house does need some work done, but Mom and Dad have seen the house and they think it'll be just minor things and just painting/decorating. Mom is giving us her dining room table and a couch, and we've got a bed frame already there which we will put our mattress on. My grandmother has a computer desk that we can use, as well as some bookcases. We have a TV, computer, entertainment stand, night stands, etc. And the house already has dressers and a refrigerator. It is heated and has air conditioning, as well as a full washer and dryer! We have a beautiful pear tree that is falling over with pears! :haha: I just can't wait to move! Finally...our own home. Our own rules. I can clean the way I want, and decorate the way I want. I can cook the way I want, do laundry whenever I want, and we can BD whenever and WHEREVER we want! I could cry out of joy! :cry::happydance:

I will admit, I am a bit nervous about leaving my team of doctors. Dr. Monwai, Dr. Rodriguez and Dr. Chang have all been amazing to me. I had a conversation with Dr. Monwai after it was decided. He told me that I'd be fine, and there's not much more he can do for me, anyway. I was confused, but then he told me that he's not a PCP, and he never has been. My case was special, because my issues were on a massive spectrum. But he reminded me that when I first saw him, we set goals for my treatment. Those goals were:

1. Control seizures
2. Control Bipolar/Anxiety
3. Get off as many medications as I possibly could
4. Control C. Diff

And we have done almost all those things. I am almost 6 months seizure-free, I haven't self-harmed in over a year, and my Bipolar is completely controlled. I am off of all medications except my Lamictal, which is a work in progress. I haven't had an active C. Diff infection in over 6 months, and my bowel movements are much more regular now, minus the Salmonella. Dr. Monwai said his goal is to treat his patients and send them off. That's what he is doing for me...even if it is sad in some aspects. But I'm doing so well, and I'm happy with it!

Chi has been in heat once already. We have an appointment to get her spayed on September 3rd. She'll go back in heat again in probably a little less than a week. Last time it wasn't too bad, but I'm worried about this next one. :wacko: We'll see, though.

My MIL is wanting to get a second cat. I'm excited, but also nervous for Chi. I think she'll love a little sibling, but then in just 6 months, her sibling will be taken away, because Chi will go with us, and the other cat will stay here. We will definitely get another cat when we get to Michigan though. Two cats are better than one! :thumbup:

Anyway, that's about it for now. I'm sorry this post is super duper long. It's just been ages since I've truly posted a real update. I love you all! Keep in touch, mmkay? :hugs::kiss::flower:
 
Hey ladies. Just wanted to update really quick.

Went to the Doc on Wednesday and my C-RP (C-Reactive Protein; what measures inflammation and infection) was 37. To be healthy it should be under 1. I've got an infection somewhere, or some type of auto-immune disease. Doc is running the test again, and I should know on Monday. But for right now, there is nothing we can do. I'm dealing with the Bronchitis alright, but it's getting to the super-annoying coughing every 5 seconds stage. I'll survive, though. :*

BUT IN OTHER NEWS! I had my hormones tested when I got my CRP done last time. At the time I was about CD30, and Doc just wanted to see what my hormones were, and if I was ovulating. Wellll.....

Testosterone Total: 43.78 (should be between 5.2-69.2)
(previously 51.52)

Testosterone Free: 0.80 (should be between 0.04-1.80)
(previously 0.97)

Testosterone Bioavailable: 15 (should be between 1.2-43.5)
(previously 19)

Testosterone Percentage Free: 1.8 (should be between0.65-2.65)
(previously 1.9)

Estradiol: 93 (should be between 21-312 during Luteal Phase)
(previously 39)

Progesterone: 5.4 (should be between 1.2-15.9 during Luteal Phase)
(previously 1.2)

:happydance::happydance::happydance:

Doc was so happy! He said that was massive improvement! Testosterone was DOWN, and Estrogen and Progesterone were UP! I OVULATED! :happydance::happydance::happydance: He said those are baby-ready hormone levels! He wants my Progesterone to be a bit higher, so he raised my Progesterone to 200mgs as opposed to 100mgs, but he said he'd feel totally safe if I got pregnant with those levels!

I'm so happy I could cry! :happydance::cloud9::blush::cry::happydance:

Just wanted to let you all know. Love you all! :hugs::flower::kiss:
 
Hey girls!

Updating a bit after taking a bit of a break of all TTC-related forums.

lilsoy good to see that you are still doing well! Time is running so fast, feels just like yesterday that you got your BFP!

