Dealing with azoospermia?

[snd80]

Praying DG- Awesome that you are able to be there for them. I truly believe we all have a purpose on this earth, and maybe this is yours! =)

A girl I went to school with had a son born deaf. Her older sister was also born deaf, so she was already "prepared" in the sense of dealing with deafness. She travels back and forth every week to Jackson to take him to a school for the deaf, and found a dr. (who works with the school) to give him bionic ear implants and now he can hear! It just amazes me how far medical interventions have come within 20+ years!!! God is good, even though we may sometimes forget it!!!! I, myself, am guilty of that!

 

[deafgal01]

Just one purpose in life? I sometimes feel like we have more than one purpose in life. Yeah, I'm finding my passion lies in helping families like this during their time of transition between grieving over their child's hearing loss to what lifestyle changes they can make/change to make the future bright. It does seem easier to make the transition when one has been exposed to someone who is deaf in their life rather than someone who's never known/met a deaf person.

I gotta go. DH is ready to head out- we're going to the store to buy a rubric cube and then it's the movies we're going to. Thank goodness we don't need to find a babysitter for any of our kids, least not yet. One day that will happen though when we want to go out, we gotta find a sitter. Not worried though- I have a list already that I know I can call on to come babysit for us.

Hope all of you are doing alright!

 

[Deb111]

SND, I am so excited for you, I am sure it is driving you crazy waiting to test! I am really hoping this is it for you!

Deb- Any new news with the baby?

All going well thanks. Have to book in with my consultant on Wed next week and will also ask them about repeat blood test I had to have done because my full blood count came back with 'atypical lymphs' which scared me, especially as i got the letter last Saturday morning and with it being a bank holiday weekend, couldn't talk to anyone about it until Tuesday. They said it's highly unlikely to be anything, they just have to double check it - may just have been a bad sample or I may have been fighting a virus I didn't even know I had.

Still very tired, but not the 'struggling to stay awake at my desk sort of tired' that I had earlier on. Still feeling sick quite a lot and sick some mornings when brishing my teeth, but they are all reassuring signs.

Not sure if I said on this thread, but we ended up having a private scan done to check for indicators of downs syndrome as baby wasn't in the right position for them to do it at our NHS scan. Anyway, we've been given a risk factor of 1 in 3590 (I think it was), which is great considering my age, because based on my age alone, my risk factor would have been 1 in 180. Of course, if the baby did have issues, we would love it just as much but just wanted a bit of a 'heads-up' if there were likely to be health issues to deal with

 

[Deb111]

So exciting SunUp - enjoy the hotel and relaxation

Snd - still keeping everything crossed

I know of SO many girls on here who have been trying for so long and are now pregnant - I think 2012 is a great year so I just KNOW we will get out fair share of 's in here

Deafgal - praying for that family - it must be a shock for them, but great news that she will recover from the meningitis. Wonderful that they have you for support and to make things feel less scray

Hope everyone else is doing ok - keeping you all in my prayers xx

 

[Stinas]

wibble wobble - God bless you for being able to cut them up!! lol Those evil little things! Its soooo easy to swipe! I have a closet filled with very expensive shoes to show for it, but busting my ass working to pay them off was not worth it.....well....it was once I put them on lol
It happens to the best of us.

SunUp - Yay!!!

snd - Try not to worry....as hard as it is....could be IB!

rdleela - I agree....it is a problem with our age group now and days....mostly because of school loans, but it has become a "normal" thing now...sad.

deafgal01 - Im sorry to hear that! My prayers go out to the little girl! Its great that they have such an amazing family/friends support group....it really helps!

 

[BumpHopes]

Hi Ladies hope all is well!!

Im still waiting for the next appt. How is everyone? Sorry not been on much been doing crazy amount of overtime now i booked my wedding we need it lol.

 

[MJ73]

SND; thinking of you hun , how you coping today in your 2ww? Sending loads of & your way!

DG; will definitely be sending thoughts & prayers to your friend's daughter, it's great that you can be there for them. Hopefully you can catch up on some sleep this week?

Sun; I can't believe you've just had your 1st IUI, sending lots of your way hun. Enjoy your hotel room gorgeous girl, you deserve it xx

Deb; so unbelievably happy that things are going so well with LO, he sounds like a strong little bubba (I voted for a boy on your poll ) Trusting the test results will come back showing all is good.

