Jaysbaby-thanks for those reassuring words about the k-y as I was nervous because we used k-y instead of conceive plus because I thought I had already ovulated. Makes me slightly more hopeful for this cycle
As far as the other part goes, I understand your feelings. Just remember your son doesn't remember being in the womb or know how you felt until now. He knows you love him unconditionally now and that's all that matters.
I'm curious how people took it when you got pregnant at 18, were they shocked? Did they know he was planned? I ask because I'm 20 and nervous how certain people will react. I would have started ttc at 19 in DF had been ready.