Gohan that is great news, it's going to be awesome to finally have your own home! And the hormones look good too, maybe things are finally looking up for you guys now!
I am also happy to see that you want to give Chi a friend, you know how I feel about it, I am a very passionate advocate for always having two cats when getting them young. Your best shot would be a female rescue that is about Chi's age, speaking from experience here. She will be thrilled!

AFM, we had our appt at the new fertility clinic on friday. It is over an hour drive from our home but it was absolutely worth it! We felt like finally someone listened to us even though we said right at the beginning that IVF/ICSI is not an option for us. The last clinic the doctor was basically done talking to us with that and we had to push for getting information on IUI. She accepted that and said we should talk about the alternatives.
She looked at our results and gave us a 9% chance for IUI to work which is slightly higher than the last clinic but not great.
I am still ready to just accept it and try to come to terms with not having kids. DH wants to give it one last shot with one or two cycles of IUI which it seems like with that clinic we'd have full coverage by our insurance (it is a lot cheaper than that rip off place we had before) for.
I am very scared of what it will do to us emotionally but I know if we don't do it DH will resent me one day because we haven't tried all we could short of ICSI. I am leaning towards doing it for DH to find closure. Not getting my hopes up for it to work and I hope I can keep it that way to save myself from more heartbreak.
We are getting results from another round of tests on the 18th of September (they needed to run some tests again to have their own results that are more recent than what we have) and if it didn't get much worse from what it was we might go for an IUI in November or December.
I am just so scared of doing this all again! I am honestly ready to close that chapter and move on. Since our trip to Vienna last week I have been feeling halfway sane for the first time in months!

The trip was amazing! We went almost broke with how expensive everything was there, I was dumbfounded by the prices! But it was worth it, we have seen such great places, all the castles and the royal riding school and all that! We had a really great time!! I'd love to go on little trips more often and see more of the world with DH! It is just a bit complicated to organize around the fur babies but it worked well!

Barclay is fully recovered with his knee! we are still giving him massages regular to keep his muscles relaxed and prevent this from happening again! He stepped in some glass the other day and had to take another break from running but it healed within a few days.
We are on our first competition again since it happened in june and are very excited! DH is also participating with him in the beginner class, he hasn't trained must so we'll see how that goes but I am so excited about it!

The cats are also doing well, Oreo is barely inside with the weather being nice. He comes checking on us on occasion and to eat a bit but usually leaves again soon after and even takes his naps outside on the porch. SamSam comes checking on us regular and spends more time inside. He is less active than Oreo it seems but since he is eating and playing I have no reason to be worried.

My job is going well too and I hope I can stay there for a long time. They are very flexible with my hours and I can bring Barclay so it is really perfect for our life!

So I will keep you posted on our journey!
 
Hey ladies! We got our little kitty! Her name is Nuku and she is a little over 3 months old. Her and Chi don't get along right now, but we are doing our best to make them tolerate each other. The guy who runs the adoption center in the local Petco told me that I needed to separate them in separate rooms for a week with their own litter box, food and water bowl, toys, and blanket. Then, after a week to switch the blankets. If they will sleep on the blankets, then we can introduce them again. I hope it works! She's so cute! I'll post a picture a little later! Love you all!:kiss:
 
This is Kitty Nuku!
 

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Well, I have some good news!

Chi and Nuku are best pals now! They cuddle together, bathe each other and play like best friends! I'm so happy!

I got my hormones tested again at CD27, and I wanted to share!


Estradiol: 100 (should be between 21-312 during Luteal Phase)
(previously 93)

Progesterone: 12.32 (should be between 1.2-15.9 during Luteal Phase)
(previously 5.4)

:happydance: Doc said that he would be stunned if I didn't get pregnant by Christmas! :happydance: So that makes me feel super good about myself. :blush:

DH and I only DTD 1 time in my FW this cycle, so we are going to try to do better this coming cycle. I've started cramping and spotting, so I'm likely out this cycle. I got a nasty evap, which was pretty heart-wrenching, but I'm alright. Just wanted to update you all! :kiss:
 
HI guys, I posted once and then went mia! I hope you will still have me. I am looking to start on clomid next cycle. I have been doing a ton of research and think I may ask for a trigger too. I hope my OB/GYN will work with me on the trigger or maybe prometrium.

@gohan that is the cutest little kitty!
 

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