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[Nessicle]

I know Yeah I was 13 when it started..I finally got away when I was 20. So it hasn't been that long. I'm 26 now and have PTSD and lots of other issues..but am working on them everyday. I try not to live in the past (although that is what creates us) and try to focus on here and now..and the lovely family that I have here. I believe we are all here for a reason, and have all chosen our fates before we even came here...we all have something to learn. Our souls are old and are using this lifetime as a learning experience.

Heh sorry for the spiritual rant! I am passionate about such things!

Gosh though...It's so crazy...It still amazes me that there are such people who can do these horrible things. Shannon, I'm so sorry about Halloween..gosh, I had no idea. I saw you mention Halloween once, but didn't know it was that.



I'm so happy to have you guys to talk to. Even tho it's here and on a forum..we're all very real people and have very real feelings. It's lovely to be able to relate and share them with each other. So thank you!

thank you to you guys too! It really helps to talk about these things! Can't really talk to work colleagues about this stuff and OH I wouldnt want him to feel like he had to pussy foot round me and protect my feelings about stuff so although he knows we don't talk about it.

 

[Nessicle]

Oooh Shannon you sound like you've had it far worse than me! I have no right to complain because at least for me it's one thing and I just cut it out now for life and that's it!

It's so awful being submitted to all these tests - and like you said you tell them where the pain is and it's either referred pain or has to be ovarian if you're in your 20's and female!! If they listened to their patients more often there'd be less clinical negligence cases against doctors and hospitals (i work in a law firm where we get compensation for those with spinal cord injury or brain injury mega high value stuff as a result of injury or clinical negligence).

You're amazing for not taking any pain meds - I live on paracetamol, have constant headaches and because as you 'll know you are very in tune with your body, you feel every pain most people wouldnt even notice!

it is very hard and I have no one in my life except people like you on this site who have experienced things like this! They just don't understand which is not their fault but you would think that your friends would at least try to understand and not say hurtful things to you when you are rock bottom.

That's really sad that your mum wouldnt help you I'm very lucky that my mum has been amazing and I don't know what I would have done without her. Had no boyfriend or anything and I don't drive so she was always taking time off work to bring me medication, herbal teas and keeping me company and just holding me when I was crying all the time. it makes so much difference to have just one person to be your crutch and keep you going!

I'm gutted I can't have bread, pasta etc I miss bagels!! but it's a small price to pay to feel well!

Your DH sounds like a wonderful man too, Shannon xx

oh have you tried, gluten free breads and pastas?!?! I love em

Yah my mom is crazy he bf's used to abuse me.. 3 of them matter of fact.

Its funny my sister is really sick and she expects me to be there.. Its hard for me to be there! Ugh especially when I was homeless and asked if I could move in with my son she said nope

Its hard not taking medication, but I know it will hurt me in the ends.

I am glad you have your mom there. Thats huge and helps a lot.

Yeah I have the gluten free stuff too! Get it on prescription from my doctor as it's very expensive over here! The bread is totally rubbish but everything else tastes much the same!

Some people can be selfish - my sister is like that too, wants all the help in the world when it's her yet when you need some help it's never there!

Mom's are ace (most mom's anyway!) she's amazing!

 

[shaerichelle]

Ugh! I am dealing with that as we speak also. My family knows (which is part of why I had a major breakdown about 6 months ago..and also the reason we moved to S. Africa for a break)..and they all still associate with him. I think they just need time for it to absorb and become real to them..it was such a shock. I have a protective order against him and am trying to get my daughters adoption going..DH is going to adopt her so that jerkface has no claim to her at all.

Well I dont understand how family can know and still accept him. Its sick. My aunt went on to have many kids with him. 6 total. one stillbirth...(around the time of the molestation) and 5 of them are girls! I live in a different state than my family thankfully. I had my breakdown in 2006 right around the time of my divorce.. I couldnt handle it. Aww that would be awesome if DH gets to adopt her. He shouldnt have no claim to her at ALL! Especially if you have a protective order.

 

[Nessicle]

yeah Brandy I really hope DH can adopt your DD!!

P.S. I'm 26 too!

 

[shaerichelle]

Ness- to you as well.
I was molested by my grandfathers sisters husband. We used to go over there a lot to visit their grandaughter. It happened on and off for 3 years. During this time I went back to NY to visit my dad and I was molested by my aunts bf. I remember that til this day. It haunts me. It happened to my cousin the same night. Funny thing is my family knows and he is still a part of the family.

Edit I was 7-10 when this happened

hugs to you too

it's just awful what goes on behind closed doors.

It's funny cos my grandmother still saw her boyfriend all the time after it happened. My sister was really frightened to see him. Thankfully grandma doesnt see him any more. I think she realised how bad it was, he's on the sex offenders register. The worst thing was she said "well they must've enjoyed it" talking about me and my sister! I mean how sick is that?!

Wow I would not talk to her anymore if she was my grandma!

 

[PeaceLoveBaby]

Yeah, DH knows my past as well but we don't talk about it. It's way too painful for him, and everytime it comes up, I can see the effect it has on him.. So I just learned not to talk about it to spare him.

I know I *need* to talk about it, and my therapy is writing and music. I love both soooo much!

I used to take antidepressants before I started TTC, but have stopped everything because I don't want to harm baby. I also believe that I used it when I needed it, but now that I'm ina better place spiritually and mentally, I don't need it anymore. So I stopped it all cold turkey...crazy! But handled it very well. I'm still doing well..I have my days, but we all do, I'm sure.

