"Hedgewitch Fertility Spell Support Thread"

[frogger3240]

hi ladies, how are you all doing?....hope your weekend is going great....so tell me what you have been up to....the weather its been nice and cool here today but it did also come a storm to..I love storms..

sam hun how are you and aggie doing?...

Lindsey how are you doing?

Vickie how are you doing?

littleaurora how are you doing?

missymojo how are you doing?

Megg how are you doing?

sorry if I misspelled any of the usernames....


if I left someone out please forgive me...didn't mean to if I did you can also post to my message as I'm asking you also how are you doing???

 

[Megg33k]

Sam - Sounds like you're getting closer to organized though!

I'm good, Patty. Tired! LOL How're you, hun?

 

[MissyMojo]

sam for going through the stuff,

Im doing well - had my sunday lie in gonna watch top gear with a cuppa and then get some cereal

another day sat logged in to msn and skype for me

 

[hedgewitch]

hey girls, i need to get this off my chest and please don't judge me, i am feeling very isolated and lonely this morning and i know this is not the right place or this post but i can't go anywhere else to talk
bad night for me last night, full of nightmares, after i sorted all the stuff out yesterday i was watching a baby programme when Em sat there and said to me, "why are you doing this to yourself?" i asked her what she meant by that and she replied, "well getting all excited and then something happens again!!" i was so gutted, it was like i had been kicked in the guts, so then i began with the stupid brain working overtime, in the end it got to about midnight and matt asking me whats wrong and i told him what Em had said and that i now think i have tempted fate and that i haven't felt Aggie move since about 4pm. i was just in a mess and this morning is no better, still not much movement just a few taps here and there but nothing like the good strong movements i had been getting and now i think i tempted fate and matt was right in me not getting excited. oh god i hate this shit i really do, i actually am beginning to feel like i hate being pregnant, i know some of you will be upset by that comment and i do apologise i you think i am cold and selfish but i am so strung out its beyond belief, no one said it would be this hard to carry again after LM. i have checked hb and its there at 143 so a bit lower than normal but i am so stressed out, i don't want to go the hospital as they won't do anything for me and i can't bear looking at those damn doctors and the midwives don't answer the phone, i just want to lock myself up in my room and stay there, i hate coming on here moaning to you girls as i feel i bring the thread down with my doom and gloom but i honestly have no one else to talk to, matt doesn't understand, i don't fit in on the stillbirth thread and as you all know i have no family, today is a bad bad day!

 

[WhisperOfHope]

hey girls, i need to get this off my chest and please don't judge me, i am feeling very isolated and lonely this morning and i know this is not the right place or this post but i can't go anywhere else to talk
bad night for me last night, full of nightmares, after i sorted all the stuff out yesterday i was watching a baby programme when Em sat there and said to me, "why are you doing this to yourself?" i asked her what she meant by that and she replied, "well getting all excited and then something happens again!!" i was so gutted, it was like i had been kicked in the guts, so then i began with the stupid brain working overtime, in the end it got to about midnight and matt asking me whats wrong and i told him what Em had said and that i now think i have tempted fate and that i haven't felt Aggie move since about 4pm. i was just in a mess and this morning is no better, still not much movement just a few taps here and there but nothing like the good strong movements i had been getting and now i think i tempted fate and matt was right in me not getting excited. oh god i hate this shit i really do, i actually am beginning to feel like i hate being pregnant, i know some of you will be upset by that comment and i do apologise i you think i am cold and selfish but i am so strung out its beyond belief, no one said it would be this hard to carry again after LM. i have checked hb and its there at 143 so a bit lower than normal but i am so stressed out, i don't want to go the hospital as they won't do anything for me and i can't bear looking at those damn doctors and the midwives don't answer the phone, i just want to lock myself up in my room and stay there, i hate coming on here moaning to you girls as i feel i bring the thread down with my doom and gloom but i honestly have no one else to talk to, matt doesn't understand, i don't fit in on the stillbirth thread and as you all know i have no family, today is a bad bad day!

sam remember the rainbow is all i say hun remeber the double rainbow appeared right a you were doing it

 

[MissyMojo]

aw sam sweetie - i can undterstand ur hating pregnancy - its not exactly an easy road for you, - im logged on on msn if u want to chat my darling, if aggies hb is there thats a good sign n if she's giving u the odd tap hold on to that - have u tried deliberratly waking her up? i do that with nuder sum times, a glass of ice cold cola and put music on and sing works for nudgeryboo,

xxxx

 

[LittleAurora]

sam its all perfectly normal to feel like this. Sadly there is nothing we, or anyone can say to make it better. Its a waiting game now.

