Dealing with azoospermia?

[raelynn]

Congrats Step Mummy!!!

 

[MrsC8776]

Congrats Step Mummy!! Never giving up is the key!

 

[wibble wobble]

Congrats Step Mummy xx

 

[rdleela]

Congrats StepMummy!!!!

 

[WANBMUM]

Wowsers! Congrats step mummy. So so happy for you.
Any sympt

 

[WANBMUM]

Any symptoms even?

 

[CanadianMaple]

Woohoo! Congratulations Step Mummy! You were definitely due for your BFP! Keep up updated with everything.

AFM- I took my last BCP pill today. I am now officially waiting for AF. I've been spotting since starting the pill, so it will be nice just to get AF over with and start our cycle.

 

[tigerlily1975]

Hello all you gorgeous ladies!

There's a big, yellow thing in the sky.. I'm not sure what it is, we don't normally see something like that during English summer-time.. hmm... should I be afraid??

StepMummy: CONGRATULATIONS!! That's wonderful, wonderful news! I have followed your journey since joining this group and know you have been to Hell and back, I really could not be happier for you!! I'm sending you heaps of sticky You and your hubby deserve this so much and you truly are an inspiration to all of us.

SND: You definitely need lots of these I'm so sorry, darling, I really thought this was the one. Man, that must've been really scarey, I hope everyone is okay and yes, that additional stress really didn't help. It's good to take a step back from all this, it does take over your life. Try to relax and give yourself time to get your head back 'in the game'. We're gonna miss you, so don't be a stranger, okay?

Raelynn: How are you holding up, lovely? As the other lovely ladies have said, those numbers are still going in the right direction and yes, you've definitely got a little fighter there! I hope you have a nice time on your cruise, it sounds fab. Sending lots of sticky your way.

MrsC: Congrats on the second beta! How are you feeling? Any symptoms sneaking in?

Wibble: I'm so sorry, darling I LOVE your attitude, yes, you will ABSOLUTELY bounce back and it WILL happen!

Stinas: Have you started your cycle yet? I think we're not far from eachother.. sending you tonnes of Good Luck, hun!!

WanB: I saw in your sig that your IUI started on the 6th of July.. how's it going? Keeping everything crossed for you!!

cbergs: How are you, me dearie? I hope it's getting a little easier to deal with, but as with anything, it takes time. We're here if you need anything!

MoBaby: I hope you're well, september will soon be here!

Shorty: How's the TWW going? You're testing next week aren't you? Good luck, hun!

CM: Aww, that's great that your MIL is coming around. Wow, you're starting your cycle at the end of July, that's great!

rdleela: Ah, the waiting.. *looks at watch, taps foot* any news on a date yet?

Deb: I did stop-by your journal, I hope you're home with your feet-up and looking forward to a relaxing summer break

DG: I hope you're having fun at camp!

MJ: if you stop by, squishy to you and Tang!

Big and to anyone I've missed!

AFM Buserelin infections start tomorrow - I'm going to get DH to do them, so I'd better not p*ss him off tonight! Haha! This is all beginning to feel VERY real now.... eeeek!

As always, lots of love and to all,

C xx

 

[ShortyA22]

Hello all you gorgeous ladies!

There's a big, yellow thing in the sky.. I'm not sure what it is, we don't normally see something like that during English summer-time.. hmm... should I be afraid??

StepMummy: CONGRATULATIONS!! That's wonderful, wonderful news! I have followed your journey since joining this group and know you have been to Hell and back, I really could not be happier for you!! I'm sending you heaps of sticky You and your hubby deserve this so much and you truly are an inspiration to all of us.

SND: You definitely need lots of these I'm so sorry, darling, I really thought this was the one. Man, that must've been really scarey, I hope everyone is okay and yes, that additional stress really didn't help. It's good to take a step back from all this, it does take over your life. Try to relax and give yourself time to get your head back 'in the game'. We're gonna miss you, so don't be a stranger, okay?

Raelynn: How are you holding up, lovely? As the other lovely ladies have said, those numbers are still going in the right direction and yes, you've definitely got a little fighter there! I hope you have a nice time on your cruise, it sounds fab. Sending lots of sticky your way.

MrsC: Congrats on the second beta! How are you feeling? Any symptoms sneaking in?

Wibble: I'm so sorry, darling I LOVE your attitude, yes, you will ABSOLUTELY bounce back and it WILL happen!

Stinas: Have you started your cycle yet? I think we're not far from eachother.. sending you tonnes of Good Luck, hun!!

WanB: I saw in your sig that your IUI started on the 6th of July.. how's it going? Keeping everything crossed for you!!

cbergs: How are you, me dearie? I hope it's getting a little easier to deal with, but as with anything, it takes time. We're here if you need anything!

