"Hedgewitch Fertility Spell Support Thread"

[caz & bob]

:wave:ladies sam glad aggie is piling on the weight xxxxxxx

 

[caz & bob]

:wave: girls hope your all well today quiet on here xxxxxxx

 

[Doodar]

Oh no, honey! I can't imagine what you must be feeling right now... And, I don't know what to say really! I was certainly hoping you'd get amazing news! This might sound awful, and you might hate me for it... but have you guys considered using donor sperm? I know its not optimal... but it seems like it might be the best option at this point. I don't know... I don't want you to lose your chance is all!

I'm on a bit of a downer. Get ready for a rant. I phoned clinic this morning to be told that they managed to freeze 2 straws of sperm from yesterdays tissue sample. They said that the sperm was of poor quality and it was highly likely that it wouldn't make the thaw, so they recommended that hubby be on standby to have another tissue sample taken when I have my eggs retrieved, so that the sperm is fresh, baring in mind that the op cost us £1500 and we would have to pay another £1500 to have it done again. I am so angry. Why the hell didn't they just do that in the first place. They said they had cultured some of the tissue and would phone me back to let me know if they managed to freeze anymore. I told hubby what they had said and he point blank refused to go through it again. Obviously I don't blame him in the slightist but I have been left totally devastated and where do I go from here. Do I still carry on with treatment and risk going through it all only for the sperm not to make the thaw process or do we just forget it all. Which would mean we have wasted so much money just getting to this stage. I have been crying for most of the morning. They have since phoned me back and said they managed to get 2 more straws to freeze but that it was still poor quality and majority was non motile. They would have to thaw all 4 straws just for one treatment cycle and would probably at the most get 4 viable sperm to use if they survived the thaw, but she wasn't hopefull and again said hubby should be on stanby. I told her that he doesn't want to go through it again and she said well in that case the only option you have is try and use the non motile sperm,again if that survives the thaw and pray. Apparently the sperm was at the lowest stage of freezing, if it had been any worse they wouldn't have frozen it. I just don't know what to do. I'm gutted.

i agree with megg hunny, you feel like it is the end of the world at the moment but its isn't, "easy for you to say", i hear you say, but maybe you need to consider other options too, i happen to know someone who would give you a donor in a heartbeat!! so so sorry that you are having to go through this but remember its not over yet sweetie, you WILL get your bfp and your long awaited baby its just about stepping back, taking a breath and then trying to assess it again. you can't give up yet. i take it this may be a silly question but have you tried changing his diet etc? is there a medical reason as to why they can't get retrievable sperm? i do know on some level how you feel when the world kicks you about but there is ALWAYS an answer, sometimes you just have to change your path of how to get your hearts desire, sending you both the most warmest and squidgyest of hugs,xxx

Thank you so much guys for your support. I really do appreciate it. Well after much deliberating we have decided to go for it. I couldn't not knowing that there are at least a few viable sperm there or at least there were before they froze them and I'm taking positive light from the fact that they must think hubbys sperm is ok to use when it is fresh because they wouldn't of asked him to be on standby to have the op done again if it wasn't. So I am praying to god that it survives the thaw or that hubby will change his mind and go for the op again on the day, but for now I'm just going with the flow and speaking of flow, the witch has arrived today so it's officially cycle day 1 and I start my stimms tomorrow eeeeek not looking forward to it but needs must. The clinic have reassured me that they will spend hours and hours looking through the sample to find the most viable sperm to use. So I need all the spirit you can conjure up girls and pray that those littler spermies survive.

 

[Megg33k]

Oh no, honey! I can't imagine what you must be feeling right now... And, I don't know what to say really! I was certainly hoping you'd get amazing news! This might sound awful, and you might hate me for it... but have you guys considered using donor sperm? I know its not optimal... but it seems like it might be the best option at this point. I don't know... I don't want you to lose your chance is all!

