I think I need a forum because life is happening so fast lately! I am almost 31 wanted to start a family so bad in my twenties. After a number of LTRs and broken hearts, I threw in the towel (it had become too depressing and painful to keep trying and believing) and started to mentally prepare for the life of a single, crazy cat lady who loves traveling. Then I met my current BF and had that feeling of "just knowing" he was the one.
He has made it as clear (as clear as a man can) that he wants to settle down and have a family. (He has 4yo from an irresponsible tryst, learned a valuable lesson in family and is a kind, loving and diligent father) After spending 2 years trying to deprogram my hopes and dreams of having a family of my own here I am with "Family Man."
Well, I had some very irregular (for me) spotting at about 5DPO while the BF and I were out for dinner. I came back from the bathroom a bit worried and perplexed, explained to the BF the possible causes, one being implantation bleeding. He was so happy about the possibility that he's been asking me my symptoms every day since even though I doubt I am PG. We recently decided, going forward, to stop trying NOT to conceive and roll the dice. We are both mature, responsible adults with good jobs and a lot of love. In the meantime I am waiting for AF to show. If she doesn't, then it's baby time! If she does then starts the journey of TTC Au Natural. First time ever!
Thanks for reading. I needed to get this out!
Going to try for every 2-3 days and more closer to ov. I've got this cycle and the next left, or else it's a 2012 baby for us!
Oh well, I have 7 days left yet so we'll see. Just trying not to give myself false hope iykwim. Would love to join you as a bump buddy soon RK 
