My week has been full of headaches
I'm wondering if its a combinations of things, coming off pill, not drinking as much caffeine (although iv only been on 2 or 3 cups of tea a day for a while now) and my pillow, iv swapped my pillow for a lower one because it it holds my jaw in an awkward position it gives me headaches. Def not dehydration with the 2 litres of water I drink a day.
Had my 5th our of 6 zoladex shots today so I really feel like the end is in sight now, although I'm getting really worried my endometriosis pain will come back straight away n especially with me going to be having af again, I'm really worried but I have a gynae appointment in Sept so I'm hoping he can give me some reassurance. It just completely took over my life before and I'm scared that it will come back worse, but then I think I will have the option of surgery again pretty soon after, I'm just absolutely crapping myself. My mum gets married just after the zoladex wears off so I really don't want to be ill for it because I'm her witness so have a part to play in the wedding.
Got weighed again today n apparently I'm exactly the same as I was on Sunday, how?!?! It's so annoying grr hopefully tho with me not having what I now call my 'work weight' to lose I should be on track for a 2lb week. I haven't logged on myfitnesspal all week though because the app on my phone has gone funny so I cud have been eating under calories all week for all I no. I do feel thinner and my stomach is smaller in a morning but then I have a pint of water n it bloats up massive, my oh says he's never seen anything like it all I have to do is drink water n I can balloon up to looking 6 months gone.
Great about ur course sounds like ur doing really well. Good for ur dh for doing a course as well u both r really showing ur kids that ur never too old to do something with ur life. I agree that having some sort of experience on ur cv looks very good and ur doing the right thing. U can talk about the skills uv developed and things ur learnt just as though it was a paid job. I think its so silly that u have to pay for the rest of ur course urself its like they've said well take u part of the way then its up to u that's like me taking Adam to his dads and dropping him off on the motorway to get the rest of his way on his own it doesn't make sense, even if they paid and then said pay it back after u get a job, it wud make more sense to me.
I hope u get ur bfp before I start trying but if not I wud love to have a TTC buddy and then hopefully a pregnancy buddy, particularly one who has been thru it all before it wud be a real safety net for me because I have been known to blow little things out of proportion if I haven't had the details there to calm me like after my surgery when they didn't explain things properly n I thought they had done something they shudnt n ended up at doctors worrying, if they had explained stuff to me I wud have been ok but for me its the unknown.
Iv been hearing oh talking about kids more and more and I love it, we sat n watched one born last night n then were talking about kids n the birth and stuff, its so nice hearing him get excited about it too.
Hope Monday goes ok for u, n u don't get any bad stuff happen from the dentist again.
I'm now waiting for my paperwork for the new job to come through. The NHS r great employers but their recruitment process takes far too long, I had an interview in May last year for my current job n didn't start until August!! Another one was May to October!!
Really looking forward to my holiday now, 2 weeks of no worries
will be awesome.
More good news, iv been so comfortable with my reduced patch at 15 that I'm reducing it to 10 this weekend, a week earlier than I planned, I'm very pleased cos I was geared up for it to be tough, will mean I have an extra week to have the 10 or 5 if they r tough and I struggle. I have kept on top of my physio and built it up to further than I used to be and I have the booklet that she gave me so I think I might take some to the next level.
Anyway Il let u get on now
I do babble sometimes lol, I think its cos I don't really get to speak with anyone else as I have no friends around here except my neighbour who I talk to a bit but she nos a lot of ppl so don't no who she might tell lol