Hello everyone... well.. I´m out this month too..
I don´t know why I keep getting my hopes high each month, it´s so hard.. This weekend was awful.. Damn
came and with the emotional pain came also a lot of physical pain, those cramps wont go... anyway, at first it came so little I did yet another test, BFN of course... It was my MIL´s birthday yesterday, we do not live in the same country and she and DH were on a fight, and I insisted he should still call her on her birthday, he said he would do it if I promised not to fight with him over whichever way the call went... It didn´t go well for me.. I bit my tongue to keep my promise... thats what I get for trying to be an adult
.. I stayed away from BnB because I try to not be all over the PC and phone when DH is at home.. so I couldn´t properly vent as I am trying to give him a break from all my crying and wobbling... He is VERY supportive, but even I can´t be around myself sometimes... so I figured, he just came back from a work trip, I´ll try and be a sane person for a weekend... It was a good thing he was in London for the work trip, beacuse I asked him to bring back the book some of you recommended here, Bump&Grind, it´s really nice and easy going and you I can totally relate, so that was my escape over the weekend... Only there were three births announced on Facebook, from friends and family (I was expecting those any time soon) and beeing all oohh and ahhh over the babies (believe me I´m overjoyed they are fine and the mothers too and will love this kids, they are my friend´s and cousin´s and etc) but it is HAAARD to see yet another set of babies being full conceived, gestated and delivered during our journey... It was also the2nd birthday of the baby girl of a dear friend, who announced her pregnancy exactly the same day I announced mine and later I MC... so that was hard to take...
Oh dear god, as if you girls didn´t had your own things happening... it´s just that no one else understands... Thank you for being there and for reading and for sharing stories... May this be our lucky month!! And to anyone whose lucky time already came I wish you a very Healthy 9 months... no one deserves more to be a mommy and have every thing go right than a LTTC couple and mom.... Good luck and best of vibes... xoxo