
Ladies,
I have had the worst day today
I went into town with my mum, sister, niece and DS to do a spot of retail therapy

we had a lovely meal

and a gorgeous

......but then things turned

my mums friend asked me if I was with

to which I replied `no just fat` but really wanted to

and say `no, but I bloody well should be` not her fault of course but then seeing an abundance of pregnant women everywhere didnt help either

DS decided to turn into a

child and things got even worse when I came home and put a load of

in....I had left a tissue in my linen pants pocket cause DS was

and I got distracted and so when I emptied the damn thing tissue was everywhere

I have spent the last few hours washing and rewashing the clothes in an attempt to get them looking at least wearable again

My boss has been

and bugging me all day and its my bloody day off and then I poas and now I am confused.com.....I feel like

and locking myself away until the morning
It seems what I thought was my `surge in` yesterday on my opk may have well been my `surge out` cause todays opks are way way way lighter than yesterdays and def should be darker today then yesterday if I am going to follow my normal pattern and ov on cd21-23

Seems I may have ov already possibly on cd16 (I did get ov pains on Sunday night whilst in bed but scolded myself for SS

!) I am going to poas some more tomorrow and see if the surge has totally disappeared (it should do if this is my `surge out` cause I dont usually get a second line at any other time of my cycle only in run up to ov say 5-7 days before!) I fear this cycle is going to be a little

but as long as we see those two pink lines again I dont care