I'm on a bit of a downer. Get ready for a rant. I phoned clinic this morning to be told that they managed to freeze 2 straws of sperm from yesterdays tissue sample. They said that the sperm was of poor quality and it was highly likely that it wouldn't make the thaw, so they recommended that hubby be on standby to have another tissue sample taken when I have my eggs retrieved, so that the sperm is fresh, baring in mind that the op cost us £1500 and we would have to pay another £1500 to have it done again. I am so angry. Why the hell didn't they just do that in the first place. They said they had cultured some of the tissue and would phone me back to let me know if they managed to freeze anymore. I told hubby what they had said and he point blank refused to go through it again. Obviously I don't blame him in the slightist but I have been left totally devastated and where do I go from here. Do I still carry on with treatment and risk going through it all only for the sperm not to make the thaw process or do we just forget it all. Which would mean we have wasted so much money just getting to this stage. I have been crying for most of the morning. They have since phoned me back and said they managed to get 2 more straws to freeze but that it was still poor quality and majority was non motile. They would have to thaw all 4 straws just for one treatment cycle and would probably at the most get 4 viable sperm to use if they survived the thaw, but she wasn't hopefull and again said hubby should be on stanby. I told her that he doesn't want to go through it again and she said well in that case the only option you have is try and use the non motile sperm,again if that survives the thaw and pray. Apparently the sperm was at the lowest stage of freezing, if it had been any worse they wouldn't have frozen it. I just don't know what to do. I'm gutted.

i agree with megg hunny, you feel like it is the end of the world at the moment but its isn't, "easy for you to say", i hear you say, but maybe you need to consider other options too, i happen to know someone who would give you a donor in a heartbeat!! so so sorry that you are having to go through this but remember its not over yet sweetie, you WILL get your bfp and your long awaited baby its just about stepping back, taking a breath and then trying to assess it again. you can't give up yet. i take it this may be a silly question but have you tried changing his diet etc? is there a medical reason as to why they can't get retrievable sperm? i do know on some level how you feel when the world kicks you about but there is ALWAYS an answer, sometimes you just have to change your path of how to get your hearts desire, sending you both the most warmest and squidgyest of hugs,xxx

Thank you so much guys for your support. I really do appreciate it. Well after much deliberating we have decided to go for it. I couldn't not knowing that there are at least a few viable sperm there or at least there were before they froze them and I'm taking positive light from the fact that they must think hubbys sperm is ok to use when it is fresh because they wouldn't of asked him to be on standby to have the op done again if it wasn't. So I am praying to god that it survives the thaw or that hubby will change his mind and go for the op again on the day, but for now I'm just going with the flow and speaking of flow, the witch has arrived today so it's officially cycle day 1 and I start my stimms tomorrow eeeeek not looking forward to it but needs must. The clinic have reassured me that they will spend hours and hours looking through the sample to find the most viable sperm to use. So I need all the spirit you can conjure up girls and pray that those littler spermies survive.

I'm excited for you! I'm sending you every little ounce of extra energy and hope I can spare! Can't wait to hear all about it!!!

 

[WhisperOfHope]

evening ladies x

 

[Megg33k]

Evening, Linds! Love the new siggy, as usual!

 

[moggymay]

Oh no, honey! I can't imagine what you must be feeling right now... And, I don't know what to say really! I was certainly hoping you'd get amazing news! This might sound awful, and you might hate me for it... but have you guys considered using donor sperm? I know its not optimal... but it seems like it might be the best option at this point. I don't know... I don't want you to lose your chance is all!

I'm on a bit of a downer. Get ready for a rant. I phoned clinic this morning to be told that they managed to freeze 2 straws of sperm from yesterdays tissue sample. They said that the sperm was of poor quality and it was highly likely that it wouldn't make the thaw, so they recommended that hubby be on standby to have another tissue sample taken when I have my eggs retrieved, so that the sperm is fresh, baring in mind that the op cost us £1500 and we would have to pay another £1500 to have it done again. I am so angry. Why the hell didn't they just do that in the first place. They said they had cultured some of the tissue and would phone me back to let me know if they managed to freeze anymore. I told hubby what they had said and he point blank refused to go through it again. Obviously I don't blame him in the slightist but I have been left totally devastated and where do I go from here. Do I still carry on with treatment and risk going through it all only for the sperm not to make the thaw process or do we just forget it all. Which would mean we have wasted so much money just getting to this stage. I have been crying for most of the morning. They have since phoned me back and said they managed to get 2 more straws to freeze but that it was still poor quality and majority was non motile. They would have to thaw all 4 straws just for one treatment cycle and would probably at the most get 4 viable sperm to use if they survived the thaw, but she wasn't hopefull and again said hubby should be on stanby. I told her that he doesn't want to go through it again and she said well in that case the only option you have is try and use the non motile sperm,again if that survives the thaw and pray. Apparently the sperm was at the lowest stage of freezing, if it had been any worse they wouldn't have frozen it. I just don't know what to do. I'm gutted.

