cbergs- It took my husband a few months to really be ready for donor sperm. Once he knew that the urologist wasn't optimistic about finding sperm and couldn't offer any other encouragement, he was able to process it once the grieving was done. He was somewhat prepared for that, but it still knocked him down. I still get scared about using a donor, but know that we will get the child we were supposed to get and while it's not what we originally had planned, it is our reality. We put a positive spin on it, it's like a 1/2 adoption, but we pick the birth parents, there is no worry about them changing their mind, and the gestation is controlled. When DH looked at it that way, he had a much easier time with it.
It really takes time. Talking to the IF psych helped too.
AFM- We bought our donor sperm on Friday, and I had a few moments of sadness. While I know it's the route we want to take, it was really difficult to hit that send button to confirm everything with the sperm bank. She actually gave us the weekend to process it all because I think she sensed that I was hesitating.
DH is going to do one last SA on Wednesday since his testosterone levels were in the normal range, just so we know that nothing has changed with the azoo. He still doesn't want to consider mTESE or a TESA. We would have waited for those results, but we know they are probably the same and those two vials of the donor we wanted were all that was left.
AF had been MIA since July, and it has been bugging me that we finally got cleared from Hep C scare and couldn't move on. I'm going to start the pill on Wednesday and take it for 21 days. After that, we'll start the IUI. So, that will be around mid-October.
This diagnosis is RIDICULOUS, and so hurtful. I feel like someone I love just passed away. 
Cbergs, it is a really tough time right now for the two of you. 
good luck mo!
