I'm the exact same. I think that's why I hold off. I don't want to see faints. After my first BFP and losing it, I'm a nervous wreck about getting positive and even more nervous about losing it. I'm gonna wait until I'm late. Ideally I'd like to see a nice strong positive on a digital. You?
I've accepted that whatever I do I'm going to worry, therefore I'll probably start testing around 10dpo. Unlike last time though, I'm not going to tell anyone except the OH and a midwife (once/if I get past 7wks).
The way I look at it, if AF starts on time, I'll still have "was I or wasn't I?" feelings considering the symptoms I'm having. My OH is right - me saying "sorry, I'm really PMSy at the moment" always coincides with me being pregnant.