i agree with megg hunny, you feel like it is the end of the world at the moment but its isn't, "easy for you to say", i hear you say, but maybe you need to consider other options too, i happen to know someone who would give you a donor in a heartbeat!! so so sorry that you are having to go through this but remember its not over yet sweetie, you WILL get your bfp and your long awaited baby its just about stepping back, taking a breath and then trying to assess it again. you can't give up yet. i take it this may be a silly question but have you tried changing his diet etc? is there a medical reason as to why they can't get retrievable sperm? i do know on some level how you feel when the world kicks you about but there is ALWAYS an answer, sometimes you just have to change your path of how to get your hearts desire, sending you both the most warmest and squidgyest of hugs,xxx

Thank you so much guys for your support. I really do appreciate it. Well after much deliberating we have decided to go for it. I couldn't not knowing that there are at least a few viable sperm there or at least there were before they froze them and I'm taking positive light from the fact that they must think hubbys sperm is ok to use when it is fresh because they wouldn't of asked him to be on standby to have the op done again if it wasn't. So I am praying to god that it survives the thaw or that hubby will change his mind and go for the op again on the day, but for now I'm just going with the flow and speaking of flow, the witch has arrived today so it's officially cycle day 1 and I start my stimms tomorrow eeeeek not looking forward to it but needs must. The clinic have reassured me that they will spend hours and hours looking through the sample to find the most viable sperm to use. So I need all the spirit you can conjure up girls and pray that those littler spermies survive.

Sending positive vibes - and gentle defrosting thoughts

 

[WhisperOfHope]

Evening, Linds! Love the new siggy, as usual!

thankls hun

 

[MissyMojo]

Morning Girls

Sending you all oodles of Love wrapped in noodles of Hugs xx

 

[caz & bob]

:wave: girls how are you all xxxxx

 

[WhisperOfHope]

i have a job interview next thursday

 

[MissyMojo]

fantastic Linds

Nudger gave me a scare today :S

so went up to the mw for 1 - waited til 2 to be seen (in that time felt some tiny movements ) when i saw the mw she could feel some movements - thinks now nudger is just fidgeting and not doing rolls n spins n great big kicks, she said nudger doesnt seem to have much spare room and thinks its cos im so little, even tho my bump is big, so its something they'll keep an eye on. then nudger got the hiccups!! mw was happy with level of movement she could feel and ctg picked up - even tho i couldnt feel most of it, she asked me if i was feeling BH very often - i said not really - then she showed me the trace! ctg picked up loads of BH compared to the one i had a month ago - will take some pics for my journal!

 

[Doodar]

Oh no, honey! I can't imagine what you must be feeling right now... And, I don't know what to say really! I was certainly hoping you'd get amazing news! This might sound awful, and you might hate me for it... but have you guys considered using donor sperm? I know its not optimal... but it seems like it might be the best option at this point. I don't know... I don't want you to lose your chance is all!

I'm on a bit of a downer. Get ready for a rant. I phoned clinic this morning to be told that they managed to freeze 2 straws of sperm from yesterdays tissue sample. They said that the sperm was of poor quality and it was highly likely that it wouldn't make the thaw, so they recommended that hubby be on standby to have another tissue sample taken when I have my eggs retrieved, so that the sperm is fresh, baring in mind that the op cost us £1500 and we would have to pay another £1500 to have it done again. I am so angry. Why the hell didn't they just do that in the first place. They said they had cultured some of the tissue and would phone me back to let me know if they managed to freeze anymore. I told hubby what they had said and he point blank refused to go through it again. Obviously I don't blame him in the slightist but I have been left totally devastated and where do I go from here. Do I still carry on with treatment and risk going through it all only for the sperm not to make the thaw process or do we just forget it all. Which would mean we have wasted so much money just getting to this stage. I have been crying for most of the morning. They have since phoned me back and said they managed to get 2 more straws to freeze but that it was still poor quality and majority was non motile. They would have to thaw all 4 straws just for one treatment cycle and would probably at the most get 4 viable sperm to use if they survived the thaw, but she wasn't hopefull and again said hubby should be on stanby. I told her that he doesn't want to go through it again and she said well in that case the only option you have is try and use the non motile sperm,again if that survives the thaw and pray. Apparently the sperm was at the lowest stage of freezing, if it had been any worse they wouldn't have frozen it. I just don't know what to do. I'm gutted.