Bump; good to see you again. A wedding! How exciting

Rae; doing the AF dance for you right now

WW; don't beat yourself up, I think we've all made bad financial choices in the past. It just sucks that we have to pay so much now just for the privilege of trying to have a baby Good on you for cutting up the CCs, we did that a couple of years ago & haven't missed them. Not long till your treatment starts, it'll be here before you know it.

SB, thinking of you as you start your next IUI your way too.

WANBMUM, so sorry your IUI was cancelled So bloody disappointing hun...

tigerlily, I found the injections so much easier than I thought I would. It's natural to feel apprehensive though . I think the 1st one was the hardest. I would just take a deep breath, pinch some skin & stick in the needle, before you know it, you've done your 1st, then it just gets easier

Stinas; so glad you're getting some positive news from the Dr. Isn't it odd that a blockage is 'good news', welcome to the world of azoo I guess

rdleela, thinking of you while you're waiting for your next appointment

I hope that's everyone, sorry if I've forgotten anyone ...

AFM, we finally see the urologist on Tuesday, so FX he has good news & that Simon doesn't have cancer (I don't know quite what we'll do if he does). I'll also let you know what he says about the undescended testicle they found , I wonder what they'll do with it??? I hope, for Simon's sake that they can bring it down...

 

[Stinas]

Doc called back friday on the results of the ultrasound.....he said everything was clear in looks good. He said that he has the varicocele vein that he thinks can possibly be causing the sperm to overheat and die....but wont know until 3 weeks from now when he gets a better look when he goes in. I have been googling the hell out of all the possible surgeries for all the "possible" problems that the doc pointed out. I cant wait to know exactly what it is. May 29th is our apt and it cant get here soon enough!

MJ73 - I hope and pray your DH does not have cancer!!! It is pretty weird to hope for blockages. When I first found out I didnt understand all of it, but now im just hoping for something to be wrong thats somewhat fixable. Its weird how things change as time goes by.

BumpHopes - Yay for wedding booking!!! Congrats! Now let all the madness begin!

 

[SunUp]

Stinas, May 29 is my beta test - you're right, it can't get here fast enough!

MJ - the big update you just did was awesome - it put a list of where many of us are at this point in time, which is great to have so we can keep up with everyone the next few days/weeks. Sending lots of prayers your way for GOOD news Tuesday!

Bump - Yay for booking the wedding!!

 

[deafgal01]

Bump- have fun planning your wedding!

Stinas- Hope the appt on May 29th shows good news from dr for your DH.

MJ- Good luck! Hope your DH doesn't have cancer.

Deb- take care of that azoo baby of yours.

I'm in the 2ww. No idea if the medicine is doing the trick (blood work shows perfect levels)- we'll find out with a new SA in June so more waiting. Dh did say that the high blood pressure was a possibility of a side effect from one of the fertility medicine he's on. so when he stops taking that, he'll stop the blood pressure med too and see where he stands on that.

Hope all of you ladies are doing well.

 

[Stinas]

SunUp - Let the countdown begin! Its coming up though...so I dont think it will be that bad of a wait. I feel like May so far has flown by. Crazy. Winter takes forever and when its nice out, it flies on by!

deafgal01 - Thank you! I hope the meds do the trick. That must be an irritating wait. I hate not knowing...it just drives me nuts. I guess with all of us azoo will eventually make us all more patient at the end.

 

[snd80]

Hi girls.. hope everyone is well and will come back later for personals

I'm out. I started spotting again yesterday afternoon and real bad this morning. So I tested and BFN.... I'm just numb and can't figure out what went wrong!

 

[Step Mummy]

Snd keep your hopes up, you never know it could be implant spotting and maybe the PG test isn't showing up yet. What dpo are you?

I know how tough it is, but if this doesn't work, at least next month you will know what to expect and it Is easier to deal with second time around. Thinking of you, these last few days are the hardest.

AFM. I went in for my scan on sat am and they said come back Monday for another scan, I had 2 follies on my left the biggest was 15.5' and another small one on the right. Today the scan showed I had just OV'd, but they told me that this was good as doing iui at this stage often works so they rushed me in for the iui.

So all went smoothly, I have a brain like a sieve (it's the drugs!) so I can't remember the figures but I remember 3 out of 4 going in the right direction and we could see them swim towards the eggie.

I learnt a new thing this month you might find interesting; they have changed the time the trigger is done at my clinic, they used to do 36 hours, but they said that it is more successful doing it less time between! But of course I never got to experience this.

