Bellys to Bumps

[Traskey]

Glad you are feeling a bit better Emmy It's ok to have an off day with the diet, just jump back on board tomorrow when you are feeling good again.

I have to say i'm not feeling hungry at all tonight. Normally I get the munchies around 10pm so it looks like the big breakfast idea has worked. At least a little 31/36 points today.

 

[EmmyReece]

yay, so glad having a bigger breakfast seems to have helped hun, and 31/36 points is fab

I did my temp last night (I know you're not really meant to as it fluctuates so much during the day) and I was at 36.64, and this morning I was 36.25, tonight I'm 36.78 so just praying that my temp doesn't drop below 36.03 in the morning ... I really, really, really want to be 3 dpo

 

[zowiey]

Hello ladies!

Emmy, I've been in my pjs since 5pm, just felt like it was a pj night! There is nothing better though if your feeling a little bit poop!

Traskey, I brought a lottery ticket tonight, so if ive won, I'll pay for yor IVF, and will join you in flicking a massive finger up at the nhs and their bmi limit!

xxxx

 

[zowiey]

Zowie im glad you feel better now AF has arived, you deserve some treats on AF day! Im not sure if hsg would make a difference to the symptoms, it seems unlikely that it would change how your boobs feel. Are your pre AF symptoms usualy the same?

I have had the same symptoms before af for as many years as I can remember, every month without fail,sore boobs, cramping and spotting. Well, apart from this cycle. I've had nothing I'm on cd 2, normally my worst and most painful day (sorry tmi!) but I've had a few minor twinges and thats it! It's strange, but somehow it must be related to the hsg? Its the only thing I can think of, but it seems so ridiculous! Who knows!

 

[Traskey]

Traskey, I brought a lottery ticket tonight, so if ive won, I'll pay for yor IVF, and will join you in flicking a massive finger up at the nhs and their bmi limit!

xxxx

Zowiey, I can't think of anything better than flicking a massive finger at the nhs and their stupid BMI limit

So glad you feel the same!!!!

Thanks, I would wish exactly the same for you. IVF and as many rounds as it takes

 

[zowiey]

ARGH!!!!!
Sorry for the mass posting! Another friend is now pregnant! Why is it not me? 41 fecking cycles later, and nope still not me. Don't get me wrong, I can be happy for friends who are pg, one of my closest friends for instance, she is due in april, and I'm super thrilled for her, and really honestly want to know everything! But some others I couldn't care less if I never spoke to them again, purely because I'm so insanely jealous.

Sometimes I wonder if it would be easier to just give up.

 

[Traskey]

Aww Zowie, first of all don't apologise for mass posting! I am so sorry that you are on your 41st cycle of trying . I can't imagine how that must feel like for you. I do know how you feel though about everyone around you being pregnant. Just see my earlier post today for instance.

It's blooming hard to keep going with this journey and sometimes it is so tempting to just give up on it all. Would that make the stress lessen or just give you a different kind of stress? I don't know, you have to do what's right for you. It's doubly hard when you are trying to lose weight as well as conceive. We put ourselves under so much pressure. It's easy to imagine why it would seem easier to give it all up.

I have to have faith or hope or whatever that one day I might stand a chance or I think i'd go nuts. That's the good days. On the bad you wonder why you are putting yourselves through this.

Hang in there, we are here to support you. Chat to DH if it all gets to be a bit too much or talk to us. You can pm me if you need to. I continue to hope that all of us here get our BFP at some point soon.

Many

 

[lovie]

morning ladies!

zowie I hope you are enjoying your symptom free AF. It must have something to do with the hsg if thats the only thing thats changed this month. It sucks that another friend is pregnant, I get all paniky when my mum tells me that she has some news I allways think she is going to say my sister cousin, brother is having a baby. my stepsister had a baby in september she allready had 1 boy and I was so glad when she had another boy, so at least when I get my baby there is a chance it might be the 1st granddaughter. I feel so mean even thinking this but it is how i feel.

The big breakfast sound slike a great idea I wish I could eat in the mornings! are you doing ww online trasky? is it good?

Im in a bad mood with my overies today!! I had an allmost + OPK on friday and ewcm and then saturday and today no ewcm and opk getting lighter last month I had a 27 day cycle, +opk's when it should be and ewcm but my OH was away my cycle is normally 32ish days but maybe evey 4th cycle it is 28 daysish so I wonder if I dont OV on my 32 day cycle temping has been driving me crazy today I go 36.8 36.6 and 36.7 right after each other this morning!

Oh well I off to do some more ice skating I am so dermined to get my bmi to 30 before next september!! that means I need to loose 57 pounds in 30 weeks, 2 ish pounds a week. I hope I can do it!!!

I hope your weekends are all going well, sorry about OV rant!! xxxxxx

 

[zowiey]

Thank you so much

I know deep down I can't give up, I have to keep going. It just sometimes gets so overwhelming, that I loose focus, and fall even further into that big dark hole that is infertility.