 

[Nessicle]

I know it was awful at the time but I think she realised she had said something very wrong and is a lovely lady now.

She has a daughter with severe downs syndrome and my mum said that around the time me and my sis were being abused, nan's daughter Maria used to touch herself - obviously replacating what he'd done to her as she was a teenager and sure it would've felt nice to her at the time but with being downs she won't have known what she was doing. When my gran finally kicked him out Maria stopped touching herself.

 

[shaerichelle]

Yeah I have the gluten free stuff too! Get it on prescription from my doctor as it's very expensive over here! The bread is totally rubbish but everything else tastes much the same!

Some people can be selfish - my sister is like that too, wants all the help in the world when it's her yet when you need some help it's never there!

Mom's are ace (most mom's anyway!) she's amazing!

The best way to eat the bread is toasting it .. They have the glutenfreemall on the internet.

My sister asked to borrow 500.00 from my husband. He let her.. I am nervous..

 

[Nessicle]

Yeah, DH knows my past as well but we don't talk about it. It's way too painful for him, and everytime it comes up, I can see the effect it has on him.. So I just learned not to talk about it to spare him.

I know I *need* to talk about it, and my therapy is writing and music. I love both soooo much!

I used to take antidepressants before I started TTC, but have stopped everything because I don't want to harm baby. I also believe that I used it when I needed it, but now that I'm ina better place spiritually and mentally, I don't need it anymore. So I stopped it all cold turkey...crazy! But handled it very well. I'm still doing well..I have my days, but we all do, I'm sure.

antidepressants get a bad rep but I think - use them when you need them, if you're rock bottom and having suicidal thoughts (I had many of them at the peak of my illness) then it's better to take them to help you cope and get yourself back on track.

I was on prozac 40mg a day and weaned off it over the course of a month been off it since mid-december. So far bouts of anxiety but I don't feel depressed. It's one thing that does concern me about after having a baby - postnatal depression but i will deal with that if and when!

 

[Nessicle]

Yeah I have the gluten free stuff too! Get it on prescription from my doctor as it's very expensive over here! The bread is totally rubbish but everything else tastes much the same!

Some people can be selfish - my sister is like that too, wants all the help in the world when it's her yet when you need some help it's never there!

Mom's are ace (most mom's anyway!) she's amazing!

The best way to eat the bread is toasting it .. They have the glutenfreemall on the internet.

My sister asked to borrow 500.00 from my husband. He let her.. I am nervous..

eeek!!! I would've said no to my sister......

 

[shaerichelle]

Yeah, DH knows my past as well but we don't talk about it. It's way too painful for him, and everytime it comes up, I can see the effect it has on him.. So I just learned not to talk about it to spare him.

I know I *need* to talk about it, and my therapy is writing and music. I love both soooo much!

I used to take antidepressants before I started TTC, but have stopped everything because I don't want to harm baby. I also believe that I used it when I needed it, but now that I'm ina better place spiritually and mentally, I don't need it anymore. So I stopped it all cold turkey...crazy! But handled it very well. I'm still doing well..I have my days, but we all do, I'm sure.

Well having an outlet is good too. DH goes to counseling with me sometimes and that helps.. alot! I think some Men rather go kill the person that caused the pain..

Gosh you girls are youngings. I am 31. Gonna be 32 this year. Dh is 37 in April lol

 

[shaerichelle]

I know it was awful at the time but I think she realised she had said something very wrong and is a lovely lady now.

She has a daughter with severe downs syndrome and my mum said that around the time me and my sis were being abused, nan's daughter Maria used to touch herself - obviously replacating what he'd done to her as she was a teenager and sure it would've felt nice to her at the time but with being downs she won't have known what she was doing. When my gran finally kicked him out Maria stopped touching herself.

Oh no! SOme people are so sick Ugh. I hope he gets his karma.

 

[shaerichelle]

Jellie, I see you lurking.. Hey Hi there!

 

[PeaceLoveBaby]

antidepressants get a bad rep but I think - use them when you need them, if you're rock bottom and having suicidal thoughts (I had many of them at the peak of my illness) then it's better to take them to help you cope and get yourself back on track.

I was on prozac 40mg a day and weaned off it over the course of a month been off it since mid-december. So far bouts of anxiety but I don't feel depressed. It's one thing that does concern me about after having a baby - postnatal depression but i will deal with that if and when!

I worry about postnatal dep also..because I'm so prone to it. But, like you, I'll deal with it if/when it comes along.

I was on Cymbalta..and also had tried a lot of other meds (legal and not-so-legal)..but now I am totally clean! Not even alcohol, because I react so badly to it, moodwise.

 

[shaerichelle]

I have to shower now. Gotta eat and run to watch my son ice skate at school for a few minutes.

to you all!

 

[PeaceLoveBaby]

Karma will catch them all...I honestly believe that!

Hello Jellie!!!

 

[PeaceLoveBaby]

I need to spend some time with DD..she's craving attention lol...So I will be back later! xoxoxoxox

 

[shaerichelle]

I need to spend some time with DD..she's craving attention lol...So I will be back later! xoxoxoxox

Okay

xoxoxoxo

Enjoy your time

 

[Nessicle]

see you soon my lovelies xxx

 

[shaerichelle]

Im back on for a short bit. Gonna try to do hw at the same time.

I think I Oed yesterday. My LP was 16-18 days last month. So I am not sure what is going on ugh.