5dpo, AF due 5/12, want to wait this out together? :)

[DobbyForever]

So office visit summary:
1) Accidentally applying hydrocortisone internally instead of yeast infection medicine is nbd. Yeast infection is gone though
2) My mystery pain is that SO evidently bruised my cervix during our BD marathon this cycle lol (he's really proud of himself r_r)
3) My ovaries and uterus look good and healthy. She said my left ovary looked thin so she's sure I ovulated this month (because it's not like I already knew that from my temps). She did do a pregnancy test for good measure, and it was neg.

Weird things: She said I should expect my period in 7 days. I didn't have a chance to process what she said until I was driving home, but if my period was due in 2 days with spotting starting tomorrow then wouldn't she have been able to see that? And as for the blood, she can't think of why I would be bleeding. She thought maybe a bladder infection, but even admitted I am not experiencing any other bladder symptoms so it doesn't seem the likely culprit.

 

[ms sunshine]

Sillas - hope it comes in post how annoying.
Hubby said to retest and get a stronger line before docs so probably do it on Sunday and go doc mon. By the time he came home from work you could still see the positive but it had faded. I'd does say to bin after 4 hrs so will be nice to show him a stronger bfp.

That's weird dobby doesn't make sense can you ring her and ask or do you need an appointment?dont understand why 7 days. Would she be able to tell from a scan if u were pg already thought it would be too tiny, I've still got hope. Bleed could be breakthrough if af doesn't arrive tomorrow.

My son took over the bed last night can't believe a little boy can take up all the bed

 

[DobbyForever]

Awesome well don't forget to share your lines with us, too

I broke down yesterday. Poor SO. I try to keep him blind to the process since he has too much stress and I don't want sex to turn into a chore, but I just unloaded on him. I emailed the doctor and she wasn't any help. My bbt is down to 97.51 so I'm expecting af today or tomorrow. Doc is pretty sure the bleeding is from my bruised cervix which is probably from when I put my applicator in funny a few days ago or from SO weeks ago.

I hate that I have had so many accidental then lost pregnancies, and now that I am trying I'm not getting pregnant.

 

[ms sunshine]

Well I don't know what's going on my opks aren't as dark so I didn't the other hpt and can't see a line there might be a super faint one idk. Hubby is buying some digi to use one tonight and one in morning and I've got the doc ringing me in the morning too. Feel a bit heart broken. I dont feel bad got usual cervix cramps cm some palpitations which I got in first pg. Not as dizzy but not been put today. Just a little scared.

My dad died on Xmas eve just gone so I don't know how I'd cope with this.

I shouldn't have done the test it was 3 hrs since a big drink I just needed to wee so didn't see the harm. My lines yesterday were faint so maybe it watered it down. I think there's a mega faint line. Just feel a bit heart broken

 

[DobbyForever]

Hugs try not to get too upset. If you had a bIG drink on a three hour hold It may not have been concentrated enough. I'm a worry wart so I say if betas are easy to get then go for thay

 

[DobbyForever]

I'm just hoping this is my cycle. I have read it takes about three months to get your lining good to go post iud and Chinese gender says this month is my last boy month for the year. Just hoping that's what the fates have in store. And a March due date still means I could come back post spring break to wrap up the year with my kids

 

[kksy9b]

I was predicted girl on the chinese charts and had a boy I hope it is your month, but don't feel like you have lost all chances at a boy this year if it isn't....it's still 50/50

 

[SilasLove]

I left my appointment today feeling better, and with some possible plans. So I am happy I went back.

Basically, my dr said that if she sent me to a fertility specialist the first thing he would say would be that I need to lose weight - and the second would be that I haven't been trying long enough. The guidelines for them are under 35 - 1 year and 35 and old - 6 months. Basically, I am too young. BUT she said that if I come back at my 9 months TTC (2 months from now) and I have lost 10-15 lbs she would try a low dose of Clomid to help try to speed things along - given of course I can lose the weight and while losing the weight I don't get pregnant. She said even a 5lb gain/loss can mess up your ovulation. I go in on my CD21 because she wants to do some blood work to see if I am ovulating or not. So that is June 13th I do believe. So, at this point I know what I NEED to do. She also says she thinks I have a mild case of PCOS.

Basically, 5 years ago when I conceived our last child I was 20lbs lighter than I am now. Since I had no issues then the idea is that if I lost this extra weight then I would definitely be more likely to conceive again. Heck, its worth a shot. I mean - its better than taking BCP for 3 months. And it definitely wouldn't hurt to lose the extra weight I have put on - depressing, no doubt but probably what I need anyway.

So, at this point that is where I am. If I can do what I need to do then I do have another option IF I don't get pregnant on my own. So, we will see.

Dobby - sorry you're feeling this way I hope this is it. I got pregnant so quickly with my "oopsies" that I am having a hard time accepting that the one time I am trying to get pregnant it just isn't happening like that. It sucks.

Sunshine - good luck honey!! I hope this is it. GL with the digi's!

Also, got my opk's in the mail today so will start testing tonight.

 

[mac1979]

Dobby, I'm sorry you are having a rough time conceiving. If it helps every single chart/old wives tale said I was having a girl and I have my baby boy.

I'm wondering if I may have a thyroid issue. I am exhausted in the afternoons physically I feel like I've lost 10 lbs but the scale says different. So exasperating.

