anyone lost in 2011 and trying again?

[Niamh22]

fingers crossed for you spell fairy. I was thinking about prenatal vitamins might get some,

ah sorry eternal i thought you were mentioning things that were like prenatal vitamins(not really up on this as you can tell) i don't seem to have any problems conceiving so they are prob not for me thanks for the advice though

 

[9babiesgone]

9babiesgone - so sorry to hear your having a rough day
spell fairy - lots of positive symptoms there! i really hope this is your bfp for you.

like eternal i've been taking vitex (agnus castus) again, since our loss. i took it for our 'lucky month' of ttc, so thought i was worth trying again. i'd read a lot about it's properties in relation to pcos, which i've had for a long time, so thought i was worth a try again. especially as prior to our loss, af had began to be terribly heavy and longer again.
tomorrow willl be a week since we first got our bfn and our loss began, although i'm hoping af wont show, i shall be bitter-sweat 'pleased' when/if she does after this, hope that makes sense!

awe that makes perfect sense!! I know the feeling. thanks for the hugs!! I am really glad I post in this thread, everyone is so awesome.

 

[xSamanthax]

Thank you everyone for letting me rant, aparently there is a bug going around so i think i have picked that up... its one thing after another.

I can't wait for tomorrow, i know that the chance my AF will come is slim but i'm really hoping it does so we can start TTC again, I've even got my OH taking pregnacare his & her conception tablets with me

 

[gemi83]

I lost my baby between 31/12/10 and 10/1/11 @ 7wks we r trying again however its so confusing, still no visit from AF and bfn so just watching, waiting and praying. Keeping everything Xd for everyone xx

 

[Eternal]

i had a ercp on the 7th and had Af 4 days ago, so quite awhile, do you think you ovulated?

xSamanthax - rant away ... really hope AF does turn up, be good just to get it over with and move on, i found it quite hard when i started bleeding, bring everything back again in a way, so be prepared incase its hard for you too xxx

 

[diverdi]

Thank you everyone for letting me rant, aparently there is a bug going around so i think i have picked that up... its one thing after another.

I can't wait for tomorrow, i know that the chance my AF will come is slim but i'm really hoping it does so we can start TTC again, I've even got my OH taking pregnacare his & her conception tablets with me

I have my DH taking them too! He thinks it's great I've sent him 'sex tablets'!! No AF for me yet either, hoping she won't show her ugly face and spoil my holiday.

 

[xSamanthax]

i had a ercp on the 7th and had Af 4 days ago, so quite awhile, do you think you ovulated?

xSamanthax - rant away ... really hope AF does turn up, be good just to get it over with and move on, i found it quite hard when i started bleeding, bring everything back again in a way, so be prepared incase its hard for you too xxx

Thanks i think it will be hard, but also a release too, i still have bad days where i miss my Baby Angel so much and want him/her back but i've been coping really well, my belief that my Baby Angel isn't suffering trying to survive and isn't in any pain really helps me.

I think i ovulated on the 29th, i had EWCM which to be honest i have never had before, so that was a shock... didn't even know what it was lol I've had Creamy CM before but never EWCM.

I have my DH taking them too! He thinks it's great I've sent him 'sex tablets'!! No AF for me yet either, hoping she won't show her ugly face and spoil my holiday.

'sex tablets' Love it!! Hope AF doesn't come on your holiday

 

[Mel S]

I am so tired of waiting. why cant it be the 20th already?

I know its frustrating but it really will come round soon enough.

thanks!!!
I really hope it does. how are you?

I'm good today thanks - have had a couple of bad days but had a long chat with OH yesterday and I am hoping that things will get better. How is your patience holding up?

 

[Mel S]

Well, im feeling more motiavted and know i need to exercise more so hopfully that will keep up.

Today i went to see a friend who specialises in alternative therapies, i had a few different things including refelxology (which i didnt think i would be able to let someone tough my feet but it was fine) and acupressure (uses the same points as the acupunture but applied pressure instead of needles).

I bought and ordered different drugs to try too, so i will be taking;
Maca - Whole cycle
Vitex - whole cycle except menstruation
Evening primrose oil - menstruation to ovulation
Fkaxseed oil - ovulation - menstruation
Royal jelly - everyday


I took loads of things when i conceived sam and ive spent a lot of time reading up on these so fingers crossed.

