Thank you, Gem!! I really, truly appreciate it. I *can* test tomorrow (it will be 14 dpiui), but I don't think I will- I teach all day Wednesday & I don't want to be (more) freaked out than I naturally am! So maybe Thursday, if AF hasn't arrived? If anything, I have really been trying to be kind to myself this TWW. So, I haven't been calling myself cowardly for not wanting to test and not checking obsessively for spotting like I normally do. I find it really hard to balance being hopeful with not wanting to feel like a fool. There were many months, before DH's diagnosis, that I was *convinced* I was pregnant- when of course I wasn't. I had this ugly feeling like I had been such a fool back then- and this TWW I'm really trying to let that go and not judge myself so harshly. I'm not sure if that makes much sense... it's just that I think all women, especially the women on this board, are brave for putting our hearts on the line, and I should forgive & love myself and try and open myself to the possibility of it actually working.
Anyway, I will be thinking of you until Friday, Gem. I hope your brown spotting is a good sign, and I hope we both make this TWW our B*tch!