3rd Cycles A Charm??♤♡ Wishing on a star ♧◇ TTC BABY #2

[FTale]

Overweight or underweight or whatever others perceive you to be, people are gonna judge you. Thats why I tell my dd to love everything about herself or negative people will try and make you hate yourself. If your doctor gives you a clean bill of health, then click on and let the others talk in the wind.

Be yourself and love the self you are being. You are unique. We all are. BIG BIG HUGS

 

[RainbowBaby13]

Prayers for the job! I really hope you get it!

Sorry about the comments people are making. I know I went from being overweight years back to very slim and oh my goodness the comments people thought it was OK to make! I got all those comments you listed, people were so blunt. I used to ask them why they didn't make weight related comments when I was bigger. Where were the comments asking me why I was so big, whether I should eat less, how fat I looked lately etc. I once had a relative put food in front of me when I hadn't even said I wanted it, and they said to eat it because I looked like I needed it. I asked them why they never refused me food when I was bigger and told me I looked like I didn't need it.
It's crazy the comments people will make to body shame smaller people yet wouldn't dare to make those kind of comments to us when we were bigger. I am somewhere in the middle now so I haven't had any comments for a while, but I totally understand your frustration!

I thank you so so much. I sincerely appreciate that. It makes me feel less alone knowing that others have experienced it. It very crazy the comments people make and I'm sorry that you had to experience that as well.

Overweight or underweight or whatever others perceive you to be, people are gonna judge you. Thats why I tell my dd to love everything about herself or negative people will try and make you hate yourself. If your doctor gives you a clean bill of health, then click on and let the others talk in the wind.

Be yourself and love the self you are being. You are unique. We all are. BIG BIG HUGS

Thank you and that's very true. At one point I let the comments get to my head and actually tried gaining a little weight What an idiot I am. I learning to love everything about myself even if someone else hates or dislikes something or everything about me. I am learning to focus my energy on those that actually love me and accept me, like my family. I'm working on being "present" and less negative. I tend to let a lot of things get under my skin and bother me.

Thank you both

 

[RainbowBaby13]

Tonight I am going to be having a talk to with DH about ttc. Yesterday I was so upset about my job that I had called off ttc. However, I acted on pure emotion so now I have to convince him to let us resume trying again. TTC is so close and I really don't want my emotions to keep getting the best of me anymore. I am scared and nervous about having another baby, but it's something I really want and been wanting for years now. I'll keep you guys updated. I hope I didn't screw up our chances.

With the job that I applied for, I haven't heard back from them yet, but I thought I would because they reached out to me the same day I applied requesting I do a video interview. I did the interview and haven't heard anything back yet and the job listing is now closed. So, I don't know if that's a good sign or a bad sign. I don't really feel confident anymore about it, but the worst that can happen is they tell me no. There are other jobs out there so I wont focus to much on the ones that don't hire me.

As for as my current job, it's a job.. I'm going to work on being more positive about that as well. I just really want a job that I enjoy and because I don't it makes this job hard going to.

 

[Bevziibubble]

Hopefully you and your DH can have a good talk and come to a decision about ttc

I hope you hear back from the job soon. Good luck!

I hope your current job improves

 

[RainbowBaby13]

Thank you, Bev

The talk with my husband was okay. He agreed for us to keep trying, but I can tell that he has not really been on board from the beginning for reasons I do understand. It makes me feel as though I have to keep my excitement to myself which makes me kinda sad. I feel like it takes away from it.

I don't think ima get the job. They ended up reposting the job listing and now they have so many more applicants. I feel like I don't compare to the experience they may have. The fact they closed the job posting then opened it back up says to me that they didn't find what they were looking for. I doubt I will be getting a call back.

I'm getting more comfortable working on my own at my job, so it's getting a little better. The main thing for me was not knowing what I was doing. I'm more familiar with the residents now so today I am going to try to be more independent. I like working on my own anyways lol. When i have to follow other people around I have to work at their pace instead of mine and i hate that lol

 

[FTale]

He will get onboard as soon as he sees you are happy.
I prefer working at my own pace to with agendas to complete. I do nit like open ended matters left because others haven't done their part....I will just knock it out...lol
That's the number one reason I could never do a call center. Tell you when to go to bathroom, lunch, sneeze, cell...nah. I like more freedom than that which will be hard to find whenever my job ends.

Meanwhile, Fx for ttcing...keep it casual. I have had to do that so many times to keep my hubby interested

 

[RainbowBaby13]

He will get onboard as soon as he sees you are happy.
I prefer working at my own pace to with agendas to complete. I do nit like open ended matters left because others haven't done their part....I will just knock it out...lol
That's the number one reason I could never do a call center. Tell you when to go to bathroom, lunch, sneeze, cell...nah. I like more freedom than that which will be hard to find whenever my job ends.