As I have had trouble conceiving do you think I should look them up and see what they are about - although it is unexplained infertility there was a question over how regularly I was ovulating....

How are you feeling today?

 

[Mel S]

9Babiesgone

What has happened? We are hear to listen and offer support.

 

[9babiesgone]

9Babiesgone

What has happened? We are hear to listen and offer support.

well just so much has happened in a few days, on here, that disturbed me today badly. and now MY shrink, now ex-shrink not only talked down on my spirituality, but also told me point blank, that having an eating disorder, and depression, was an addiction just like a crack addict. that I was an addict! and that she recommended me to a couple books for drug addict.s I was like, how does depression and eating disorders have anything to do with , people who are addicted to drugs??

omgosh I am livid right now. and then the icing on the cake, is today I would have been 18 weeks and a few days and finding out what my baby was. I am a little bit of an emotional wreck.

 

[Mel S]

9Babiesgone

What has happened? We are hear to listen and offer support.

well just so much has happened in a few days, on here, that disturbed me today badly. and now MY shrink, now ex-shrink not only talked down on my spirituality, but also told me point blank, that having an eating disorder, and depression, was an addiction just like a crack addict. that I was an addict! and that she recommended me to a couple books for drug addict.s I was like, how does depression and eating disorders have anything to do with , people who are addicted to drugs??

omgosh I am livid right now. and then the icing on the cake, is today I would have been 18 weeks and a few days and finding out what my baby was. I am a little bit of an emotional wreck.

I'm sorry that you are having a rough time - it sounds like your shrink isn't the most understanding of people...depression is not an addiction it is an illness, I would also class eating disorders as an illness as well but I don't know so much about them.
What was on here that upset you so much?

I know how difficult it can be when things remind you of what should of been - I have had that a couple of times this week and it has made me cry.

Crying however I do think is a good way of dealing with the pain so don't hold it in.

 

[9babiesgone]

9Babiesgone

What has happened? We are hear to listen and offer support.

well just so much has happened in a few days, on here, that disturbed me today badly. and now MY shrink, now ex-shrink not only talked down on my spirituality, but also told me point blank, that having an eating disorder, and depression, was an addiction just like a crack addict. that I was an addict! and that she recommended me to a couple books for drug addict.s I was like, how does depression and eating disorders have anything to do with , people who are addicted to drugs??

omgosh I am livid right now. and then the icing on the cake, is today I would have been 18 weeks and a few days and finding out what my baby was. I am a little bit of an emotional wreck.

I'm sorry that you are having a rough time - it sounds like your shrink isn't the most understanding of people...depression is not an addiction it is an illness, I would also class eating disorders as an illness as well but I don't know so much about them.
What was on here that upset you so much?

I know how difficult it can be when things remind you of what should of been - I have had that a couple of times this week and it has made me cry.

Crying however I do think is a good way of dealing with the pain so don't hold it in.

I am trying not to cry. I guess I should let myself.
this post upset me badly where this one woman said she didnt understand why women with kids who are ttc, could relate to people who are ttc for a long time, and with no kids. and then it got really nasty from there. someone even said that they would want an mc, just bc they knew they could get pregnant. it was just knarly. adn the sad part is it took me 2 1/2 years to get my 1st child. and I almost lost her too.

I guess that with the shrink just threw me off balance. I am a recovering anorexic, and have mdd , and she had the audacity to compare me to a drug addict and hand me that dumb book about that. I am so peeved about it. I have been doign so well with my recovery and she has to go and say something like that.
I guess all those combined just threw me into a full on upset fest. and then looking at my 12 week ultrasound of my last angel. just made me so mad that I would be 18 weeks right now.

 

[3boys]

9babies gone, i am so sorry for your losses, and for how insensitive people have been to you. From what i can see you are made of remarkable stuff and your strength astounds me. You truely are an inspiration to others, i know that isnt much use to u when your hurting so bad but i just had to say it! x x

 

[9babiesgone]

9babies gone, i am so sorry for your losses, and for how insensitive people have been to you. From what i can see you are made of remarkable stuff and your strength astounds me. You truely are an inspiration to others, i know that isnt much use to u when your hurting so bad but i just had to say it! x x

Thank you so much for saying that! Honestly!! It really made my day! maybe even my week!!! I actually cried happy tears when I read it.
I think you are pretty dang amazing yourself. and never ever forget that. Us women we are strong and great and beautiful people, and you especially!!!

