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Long short
Professionally: being evaluated tomorrow and while I know I have perm status I am oddly nervous about it. Idk why I feel like a shit teacher. Also I threw out $20 of candy because a mouse snuck into my desk and there’s mouse s* everywhere.
Financially: I had to open a debt managenent credit card and seriously debating just saying f* it and having two. Because I have two maxed out credit cards that I can’t even pay the interest on
Personally: just accepting the reality that I don’t want to date and it’s not about the right person or being young but I am so scarred from s* from exes and my stepdad that dating repulses me. I still feel uncomfortable when people are nice to me so obs not over the demons that made me a prime target of abuse
Mother: I have not had a solid night’s sleep in months. A refused to sleep in his crib since I went back to work and we have been back to back sick so we just cough all night. My brain is starting to f* up. My students correct me every lesson, I leave s* at my mom’s house all the time. I have to write lists or I forget what i’m Doing. On top of that A is banging his head (pedi says normal) and even though he say an OT a month ago and she cleared him i’m filling out his 15m check and it says he should say five single words. He says zero ZERO. Nothing close to a word. Doesn’t mimick words. We read, sing, talk every day, and of course my med school brother nonchalantly says “isn’t that a sign of autism?” Like I didn’t have to listen to you say s* like that my whole pregnancy (my ex lied about being autistic to treat me like crap but probably is on the spectrum just high functioning). So yay for that
Speaking of ex: he is pissed about money so after three months of not having to deal with him, he is trying to f* up my plans. I had to cancel a photo shoot because he refuses to pay me and the courts don’t care i’m a single mom teacher they keep continuing s* and now we have a second trial for child support like ffs if’s Simple he owes me money just effing make him pay. He literally threw s* at my attorney in court and calls her names and swears at her in front of the child support judge like why is his a* not in jail? He breaks court orders and acts a belligerent fool and what because he’s white and an engineer he gets away with it? The last judge said he was going to throw him in jail if he doesn’t follow orders so let’s just see if they will f*ing do right by my son and at the very least take his f*ing visitation (that he doesn’t even do) away and make him pay his s*
Hence the stress
Professionally: being evaluated tomorrow and while I know I have perm status I am oddly nervous about it. Idk why I feel like a shit teacher. Also I threw out $20 of candy because a mouse snuck into my desk and there’s mouse s* everywhere.
Financially: I had to open a debt managenent credit card and seriously debating just saying f* it and having two. Because I have two maxed out credit cards that I can’t even pay the interest on
Personally: just accepting the reality that I don’t want to date and it’s not about the right person or being young but I am so scarred from s* from exes and my stepdad that dating repulses me. I still feel uncomfortable when people are nice to me so obs not over the demons that made me a prime target of abuse
Mother: I have not had a solid night’s sleep in months. A refused to sleep in his crib since I went back to work and we have been back to back sick so we just cough all night. My brain is starting to f* up. My students correct me every lesson, I leave s* at my mom’s house all the time. I have to write lists or I forget what i’m Doing. On top of that A is banging his head (pedi says normal) and even though he say an OT a month ago and she cleared him i’m filling out his 15m check and it says he should say five single words. He says zero ZERO. Nothing close to a word. Doesn’t mimick words. We read, sing, talk every day, and of course my med school brother nonchalantly says “isn’t that a sign of autism?” Like I didn’t have to listen to you say s* like that my whole pregnancy (my ex lied about being autistic to treat me like crap but probably is on the spectrum just high functioning). So yay for that
Speaking of ex: he is pissed about money so after three months of not having to deal with him, he is trying to f* up my plans. I had to cancel a photo shoot because he refuses to pay me and the courts don’t care i’m a single mom teacher they keep continuing s* and now we have a second trial for child support like ffs if’s Simple he owes me money just effing make him pay. He literally threw s* at my attorney in court and calls her names and swears at her in front of the child support judge like why is his a* not in jail? He breaks court orders and acts a belligerent fool and what because he’s white and an engineer he gets away with it? The last judge said he was going to throw him in jail if he doesn’t follow orders so let’s just see if they will f*ing do right by my son and at the very least take his f*ing visitation (that he doesn’t even do) away and make him pay his s*
Hence the stress
i know you were swaying toward a Boy but how lovely, V will get to have a baby sister, they’ll be bestest friends, i have 2 sisters & we caused havoc when little haha but my older sister was mischievous & so i was pulled with her, aww 
please dont stress about the talking thing as my nephew spoke like nothing & then suddenly words start coming out & both mine did/do the head bang thing, its frustration & attention! I hope your ex gets his s**t handed to him in court & flips out again & gets banged up & forced to pay what us owed to you, i think that will def take alot of stress of you hun xxxx
lovely stuff!
Happy Birthday for tomorrow, maybe do something or go somewhere fancy you havent been in ages or before u had the boys like MrsG suggested.. i always do a fancy meal & get dressed up, love it! Splash out on desert asyour preggers, food is all us pg girls have haha