We do know that stress is not good for baby. Try to take some time out, do something for yourself and distract yourself from yourself!

and you know we are all here for you to pour out what ever is in that brain with out being judged!

 

[Megg33k]

Sweetheart, I'm not even a little upset by your comments. I'm just upset that you're left to feel this way. Loss affects so many of us, and you've been through so much more than most! I can't imagine how hard it must be carrying Aggie after LM. You honestly have to allow yourself to feel whatever you feel without guilt. And, Em saying that didn't change a thing. You were just fine to do what you did in going through things. Tempting fate does NOT work! What will be will be... no matter if you buy stuff, sort stuff, or lock yourself in your room until you deliver! I promise! I'm sure Em was saying it as a way of expressing her own fears... I don't think it was meant the way it likely sounded!

You vent here all you need. I don't think you're bringing the thread down at all! Everyone deserves to voice their concerns/fears to their friends... That's what we're here for! Love you loads, Sam-a-lam-a-ding-dong!

 

[moggymay]

Sam go jump in the bath, Moglet can never resist the warm water being trickled on him and always wriggles his bum towards it, surely Aggie would love to have a dance with Moglet whilst mummy sings and trickles the warm soothing water over them both? On the other hand jump in the bath and try a cool trickle of water and a dance with Nudger? It would be rude to not dance with either and she is a good girlie just being a little mischievious right now, 143 is good - dont worry!

 

[Doodar]

Good Morning Ladies or is it afternoon lol yes it is where does the time go when your having fun .

Sam hunny I can't even begin to imagine what you must be feeling but I do know it is perfectly normal to be feeling aprehensive about things. I'm feeling aprehensive and I'm not even pregnant yet and I have never lost so I can only imagine how you must be feeling about this pregnancy. I know you are a strong strong lady and a credit to this forum. We all feel for you and are here to share in your problems and help you through them. You did nothing wrong in going through the baby stuff, you did what any expectant mother would do. None of us know what the future holds and like megg says fate has nothing to do with it. Aggie is a fighter and so is her mummy. I think sometimes children say things without realising how hurtful their words can be. I'm sure Em didn't it in the way which you are thinking, I think she is just concered for her mums wellbeing.

How you all doing? Sun is trying to break through the clouds here . I've just got cases out of the loft and am starting to pack, trying to get myself organised so I'm not stressing at the last minute as usual. 6 days and I'm jetting off to sun,sea,sand and can't wait!

 

[Tulip]

Sweetheart she's gone a bit quiet because you are so stressed. Munch does exactly the same when I'm stressing at work. The girls are right, Em is expressing her fears - just as you have no-one IRL to turn to, the closest person for her to express her fears to is you, but of course that doesn't help your state of mind. The picture of her holding LM is imprinted on my memory and the look of devastation on her face absolutely breaks my heart. She is just about as scared as you, darling.

Do whatever you usually do to make Aggie wriggle and put your mind at rest. 143bpm is just fine and you know it.

You have NOT jinxed your little girl, there is no such thing. Lots of love xxxx

 

[MissyMojo]

oooh holibops

nothing really changes for me - i get up, grab a cold shower, have breakfast, sit on sofa and sweat, have cold shower, have lunch, sit on sofa and sweat, have dinner, have cold shower, go to bed and "try" to sleep!

 

[caz & bob]

girls when me mum bbq last night it was fab but paying for it now carnt stop bein sick hate hangovers i am never drinking again xxxxx

 

[MissyMojo]

hahahhhaa for the hangover

im atm cos my friend sent me a pic of my pooch which we re-homed with her, shes looking amazing and i miss her and want her back - blody hormones

 

[caz & bob]

aw hun xxxx

 

[MissyMojo]

i have to remember tho - shes better off with kerrie than with me out here,

and when we move back to england we'll get ourselves another baby puppy and be one step closerr to our 'complete' family - which consists of (in our ideal world) 4 kids, 2 dogs a cat and us

 

[WhisperOfHope]

so tired tonight dunno why bens the same struggling to stay awake

 

[MissyMojo]

Morning ladies

how we doing?

i have an air con unit now but it dont seem to helping too much ??

 

[caz & bob]

girls hope your all well mojo yayy for air con xxx

 

[MissyMojo]

i'm not to bad, hot n sticky - the air con unit isnt strong enough for my living room - so gona get hubby to take it upstairs 2moro after our 3d scan x