'Fab'ulous testers and supporters; 58 bfps

[OnErth&InHvn]

Aayla- I have used the $tree ones and they are good. Thats +!!

AND as if my cycle wasnt driving me crazy enough- tomorrow ill get crosshairs. I dont think my O date is correct but hey ill take it.

 

[Catmumof4]

Hey all thanks for such a lovely welcome. I feel a bit of a fraud tbh and a little crazy, I have 4 kiddies but only the three girls live with me (7,5 & 1.5) I was in such a bad place when I had my son (3) that I never really bonded with him and long story short he lives with his dad while we work on things. I have a new partner and we so want a baby together, we've not been together long at all and tbh I know it's mental but it just feels so right we are now engaged and his ex has stopped him seeing their kid it's all so messy that we are both desperate to have one to love together... Probably makes me insane.... Noone in our real lives know that we are ttc. I had the implant out only a week ago tomorrow but had a period straight away so I'm not overly hopeful for this month but am happy to wait the journey out... Sorry iv ranted enough iv just been so desperate to tell someone without being judged!! X

 

[lenorajoy]

Catmum - I come from a "blended" family (I think that's the term they're using for it these days; everything has to have a term), and although I've never been separated or divorced myself, having watched all of it growing up, I can put myself in your shoes/my parents' shoes and completely understand how you're feeling wanting one of your own. I also got engaged and then married only a short time after meeting my now husband, so no judgement here!

So you're about CD7. Do you know what your cycles were like before the implant? If they're the standard 28 days, you should be gearing up to o next week and then AF should be due two weeks after that. Will you test early or wait until a missed AF to test? We're all POAS addicts, and we all love to look at tests, even if they're negative! Best of luck to you!

 

[Aayla]

Onearth - So happy you think so! Now I don't feel like I am going nutty. haha

no temp spike today but it did stay the same. But I didn't get as much sleep as I normally do. Tonight I am going to bed early so I will be getting a full 8 hours. Hopefully I will see that temp spike tomorrow. Jumped hubby last night. He was very happy. with my meds I don't often feel frisky enough to make the first move.

Catmum: It sucks you are going through some difficulties with your son. Don't feel like a fraud. Everyone's journey is different. You don't have to be with someone decades to know you are in love and want a child with them. I knew my DH was for me the moment we met.

 

[Catmumof4]

Thank u so much lenora and aayla it took a lot to write that down but I had to tell someone
😂😂😂 i will test early I'm a poas addict too I found out insanely early last time at just 6dpo was the faintest line ever my ex was convinced I was insane and I watched it get darker and darker the only way I could see it at first was by filtering the pics lol!!
Aayla tell me to shush if I'm being too nosey but what are you on meds for?xx

 

[Aayla]

I am on anti-depressants. It took a long long time for me to finally ask for help. It took 6 months to get the perfect dosage. I am a completely new woman!

 

[OnErth&InHvn]

Cat- I have 2 girls by my DH and 1 DS by my ex. he lives with his grandparents but his dad has custody. Messy, like you.

See youre not alone!

Im NOT going to a P4 test but an educated guess Aayla- If you just look at CM, then around CD16-19. Temps, then around CD18-21. OPK were dark, almost + until the 27th when they got so light, they were pretty much BFN. I have NO symptoms of O. I dont think i did but it will be interesting to see what temps do.

 

[Catmumof4]

I'm glad I'm not the only messy one (for completely selfish reasons lol) I just asked on another site but as I only had my implant out a week ago a lady said to use opks I'm guessing that means ovulation kit but iv no idea how to use them or anything lol xx
How is everyone feeling this evening xx

 

[OnErth&InHvn]

I'm glad I'm not the only messy one (for completely selfish reasons lol) I just asked on another site but as I only had my implant out a week ago a lady said to use opks I'm guessing that means ovulation kit but iv no idea how to use them or anything lol xx
How is everyone feeling this evening xx

For ovulation tests:

• Go to the store and get them in the pregnancy/condom area. Personally? Id buy 10+, especially since you dont know when you may ovulate.
  
• You can test 1+ times a day. DO NOT USE FIRST MORNING URINE!
  
• You want the test line to be DARKER or the SAME color as the control to be +.
  