So now in the dreaded TWW for the forth time.

Big FX for all of us in this time and those getting towards this stage. X

 

[snd80]

snd keep your hopes up, you never know it could be implant spotting and maybe the pg test isn't showing up yet. What dpo are you?

12dpo

 

[SunUp]

SND - we will be here for you no matter the outcome! If it is negative, its NOT because you did ANYTHING wrong. Remember, many couples without infertility problems takea few tries to get pregnant. I have no doubt your positive is coming soon. (I know, we all want it NOW and having to wait is awful, but good things are worth waiting for).
I will keep you in my prayers!

Stinas - you are right, I can't believe May is already half way over! It really has flown by. I am trying to stay busy the next two weeks so hopefully it will keep flying by.

StepM- we are right at the same time, I just started my TWW!

Question -has anyone else done back to back IUI's? I did mine on CD 16 and CD 17... So I really don't know how to count DP IUI?? I seem to read most people on here did 1 IUI?

 

[Deb111]

StepMummy - keeping everything crossed for you this time round

Snd - as SunUp said, IF this hasn't worked, it's not because of anything you did wrong. We had 2 perfect blasto's put back first time round and nothing. We were told quite a high proportion of a woman's eggs just don't have the potential to ever make it to be a fully developed fetus. I got a -ve test at 11 and 12 dpo this time round.

 

[snd80]

Step Mom- Thank you for your encouragement. It is just bitter right now and I just can't wrap my head around everything... but you're right! You live and learn!!!! and hopefully the 4th time will be the charm for you!

Sun- and thank you for your kind words. I was wondering myself why they did you 2 back to back? But thought maybe it was just b/c you were in a different state with different procedure policies? Who knows, but better odds in your favor!!!! I should have asked for 2 myself!!!

Deb- Thank you as well. In my head I feel like I am out, but that little hope of glimmer is still there lurking... I don't know weither to test again Weds or not. Spotting has slowed down and what I have had these past 2 days is very dark brown. So IDK!

I called Jackson this morning and told them what is going on and drilled that lady to death!

1.) I asked about the thawing and counts. She said "normal" samples count were 23 million, and mine was 63 million, so it wasn't a bad vial.

2.) I asked about increasing the clomid next time. She said sometimes too much can cause a bad ov, and mine was on target the past 2 months on my current dose.

3.) Also asked if my weight was a factor, and she said no, as long as you have a good ov it didn't matter.

So, she said when I fully started to call and let her know and she would get detailed instructions from the dr. himself for the next round. Only thing is we may have to wait to save up the $ for the next round! The sperm is paid for, but the $350 dr. fee plus travel expenses I don't have. Well, I do, but our roof started leaking Sat. night and we have to shell out $300 to have it repaired this weekend! So damn if you do, and damn if you don't. She never said anything about testing again on Weds, so IDK. Guess it wouldn't hurt since I have one left.

Started the gym again today on lunch break. Me and Alice in Chains tore it up on the treadmill. I've gained 4 lbs in 2 weeks! Yeah! I've been eating like I was pg already! Now I will pay for it!!!!

to each of you and thanks again for all the support!

 

[Deb111]

Deb- Thank you as well. In my head I feel like I am out, but that little hope of glimmer is still there lurking... I don't know weither to test again Weds or not. Spotting has slowed down and what I have had these past 2 days is very dark brown. So IDK!

Brown is good!!!!

 

[Step Mummy]

Snd; I know it's so hard, but if u think, if we were doing it naturally it would take a few months to get PG, so it is likely to take a go or two, but the time it has taken us to get here, the procedure, drugs and the cost, all make it so much harder to bear. And a leaking roof is just such a kick in the teeth.

FX for a little miracle for you.

I don't know about your drugs, but the gonal-f makes u put on weight, during the last lot of three goes, I gained a dress size, became covered in acne and suffered with rhinitis (sinus problems), but with that in mind I know u have done so well over recent months, so don't loose the hard work u have put in, you have achieved great things, don't let this set u back. Xx

 

[Pink Lolly]

SND - so sorry to read this. When our first cycle failed I was devestated and couldn't imagine it ever working...

but 2nd time when we got our bfp, we didn't do anything different to the first time. It was exactly the same, even down to the hospital messing up the drug doses! So it proves that sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't and theres not necessarily a reason why.

Try not to give up hope xxx