38 and TTC first baby, anyone else?

[Dandi]

Ellie, what's the plan if a good amount fertilize? How many are you going to transfer this time? If there are more, you'll freeze them?

 

[Star2011]

Ellie- l did progesterone 20mg for only 5 days. I did not have any noticeable side effects. I weigh myself weekly and that week my weight was up by 0.5 only. I didnt take it long to start having any of those crazy side effects. Looking at my notes l started 2 days before transfer. Hope this helps.

Aaly- l will be stalking for good news. I hope you a surprise bfp!

Mdc- oh crap! A cancelled cycle? Oh no! Sometimes we have to be pusy pts. I dont blame you for being mad. I did Lovenox too. I was on a shitload of meds for my IVF but worth it. Did the Dr call again? What plan do they have now?

 

[Star2011]

Wish- l like your zen attitude. But l am praying for a positive outcome.

All the ladies on this thread sending all the bfp prayers your way.

 

[elliecain]

Thanks Star.
How many NKC do you have? I have 15% and am on 20mg from today until... I don't know when.
Yes, Dandi. I hope to freeze any extras if we get any... We have been advised to transfer 2 back (if I have that many) due to my age. I'm terrified of twins, but would hate to transfer one, it not work and then always wonder. I've decided to follow the doc's advice!

So, I'll hear the news in about 13 hours! Nervous and excited. Come on zygotes!

 

[Aayla]

Hcg <1. Not pregnant I don't know how many more cycles I can take. My body has decided that it is going to give me so many symptoms and I don't know why. This isn't normal pre af stuff. I onky get spotting and maybe some moodiness. Cramping doesn't even start until she is already here.

 

[elliecain]

I'm sorry Aayla. I know it feels really horrible right now.
Has DH had a semen analysis? I wish I'd done an extended one ages ago and then we'd have known what we were dealing with.

 

[Aayla]

Oh yeah. Right at the beginning. He was told he is superman. it is all me. I think my weight could be a factor and we had loads of stress the first 2 months if the year. This was the least stressful cycle.

I had my big cry and DH cuddled me. Onward and upward. Sure I am still sad but the cycle is basically done.

Going to focus on my program for the next 3 weeks. I will only be temping this cycle and just working out and living during the tww.

 

[elliecain]

Aayla, was it a basic SA - count, morphology, motility? Mine came out as superman in that too. It was only just prior to starting IVF that they did an extended semen analysis and that showed 73% antisperm antibodies and we needed ICSI.

I'd always tell people to get that checked first now.

Weight is a big factor, I know. It's so hard because losing weight is difficult and time consuming. Have you heard of OA? It's a 12 step program like AA but for food addictions and eating disorders. I know lots of people who gave found it really helpful. I joined it when I was anorexic and it did help me emotionally, though I felt rather out of place at my size back then.

 

[elliecain]

So... I got the call. I actually videoed it and am uploading to Vimeo now.

Of the 6 eggs, 5 fertilised, 3 started dividing and 2 are still going strong!
They are both B grade embies (one 2 cell and one 5 cell).

Since I'm having 2 put back, they are going to do it today!!! I'm in at 2.30pm and then I'll be PUPO!

 

[Wish2BMom]

ellie!!! I'm SOOOOO happy!
Happy PUPO Day!!!

aayla - I'm so sorry! it's never easy to get that answer, never. I like your plan, though - focus on getting yourself healthier and building a better temple for your LO to niggle into in the next cycle or two!! You can totally do this!!

it's getting close to our long holiday weekend for the 4th - a big one where people eat and drink lots, BBQ, fireworks, etc. And I can't have a bevvy!! Oh well, we are only seeing friends on Monday so my excuse is that I have to work the next day. Not that that will be different for anyone else! It's always so tempting to just be like 'screw it - loads of people still would have no idea they are even close to being pregnant right now and would have a drink' but I'm going to restrain. There's always next weekend - going to Connecticut with some girlfriends to a casino overnight Fri and Sat for a girls weekend. I have my test next Fri so I'll know if I can drink or not that night.

 

[Dandi]

Ellie- I'm still so so so very excited for you! PUPO!!! I have such great hope that this is it for you!

Wish- One more week until test day! It does suck to miss out on the beverages this weekend. I stand with you in reluctant sobriety!