• Once +, youll ovulate ABOUT 12-48HRS LATER. So Baby Dance as much as possible during that time.

 

[Catmumof4]

Thank you yoda!!! That was idiot proof for me. R the pound shop ones good enough? Xx

 

[FLArmyWife]

catmum- we do not judge here. If you feel he is the right guy to try for one with then by all means go ahead

onerth- fingers FXed!!

aayla- so glad. I too suffered with depression and finally after my breaking point (when Sweets was roughly a year) I seeked help. My marriage was in the toilet and I resented my son. After a few months of playing with dosage and brands I'm finally on one where I"m a bit more normal, though I"m finding I'm still having days where I'm on that verge of the darkness.. maybe I need a follow up. anyways... so glad the meds are helping. Being happy I think helps be less stressed which is always better for baby making.

lenora- How is that sweet baby girl doing?

catmum- Never did opks here but I think onerth gave you a great set of directions.

 

[OnErth&InHvn]

Thank you yoda!!! That was idiot proof for me. R the pound shop ones good enough? Xx

Im in the US but if a pound shop = $1 store, then yes, they are good. If that brand doesnt work, you can try different ones. I know the First Response dont work for me, so i dont use them. Some people know digital dont work, so they dont use those. Etc and etc.

 

[BethMaassen]

Hi ladies it's been such a long time and I'm so sorry. Life is just been super crazy since my mom passed.
Right now I'm using my cell phone and voice to text, so I can't catch up right now. But I will do so later. I hope everyone is well and all babies and pregnancies are going well.
I'm not sure what I left told everyone or when I last posted. I am now working with a company called ResCare. And taking care of lots of people. Okay, maybe not lots of people I'm actually pulling in shit hours. Like for example this past week I only worked about 8 hours. This being said I am having some major financial problems.
Starting next week I will begin a 30-hour work week. This is good except for the fact that I have to travel all over town which is very time consuming and aggravating. Today I went in and did a test for the diabetes portion of nurse delegation. So as of today I am completely 100% nurse delegated. They should open doors for me and maybe even more clients and higher pay. I think this even means I can work in nursing home and become a nursing assistant. I'm not quite sure.
I'm doing okay. The Zoloft that I have been prescribed has been really helping. It allows me to function day to day. I feel like I'm more emotionally stable and able to think clearly.
The girls are doing fine. We got them a puppy in hopes that he will help them emotionally. Granted this wasn't the smartest move financially. Luckily he didn't cost anything except for food and some things that he need like a collar and Leash.
Me going to work has been really hard on the girls. Especially Moira. I'm hoping that she will get used to it and be able to settle into the new routine. It does put a damper on the breastfeeding and that's difficult on both of us. Every moment I'm home she wants to be attached. Hahaha. Lily is handling it all well as far as I can tell. She does seem to be clingy sometimes but I think that's pretty normal for three year olds. Not sure.

I miss my mom so much. With every client I have I see a little piece of her in them. Maybe they like the same shows or wear the same kind of clothing or even have the same favorite color. I guess it's comforting you know to see her in them. But it also makes me miss her even more.
I slowly go through her things when I have the time. Just the other day I went through her clothing. I put in a bag things that were torn and stained. And I took the clothing that I wanted for myself. That made me miss her even more that particular night.
This weekend my husband and I plan on taking her bed because our sucks. Our bed is only a year old and it already has broken Springs and the box spring has broken boards and sags. Couldn't really expect more for $300 combo. Her bed is a full bed well ours is a queen it should work though. There's not much of a size difference. Her bed however is a pillow top $700 plus bed. We are hoping this will make things better for us and our backs. I am also going to be taking her long dresser because we have not had enough room in our own dresser for ages. Which makes it so we have clothing and such floating around in boxes and hampers in our bedroom rather than being put away.
I will have to get my sister over here ASAP so we can't in you to sort through my mom's belongings. She wanted to be part of the sorting through but she has made no effort to come over and get it done. I can't keep living with my mom's belongings all over the house. We need to resume a normality at soon. We need to stop living in our bedroom and spread out throughout the house. This is not easy on us and it's not going to be easy on my sister either but it needs to be done. My brother keeps telling me I shouldn't throw this out or that out I shouldn't get rid of this or that. But he can't seriously expect me to keep every little thing as much as I want to it's not possible. Nor do I think my mom would have wanted us to keep every little thing. That being said I have given away some of her medical equipment that we no longer use. My brother was mad at me for it but these people needed this stuff and we didn't.