Meanwhile, Fx for ttcing...keep it casual. I have had to do that so many times to keep my hubby interested

Thank you so much yeah, i know he'll come around eventually, I just don't want my excitement to come off as tho I'm disregarding his concerns. Idk if that makes sense lol

Yes, same here!! I cannot stand working in teams or in a group lol. I rather do my own thing. Sometimes I do have to ask for help if the resident is too heavy to change or transfer by myself, but even then I'm still hating the fact a gotta ask lol. I agree, I don't want to be slowed down or penalized for anyone's else mistakes.

For sure!! Thank you girly

 

[Bevziibubble]

I'm glad you and your DH had a talk. Sorry you feel like he's not fully on board. Hope he comes around soon.

I'm sorry they reposted the job listing

 

[RainbowBaby13]

Thank you, Bev

Today af is supposed to start so I am impatiently waiting for her to come because after af is over we can start ttc! Exactly one week away and I'm so so exited!

Last night one of the actual employees walked out without saying anything and never came back. I think she quit lol. It was just me and another person and we had a whole building full of residents we had to tend to This job is tiring me out lol. It's so much walking and the floors and hallways are large!! Lol.

 

[FTale]

You must be so sore. I hope you have comfortable shoes. Do you do any stretches or muscle relaxing moves? I hope they get some more help there to make it easier to do. But also hoping you find some new when the time is right.

Fx for ttcing. Something to look forward to.

 

[RainbowBaby13]

So far my feet are okay, but I noticed I have been feeling my calf muscles trying to cramp up- ouch! lol. I hope they bring in more help too because if not I'm doing the bare minimum. When me and Dh get pregnant I don't want to stress out the baby or my body by being overworked. And thank you!! I hope I can find something that I can do from home especially with my son about to start school. 1st trimester sleepiness, working overnights, and my son in school??? I'm going to be a zombie haha

We went out to eat today and me and Dh actually had an amazing talk about us having a baby! He was so happy and actually enjoying the conversation We talked about if we thought it was going to be a girl or a boy, if it was going to be a mommy's or daddy's boy or girl, me talking about how he's going to pamper me , me getting fat , rubbin my belly etc lol. He obviously thinks it's going to be a daddy's boy. I'm split in the middle and said maybe twins lol. So I said alright, let's bet! lol It was a great conversation and glad that he is coming around to it more. This was the most we have actually talked about anything baby related and looking forward to having more of these great talks!!

 

[RainbowBaby13]

Af wise I am having the worse back cramps as well as dull cramping everywhere. C'mon Af!!! Please start so you can leave lol. These cramps are bad

 

[Bevziibubble]

That must be really tiring

Yay for an amazing talk with your DH! Good luck for ttc!

 

[RainbowBaby13]

It's officially cycle #1!!!! I hope and pray that we conceive this cycle and be our take home baby. I have been waiting for this moment for years!! I have been on and off this site in the past making journals documenting cycles hoping and praying that we would have an oops moment that would lead to an bfp. So to finally be back because we are actively trying is so surreal


Less than one week away and I'm on cloud 9!! Finally!!! Finally!! Finally!!!!

I can finally start talking about ttc instead of talking about other stuff like my job lol.

 

[Bevziibubble]

So excited for you! Good luck!

 

[FTale]

Awwwww.

Cloud 9 it is then!!! I can feel your excitement. Boy or girl I am sure you both will be spoiled rotten. If its multiples you will need plenty of time off your feet.

 

[NightFlower]

Yay so exciting.

 

[RainbowBaby13]

Thank you ladies!!!

I was looking in my closet for my ear pods and found some pregnancy tests. So now I don't have to worry about buying any tests lol. Idk if I need anything else. I have ovulation tests, pregnancy tests, and the mucinex. I have a little preseed left as well. I am so praying that we conceive this cycle

 

[Bevziibubble]

Glad you found some supplies!

 

[RainbowBaby13]

Thank you, Bev!

Eeek! 4 more days!! These days are going by so fast! I'm so excited! One thing I for sure need to brush up on is when to test with the lh strips. I read somewhere that second morning urine is the best with ovulation but I have no clue. With my sleep schedule and working overnight, I don't think I could wake up around the same time and test. But idk- I'll figure it out I guess. Anything for a baby lol.

As far as the job searching goes, I have a video interview later so I'm excited for that. I can't wait to work regular hours because this overnight business is not it lol.