Aayla- I'm sorry it wasn't the news you hoped for. That's always so discouraging. It's sad to say, but when you get to the jaded point of not even reading into symptoms anymore, it gets a bit easier (not that it's ever truly easy!). Forgive me for not remembering, but have you had any testing done yet on yourself? I only speak for myself (but I think most of the ladies will agree), that knowing exactly what the problem is makes the daily struggle a bit more easy to take on. You know what you're fighting against and can be more targeted in your efforts. If you haven't had a full run of test with an RE, I would highly recommend it. I wish I had done it so much sooner. In the mean time, hang in there and don't lose hope!

 

[Mdc]

Ellie, v
That is the best news yet!!!! I cannot believe you are PUPO already. Now makes me wish I would have done a fresh too so we could be PUPO together. Now I can just send my vibes to you and Wish instead!

Ayala, so sorry about the bfn those darn signs can be so frustrating and it feels like our body is betraying us. Hang in there and I do believe you will get your BFP very soon!

Wish, ugh sorry about the no drinking, but it is for a wonderful cause. We had dinner with friends yesterday and I did not drink. DH and I have finally gotten to the point to drop some pounds we are trying to be really good Monday-Thursday. I did cheat yesterday though with a glass of vino because it was a cramp day and I mean the bottle was open from the weekend...don't want good wine to go to waste. Anyhoo...Wonder why I always get looks like...huh...no wine. Ha ha ha! Guess that should say something.

Thanks for everyone thoughts. Next up a natural cycle next month to see if my little lining that could can do it all by myself. Doc just thinks I am a thin lining type of person. I was going to try to fit a vacation in but honestly there may not be enough time since we have a weekend trip with the in laws the 16th of July so we really don't have enough time. There are worse problems to have!

 

[Aayla]

Ellie: Yay for the little embies!!! What time today? Maybe you have already done it since I writing 6 hours later!!

I am not sure if it was a full check on him but I did get pregnant before.

Wish: if you are still a week away from testing you can have some drinks. Or just one glass of wine. implantation likely is just happening. But everyone has their thing. Some don't drink at all while TTC, or only when af is here, or "drink until pink." I have to restrict myself because even one drink doesn't mix well with letrozole. But sometimes I suck up the hang over feeling the next day. lol

Dandi: Oh I know I am the problem. I don't ovulate on my own which is why I am on letrozole. We got pregnant on my 3rd cycle of it but that ended in mc. I am also nearly 200 lbs overweight, insulin resistant the last time I did a glucose test (but my hemoglobin test came back in healthy range), and I have PCOS.

I have thought about making the choice to do IUI. I have to lose at least 50 lbs first. They say it will increase our chances. But the only problem with IUI is the timing. I don't get a positive opk the day before I ovulate. Mine seem to happen the same day. which isn't exactly going to work for this.

 

[Mdc]

Ayala, I believe I O the same day as opk also. Most please will allow you to do a same day iui. It is usually out of protocol, but they can usually make it work.

 

[Dandi]

Do they have you on Metformin for your insulin resistance? That can make a huge difference. I was only every so slightly resistant and had to go on it to get pregnant. Ahh letrozole! It holds a warm place in my heart bc it was my miracle drug, along with a bit of gonal-f. I think you should definitely look into iui. Your opk timing won't matter if you do a monitored cycle and and a trigger. And the assistance really takes the pressure off of you in an unexpected way, which helps you to not stress, which helps your body do what it needs to do! Stay hopeful! Wishing you all the best.

 

[Aayla]

Oh and I forgot to mention..my positives come in the evening.

I will talk to the doc about IUI. I have to lose weight first though so it could be a couple of cycles off.

I was on metformin awhile ago but had horrible side effects. I asked to be put on it again and that is why I got the hemoglobin A1c test. That came back normal so I have no idea if I will be put on it. I may need to do another glucose test to confirm those results. The hemoglobin test shows how much glucose is in my red blood cells over the last 3 months. But it doesn't say how glucose instantly affects my insulin.

Just waiting for the doc office to call back.

 

[elliecain]

I'm lucky that I haven't drink alcohol for years as both DH and I are recovering alcoholics, so no having to give it up to TTC!

So, I am officially PUPO! They put both back in and it went really well, like textbook. The 2 cell had become a 4 cell already, so I have a 4B and a 5B on board - good embryo gradings.

Now I'm going to relax and drink warm drinks with slipper socks on!

 

[Mdc]

Congrats again Ellie!

Ayala, sometime metformin has some nasty side effects, but I highly recommend tapering up instead of jumping in right away as it can really help.

 

[Left wonderin]

Ellie this is for you

 

[Left wonderin]

And wish for you