MoBaby: I hope you're well, september will soon be here!

Shorty: How's the TWW going? You're testing next week aren't you? Good luck, hun!

CM: Aww, that's great that your MIL is coming around. Wow, you're starting your cycle at the end of July, that's great!

rdleela: Ah, the waiting.. *looks at watch, taps foot* any news on a date yet?

Deb: I did stop-by your journal, I hope you're home with your feet-up and looking forward to a relaxing summer break

DG: I hope you're having fun at camp!

MJ: if you stop by, squishy to you and Tang!

Big and to anyone I've missed!

AFM Buserelin infections start tomorrow - I'm going to get DH to do them, so I'd better not p*ss him off tonight! Haha! This is all beginning to feel VERY real now.... eeeek!

As always, lots of love and to all,

C xx

The wait has been hard.. I test is next Tuesday! I'm excited and trying to wait without doing an hpt. My trigger should be out tomorrow but I'm trying to stay strong and not give in..

 

[WANBMUM]

Thanks tiger. I am good, yes, I test on friday, 14dpiui. Unless af gets here first of course. Not feeling too hopeful, I've had no real symptoms that confirm anything for me. Today I feel like af is on the way, just with the way I feel mentally, hormonal and tired. So not feeling 'pregnant' at all
I must say it is the longest 2ww I have ever had, so mentally draining. It sucks.

Tiger I presume you mean your injections start not infections. Hehe that made me laugh.
Good luck my hubby chickened out, giving my trigger, he got so nervous and I got so brave and just stabbed it in. Hehe.

 

[cbergs]

Hello all you gorgeous ladies!

There's a big, yellow thing in the sky.. I'm not sure what it is, we don't normally see something like that during English summer-time.. hmm... should I be afraid??

StepMummy: CONGRATULATIONS!! That's wonderful, wonderful news! I have followed your journey since joining this group and know you have been to Hell and back, I really could not be happier for you!! I'm sending you heaps of sticky You and your hubby deserve this so much and you truly are an inspiration to all of us.

SND: You definitely need lots of these I'm so sorry, darling, I really thought this was the one. Man, that must've been really scarey, I hope everyone is okay and yes, that additional stress really didn't help. It's good to take a step back from all this, it does take over your life. Try to relax and give yourself time to get your head back 'in the game'. We're gonna miss you, so don't be a stranger, okay?

Raelynn: How are you holding up, lovely? As the other lovely ladies have said, those numbers are still going in the right direction and yes, you've definitely got a little fighter there! I hope you have a nice time on your cruise, it sounds fab. Sending lots of sticky your way.

MrsC: Congrats on the second beta! How are you feeling? Any symptoms sneaking in?

Wibble: I'm so sorry, darling I LOVE your attitude, yes, you will ABSOLUTELY bounce back and it WILL happen!

Stinas: Have you started your cycle yet? I think we're not far from eachother.. sending you tonnes of Good Luck, hun!!

WanB: I saw in your sig that your IUI started on the 6th of July.. how's it going? Keeping everything crossed for you!!

cbergs: How are you, me dearie? I hope it's getting a little easier to deal with, but as with anything, it takes time. We're here if you need anything!

MoBaby: I hope you're well, september will soon be here!

Shorty: How's the TWW going? You're testing next week aren't you? Good luck, hun!

CM: Aww, that's great that your MIL is coming around. Wow, you're starting your cycle at the end of July, that's great!

rdleela: Ah, the waiting.. *looks at watch, taps foot* any news on a date yet?

Deb: I did stop-by your journal, I hope you're home with your feet-up and looking forward to a relaxing summer break

DG: I hope you're having fun at camp!

MJ: if you stop by, squishy to you and Tang!

Big and to anyone I've missed!

AFM Buserelin infections start tomorrow - I'm going to get DH to do them, so I'd better not p*ss him off tonight! Haha! This is all beginning to feel VERY real now.... eeeek!

As always, lots of love and to all,

C xx

Wow! You are a champ! I have been wanting to leave everyone a message too, but I would need a few hours to write everyone's info down- and then type it out.

Thank you so much! I feel so lucky to have found this forum in my time of need. You girls have given me so much strength and perspective.

Our next appointment is the 31st. We will find out my hub's b/w results as well as 3rd SA that was centrifuged. I've decided to not wallow in this, especially since we don't even have any real answers.

Thanks again, and talk to you all soon!

Love,
Carrie

 

[snd80]

Thank you for all the well wishes and I just wanted to pop in with a quick update.