Things are tough on me. Even though I am not working much it is hard on me physically due to my back. I didn't even tell them while going through the hiring process about my back because I didn't want any chances of them saying no you can't work here. Not only is it hard on me physically because of all the work but mentally as well. And it is more so due to the home life. I work all week although short hours and come home clean and cook and adult. My husband and brother do nothing all day. And when things need to be done in any capacity I'm told to do it. Okay my husband does do things but majority it is making sure the kids get their food and the dog goes out for a walk that's it. Just last weekend after a long week all I wanted to do was relax. I however had to catch up on a week's worth of laundry and two weeks worth of laundry from the girls. I also had to vacuum and shampoo the carpets. The very next day was Monday and I had to go to work and I could not move. Luckily the lady that it was taken care of that morning was very laid back and didn't need much help so I was able to sit down and relax. I don't understand why none of the men thought to do this why none of them are doing anything all week.

Anyway. This is dragged on long enough and I'm supposed to be making dinner. As is it's going to be incredibly late. Haha.
I will be back soon and try to catch up. Take care y'all.

 

[Aayla]

So frustrated. Tonight's opk. First pic is at 10 min (recommended limit on the test). Second pic is at 1 hour. As you can see the dye is running. Third pic is 2 hours. Dye ran to the other side. It did dry lighter than yesterday's but now I wonder if what I thought may have dried positive could just be a dye run i didn't pay attention to it.

 

[OnErth&InHvn]

I would only read within the time limit for + or -.

The only time i look after is to compare to previous days.

 

[Aayla]

Beth: It's nice to see you back. I'm sorry you are going through such a hard time. I can't even imagine what it's like to lose a parent.

 

[Catmumof4]

Beth- I'm so sorry for what your having to go through, I don't know you but I do know that 90% of men r selfish a holes, I mean just yesterday me and the fella had a mini argument because on the way home he stopped at a shop to get himself a drink and when I asked about the kids he said he didn't want to 'waste the money because they hadn't even asked for one' we all know what kids r like he would have sat down with one and they all would have wanted it!!! He finally realised what I meant when he got in the car and all 4 went crazy for them... Your not alone with the males not doing anything but is there a way u can make a chore chart or something?? I suffer with fibromyalgia and chronic pain syndrome so I can't work but moving sometimes hurts more then I can bare. I hope u find some rest soon.

Earth- thanks for that I'm going to try some pound shop tests today, bit skint for the next two weeks because we just made my other half my full time carer because of my illness and the old car was a company car so had to buy new car and all the insurance etc has run us completely dry its so worrying!!! Hope everyone is OK x

 

[Aayla]

I would only read within the time limit for + or -.

The only time i look after is to compare to previous days.It

That would mean they are all negative. But i wouldn't be able to trust them to compare days. Up until may 31 they dried blank. No doubt they were nagative. Then may 31 dried almost positive, june 1 dried positive, today dried almost positive. But all of them were blank or barely there negatives at the 10 min mark. This is why i am confused.

This is also why i fear the process of IUI. They rely on opks and mine have never been reliable. I either don't get a positive or i have got a positive but get it at night and O the same day (based on temp). And they require testing with fmu! Say what? Although if I need to do IUI then I will likely go with the trigger shot ti be sure.

 

[Aayla]

temp rose today but not sure I trust it. I did get up to pee about 2 hours prior. But I also spent the night hacking away because the cold moved to my chest and I'm a mouth breather. so maybe it doesn't matter. The open circle is only because of a time difference but I always found the length of sleep more important than time of day. At least in my charts.

We'll see what the next 2 mornings bring.

So how is everyone doing. It's been so quiet lately.

 

[pinkpassion]

Aayla, I have never gotten a truly positive opk , doesn't matter brand (I've tried about 8 different brands) until I took ubiquinol!! It increases egg quality and always gave me super powerful ovulation and oddly enough I'd taken it before conceiving dd2 and this pregnancy!! Look into it if you have a chance!
Sorry to just pop in, I try to read but can't always reply. But like to add help if I can!