Today is a new day, I'm going to snuggle with my hubby and watch crappy DVDs all day! Thank you so much for replying, I worry that I may seem like a bit of a drama queen or attention seeker, I'm not honestly, its just bnb really is my only outlet for this, apart from hubby. So I suppose I put more here than I ever would say in real life!

Hope you have a fab day!
Xxx

 

[EmmyReece]

sorry your opks, temps and ewcm are playing you up lovie

And with regards to the weight loss, you can do it hun ... apparently skating is really good for the tummy muscles because that's what you use to keep your balance

 

[EmmyReece]

zowiey you don't seem like an attention seeker or drama queen at all ... this ttc business is bloody difficult at times, and what sort of mates would we be if we weren't there for each other at the bad times as well as the happy times? you don't always have to be 100% chirpy / positive etc hun xx

hope you enjoy your day watching dvds

 

[Traskey]

Im in a bad mood with my overies today!! I had an allmost + OPK on friday and ewcm and then saturday and today no ewcm and opk getting lighter last month I had a 27 day cycle, +opk's when it should be and ewcm but my OH was away my cycle is normally 32ish days but maybe evey 4th cycle it is 28 daysish so I wonder if I dont OV on my 32 day cycle temping has been driving me crazy today I go 36.8 36.6 and 36.7 right after each other this morning!

I swear our bodies are there to try us! I hope your cycle settles down. Did you BD on the day you were almost OV with EWCM? You may have ovulated that day or the next. My CBFM still hasn't registered a peak but the 2 single digi tests did so I am going by that. I think you are supposed to take your temp when you wake up and before getting out of bed so that may help with tracking.

Enjoy the skating! Think of all those pounds you are burning off

Thank you so much

I know deep down I can't give up, I have to keep going. It just sometimes gets so overwhelming, that I loose focus, and fall even further into that big dark hole that is infertility.

Today is a new day, I'm going to snuggle with my hubby and watch crappy DVDs all day! Thank you so much for replying, I worry that I may seem like a bit of a drama queen or attention seeker, I'm not honestly, its just bnb really is my only outlet for this, apart from hubby. So I suppose I put more here than I ever would say in real life!

Hope you have a fab day!
Xxx

Glad you are feeling a little better today Zowiey. I think we've all been overwhelmed going through this journey. Enjoy the time snuggling with hubby. Can't think of anything better for a Sunday

EMMY, did you temps stay up? Did you ovulate?

AFM, I've finished off the turkey rashers for breakfast and am planning on a scaled down roast dinner later, seeing as it's Sunday. No trimmings and the roast potatoes in fry light (not my favourite but doable lol)

 

[EmmyReece]

Yep my temps stayed up



I'm sooooo excited, I even had a happy cry this morning when I took my temp

I'm having roast chicken, with tomato, cucumber and a teaspoon of stuffing ... that's my roast dinner Yours sounds lovely Traskey

 

[countrylass]

Just thought I'd post a little message here as it's nice to find somewhere with ladies who have a lot in common with myself!

I'm 30, live in the UK, and SO and I have been TTC for almost 2 years. When we started out back in 2009 I was having quite spaced out, irregular cycles. But over the last 18 months after I changed my diet, I have regular periods, and seem to ovulate most cycles.
I weigh 18st 6... so around 260ish lbs. Until we were TTC I was entirely happy with my weight and self-image (I used to be 23st, and lost weight in my early 20's so to get where I am now felt great). Since the road to parenthood isn't proving to be plain sailing, I'm getting a lot more negative about my body in general.
In some ways I feel like I've contended with my weight since early childhood, and it's just typical that when I finally get to a mindset where I'm content and confident about being a fat chick, I suddenly discover the true impact it has on my life and future... that this body might not do the things I want and need it to do, unless I drop a lot more weight. Gah!

Anyway, that's me and my little backstory!

 

[Traskey]

welcome countrylass There are a fantastic group of ladies on here. We are all trying to lose weight, some days we are more successful than others We're all on different diets but we do share tips on things that are low in points/calories etc. We celebrate our successes and sympathise when the diet goes a bit



Emmy, that's FANTASTIC news So happy for you Yay for happy tears. Does this mean our hubbies get the night off tonight

 

[EmmyReece]

yep mine gets the night off lol, he had last night off too ...

a week tomorrow and I might test

 

[zowiey]

Hello and welcome countrylass! Looking forward to getting to know you! Everyone reallyis fab here, and have lots of great advice, and also hugs when you need them!

xxxx

 

[Traskey]

ARRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH

Ok, that's better, thanks for that!

How are we all doing on the diets today girls? The roast chicken and vegetables was fab and the ww one point toffee youghurt wasn't too bad either!

 

[EmmyReece]

what's up hun?

we've been batting around baby names ... and we both kinda like Lorelai with the nickname Rory ... but we think we'll get stick because of Rory from the Gilmore Girls lol

 

[Traskey]

Oh, I have a friend in Germany called Lorelai I think it's a lovely name!