Talked to my dr. yesterday... my only 2 options left to move forward more aggressive is: 1) IVF or 2) IUI with injections. So I told them I am taking off til about Sept or Oct to loose more weight and have a call in to see about IVF financing.

It has been a really hard past week and I have spent every morning crying. I am really loosing it! It is just so heartbreaking for me. IDK what else to do. Nikki is just not the same person anymore. I've been trying to do some biblical soul searching as well... and I've also started re-reading my book "Empty Womb, Aching Heart", which doesn't help with the crying.

Thanks again and I'll get back to "me" one day.

to each of you.

 

[Deb111]

StepMummy - huge congrats to you!!!

Snd - sending big hugs your way

 

[MrsC8776]

Canadian~ Yay for taking the last BC!

tiger~ Thank you! The only symptom I'm having is nausea. I'm not getting sick but just feeling sick. Oh and still the TMI symptom of very sore nipples. Good luck on the injections.

WANB and Shorty~ Good luck!

snd~ I look forward to seeing you come back and get your bfp. I'm so sorry that all of this has gotten to you in the way it has.

raelynn~ I'm wishing you all the luck in the world for tomorrow! Please let us know how it goes.

AFM~ Our first scan will be on the 31st!

 

[Step Mummy]

Ah SND honey, I know how tough it is, you really just have to keep going, my story shows that - as someone here said, it's not that we cant get PG, its that we give up too soon.

I know that finances are a killer and that is a big problem for many of us, but keep the faith it will happen, it just takes a lot of money, a lot of time and a huge amount of emotion.

Do you know it is very strange - we only moved back into our home two weeks ago after living elsewhere for 3 months while we had a big building project done on the house and it's like, it waited until we were in our family home all settled and secure before I got the BFP, maybe, sometimes we just have to wait until the right moment that god has planned for us.

I am thinking of you, after 4 failed IUI's and one cancelled cycle I know how you feel. It's good that you have your weight loss challenge to keep you busy in the meantime, then when you are ready, you can start teh next phase. In the meantime try to enjoy yourself and make the most of being without a kiddie, because once they are on their way - life will never be the same again!!!

FX and hugs for you xx

 

[cbergs]

Snd,

I hope this makes you smile.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dpHjukQowZ0

You will be a mama! Like stepmummy says- all in God's time. And it will be better than anything!!

I've been writing a blog about my feelings and experiences, and find it very therapeutic. Maybe you could start one too. Something about writing everything out just helps...

Also, on my darkest days I pray. I'm not sure of your beliefs, but I can tell you it brings hope and light into my life.

Here with you all the way,
Carrie

 

[MJ73]

Hello darling hearts, sorry I haven't been in for a while. I've been really sick. Not only have I had aweful all-day long morning sickness with major vomiting, I also have whooping cough (pertussus) & have been on really strong (baby safe) antibiotics. We got to see the baby's heartbeat again yesterday at our obs & he assured us that the whoop won't harm the bubba. I'm sorry I've been so slack, I've been barely able to function. But I've missed you all immensely!

Just wanted to send SND massive hugs, comfort & love. This is such a relentless bitch of a journey & I'm so sorry you're suffering hun. Remember we all love you, but take as much time as you need.

Rae, how are you hun? I know how tough this can be, we had the same experience with my 1st pregnancy; low, slow rising betas. I will keep everything crossed for you xx

Stepmummy; I nearly cried when I read your good news! After all you've been through, what a precious pregnancy this is. And I thought your words to SND were just lovely. Congrats hun!

Mrs C, still so happy for you my friend, great betas. Do we see a multiple birth on the horizon???

WW, sorry this wasn't your time. Massive hugs hun. Xx

Huge hugs to everyone else, just feeling too ill to write more. Love to all xx

 

[Deb111]

So sorry you've been poorly MJ but glad bubba is ok. Hoping you feel better soon xx

 

[raelynn]

Well ladies. I love you all for all the support but I'm going to be taking a break now. HCG was back in the teens today so I'm miscarrying. I'm completely heartbroken. Didn't realize how much I already loved this little one. At least we have our cruise coming up to get us away from everything for a while. We're not sure what our next step will be...we have no frozen embryos and no frozen sperm left so not sure we can financially go down the IVF route again at least not anytime soon.

 

[MrsC8776]

Well ladies. I love you all for all the support but I'm going to be taking a break now. HCG was back in the teens today so I'm miscarrying. I'm completely heartbroken. Didn't realize how much I already loved this little one. At least we have our cruise coming up to get us away from everything for a while. We're not sure what our next step will be...we have no frozen embryos and no frozen sperm left so not sure we can financially go down the IVF route again at least not anytime soon.

I'm so sorry Please know that I'm thinking of you and hoping that what ever comes next brings you your dream come true.