i agree with megg hunny, you feel like it is the end of the world at the moment but its isn't, "easy for you to say", i hear you say, but maybe you need to consider other options too, i happen to know someone who would give you a donor in a heartbeat!! so so sorry that you are having to go through this but remember its not over yet sweetie, you WILL get your bfp and your long awaited baby its just about stepping back, taking a breath and then trying to assess it again. you can't give up yet. i take it this may be a silly question but have you tried changing his diet etc? is there a medical reason as to why they can't get retrievable sperm? i do know on some level how you feel when the world kicks you about but there is ALWAYS an answer, sometimes you just have to change your path of how to get your hearts desire, sending you both the most warmest and squidgyest of hugs,xxx

Thank you so much guys for your support. I really do appreciate it. Well after much deliberating we have decided to go for it. I couldn't not knowing that there are at least a few viable sperm there or at least there were before they froze them and I'm taking positive light from the fact that they must think hubbys sperm is ok to use when it is fresh because they wouldn't of asked him to be on standby to have the op done again if it wasn't. So I am praying to god that it survives the thaw or that hubby will change his mind and go for the op again on the day, but for now I'm just going with the flow and speaking of flow, the witch has arrived today so it's officially cycle day 1 and I start my stimms tomorrow eeeeek not looking forward to it but needs must. The clinic have reassured me that they will spend hours and hours looking through the sample to find the most viable sperm to use. So I need all the spirit you can conjure up girls and pray that those littler spermies survive.

Sending positive vibes - and gentle defrosting thoughts

Thanks hunny. How are you? How is that gorgeous baby jack doing?

 

[Doodar]

Jo I'm glad you got it sorted and put your mind at rest hun and at least they will keep an eye on things now.
Good luck linz.

AFM I am sooooo proud of myself. I've just had my first injection woohoo!! took us about half hour to do it though. Went through plenty of "ok I'm ready NOOOOOO!!! just wait. We got there in the end though. Hubby was great. I'm just so glad that first one is over. It's one closer hee hee!!!

 

[Megg33k]

Jo I'm glad you got it sorted and put your mind at rest hun and at least they will keep an eye on things now.

AFM I am sooooo proud of myself. I've just had my first injection woohoo!! took us about half hour to do it though. Went through plenty of "ok I'm ready NOOOOOO!!! just wait. We got there in the end though. Hubby was great. I'm just so glad that first one is over. It's one closer hee hee!!!

Fantastic!

 

[Doodar]

Jo I'm glad you got it sorted and put your mind at rest hun and at least they will keep an eye on things now.

AFM I am sooooo proud of myself. I've just had my first injection woohoo!! took us about half hour to do it though. Went through plenty of "ok I'm ready NOOOOOO!!! just wait. We got there in the end though. Hubby was great. I'm just so glad that first one is over. It's one closer hee hee!!!

Fantastic!

Thanks hunny can't believe I actually did it. It feels great to finally be doing something.

 

[Megg33k]

Jo I'm glad you got it sorted and put your mind at rest hun and at least they will keep an eye on things now.

AFM I am sooooo proud of myself. I've just had my first injection woohoo!! took us about half hour to do it though. Went through plenty of "ok I'm ready NOOOOOO!!! just wait. We got there in the end though. Hubby was great. I'm just so glad that first one is over. It's one closer hee hee!!!

Fantastic!

Thanks hunny can't believe I actually did it. It feels great to finally be doing something.

It totally does!

 

[moggymay]

Xmas bump buds...Vicky and Meg!

 

[WhisperOfHope]

morning all

 

[MissyMojo]

Morning Linz

everyone

david passed his drivin test