I have to stay positive for my husband, he is very emotional. I decided to spend a couple days at my moms b/c my husband works overnights..and it is not good for me to be alone at night, as i would be thinking of all the "what if i did.." and "i should have.." ect and i cannot do that.
This is our 6th loss in 2 years. the other m/c's i had were very early around 4-5weeks..we thought they had an issue with not sticking, but now that we know we're completely capable of getting pregnant and having a sticky baby (kinda) we feel ok. I have pcos, so i will be asking/calling my old ob and making an appt with her. i am supposed to see her on nov 22..but that was for my first appt..and since i'll likely lose the pregnancy, i want to see what she would suggest..and if i should be on meds for my pcos and what not.
I would rather lose an unhealthy baby early, than have an unhealthy baby that would need alot of medical things that leads to high medical bills. I know it sounds bad, but that would be how we feel.
I had the depo shot may2009. I did not get a 2nd dose like i was supposed to in aug/sept 2009..so after i stopped that..i gained almost 100lbs! I was 170-180lbs before getting depo and shot up to almost 240/250 after the shot..and was unable to lose weight from 2009-2011. I lost 21lbs from june2011-sept2011. I will be hopping back on that train, when I am told I am able to do so. I was soooo strict with myself to succeed. I'll never understand why this baby didnt grow past 6wks, but god does not give you more than what you can handle..it stinks hardcore, but we will have a baby soon. I believe that.
i am still holding on hope for you!