 

[3boys]

thanks hun, its funny how we never see the good in ourselves. I think we just have to remember that people are always going to have opinions which can be unfounded when they have no understanding of a subject, like you it took me a while to conceive my first (2 years) so i know the pain of thinking it will never happen, and for my third it also took 2 years with a m/c in between and for me that pain was no different. Take care of yourself hun, and allow yourself to grieve, i cant even begin to understand what you are going through, but from the little taste i had i know that i kept trying to be strong and kept telling everyone i was fine, when inside i was breaking. Its ok to grieve. x x

 

[9babiesgone]

I am so sorry you have had any losses!! it is a terrible thing. I am wishing just the greatest stickiness for your new bean. congrats btw. You are a beautiful person and I am so glad things are going well righ tnow. YOu deserve it.

 

[Mel S]

9Babiesgone

What has happened? We are hear to listen and offer support.

well just so much has happened in a few days, on here, that disturbed me today badly. and now MY shrink, now ex-shrink not only talked down on my spirituality, but also told me point blank, that having an eating disorder, and depression, was an addiction just like a crack addict. that I was an addict! and that she recommended me to a couple books for drug addict.s I was like, how does depression and eating disorders have anything to do with , people who are addicted to drugs??

omgosh I am livid right now. and then the icing on the cake, is today I would have been 18 weeks and a few days and finding out what my baby was. I am a little bit of an emotional wreck.

I'm sorry that you are having a rough time - it sounds like your shrink isn't the most understanding of people...depression is not an addiction it is an illness, I would also class eating disorders as an illness as well but I don't know so much about them.
What was on here that upset you so much?

I know how difficult it can be when things remind you of what should of been - I have had that a couple of times this week and it has made me cry.

Crying however I do think is a good way of dealing with the pain so don't hold it in.

I am trying not to cry. I guess I should let myself.
this post upset me badly where this one woman said she didnt understand why women with kids who are ttc, could relate to people who are ttc for a long time, and with no kids. and then it got really nasty from there. someone even said that they would want an mc, just bc they knew they could get pregnant. it was just knarly. adn the sad part is it took me 2 1/2 years to get my 1st child. and I almost lost her too.

I guess that with the shrink just threw me off balance. I am a recovering anorexic, and have mdd , and she had the audacity to compare me to a drug addict and hand me that dumb book about that. I am so peeved about it. I have been doign so well with my recovery and she has to go and say something like that.
I guess all those combined just threw me into a full on upset fest. and then looking at my 12 week ultrasound of my last angel. just made me so mad that I would be 18 weeks right now.

I've just read the post that you were talking about - I can understand why it has upset you. Don't bottle it up though you really do need to let your emotions out. I would of been just under 15 weeks now and it makes me sad whenever I think about it.

 

[Eternal]

i would have been 16 weeks now, so i can undertsand and that thread really upset me too! ive been so pro this site since i joined and now im a bit lost over that. is that really what people think about me because im trying for my second?

as for your shrink, thats crazy!!! Ive suffered from depression and need medication but no one has compared it to being an adict. and the eating disorder isnt an addiction! crazy woman. is she just trying to ensure you business forever? what a very stupid thing to say.

have a good cry and know that on this thread there are lots of people who love and care about you. we think your fanastic. you really havent had an easy time with TTC and your MCs and there are not many people who could go through that without becoming bitter and twisted. you are still so lovely!

screw the people who think they are hurting more or more deserving than us. we are all suffering, from TTC, from MCs, from life, and we need to support and care about each other.

I care about all the ladies on her who have suffered losses and yet we are getting back on with TTC again because even though it hurts like hell, life goes on and we want our babies so badly.

your all amazing!

 

[xSamanthax]

I am so sorry you ladies feel like this, i've been offline most of the day and have seemed to of missed something major!, i don't like you all being upset

for you all!!!!