 

[ms sunshine]

Digi says not pregnant only managed 4 half hrs sleep but not making excuses I don't understand still light headed signs and cramps but not af cramps and no af. So guess I'm off to the docs see what they say

 

[SilasLove]

Good luck sunshine I hope you get good news.

 

[kksy9b]

i hope that you get some answers from the doctor ms sunshine

 

[ms sunshine]

Thanks guys I'm feeling but better as just found out that cb digi has a high sensitivity it's 25 and what I got bfp on is 10. So going to get a few cheapies whilst out at docs see if that shows up anything just waiting for them to ring

 

[ms sunshine]

doctor was shocking. told her i got bfp, and told her about other tests. asked her what should we do now, she said stop being anxious and enjoy it. it was probably the sensitivity of the tests being higher. she said enjoy being pregnant and test again in a week...... wtf???? excuse the language but seriously?? being told not to stress when your stressed is pretty annoying but being told by a doctor when you need help, well.... she said the tests they do are the same you get in shops... i thought what about blood work. so ignored he crap advice bought more tests, im leaving it to develop but i can see i faint grey line its the same brand you guys could really see much on from other day all i could afford ive gone through so many this week. but the sensitivity is 25, hope the line develops a bit more. my opks are hit and miss dark and quite faded, i guess my hormones are all over. i know not everyone gets positive opks when pregnant straight away from what ive read so to stop stressing myself out ive just got to say no af no nasty cramps still pg. this test is from the other day and the sensitivity was 10 and you can def see a line. im just going to try and relax and if i dont get anything stronger by thurs i will try and speak to a different doc...

dobby you are officially late today has the spotting stopped fingers crossed for you, would be lovely for it to be your month , must be so heartbreaking to go through so many mc's

sillas, at least you got some answers and its good to know what to aim for. Though hopefully you will get a nice suprose before then

mac do you have many low bbt's? in uk if you have quite a few 35c or below (dont know what it would be in f) its a sign of thyroid issues

 

[mac1979]

My low temp is usually around 97.5, which is a bit lower than when we were ttc with Raptor. Right now I'm focusing on our trip to Anaheim Sunday and the 5 days I will have alone with the toddler when we get back. I'm gonna go loopy if the weather still sucks then.

 

[DobbyForever]

Well that is so frustrating! =/ would the doctor not run bloods or you just didn't ask? I'm sorry. Hugs

It's definitely the witch. The spotting was much lighter than my usual spotting, but this period is lighter. I'm ok though. I hit a low point emotionally on Friday. I lashed out at everyone who matters to me. My mom, my closest friends, and even SO. My mom unconditionally loves me and so does my very best friend, but SO is having a really hard time overcoming the really effed up things I said to him.

 

[ms sunshine]

Nah she wouldn't do them said to take a test next Fri. Im Going out my mind lol. I can't get any more lines. I've read early pg hormones are up and down although they increase. No cramps or af still. Would have thought since its 5 days from bfp I would have had af if bean didn't stick? No idea how that works. I still feel pregnant so it's confusing. Had 10 miu bfn but could only hold for an hr and a half but was hoping there would be something.

Hope you and your hubby are ok. I know ttc can really drive you nuts did for me when trying for first. I hope you and your hubby can sort it out you guys so really solid so maybe it will take a bit of time. I know he probably understands it effects you badly but I don't think a guy an fully understand what it feels like. And it does drive ladies nuts. We tried for a yr and 3 months every month I cried and the longer it took the worse I felt and I'm sure I took it out on my hubby. To be honest I sort of blamed him for making me retest the day after bfp gone from happy to miserable just because he wanted to see the word pregnant on a digi. Im just presuming that if it was a delayed mc it would have started by now.

Big hugs it will happen x

 

[DobbyForever]

That sucks. Friday feels like so long from now. Biggest hugs. I hope it sticks. The having to pee every hour sounds promising though.

Yeah, well. He hasn't been home since Thursday night. I said some really cruel things, and he tried to get me to stop. I brought his mom into it, and you know how men get about their moms. He said he could have handled anything I said, but the moment I started talking about his mom was when he wasn't sure he should forgive me. We talked a little on Friday and late last night (from 9 until 4 am), but his therapist told him to leave me. So he doesn't know what to do. I'm hoping he just needs time and space to cool down. I did talk to his mom, and she was sweet about the while thing. Didn't even rat me out for calling.

 

[ms sunshine]

Can't believe his therapist said that not her that would have to live with the decision either. Hope he understands everyone screws up. Hope he calms down and comes home, let us know what happens

 

[DobbyForever]

My therapist thinks his therapist is dumb. She said it's not a therapist's place to make recommendations of that kind, especially since I am 99% of the time the most positive influence and source of unconditional support. Idk. He seems calmer today. I'm hoping he'll come home tonight. Is it bad that I'm like as long as he brings his butt (ok, his penis) home by ovulation?

Update: he is watching the warriors game with friends then coming home. He told his therapist he isn't leaving me, so they are now working on him getting over it, trusting me again, and then we can start talking baby again. I triggered his PTSD so she was none too happy. But she doesn't make his choices for him and I'm working on my abandonment triggers so we'll be back to awesome soon. Thanks for letting me vent.