thank you ladies
My heart feels better when I know so many people out there care
I had an argument with my mom yesterday about, she didn't believe and I had to prove myself to her that I was actually pregnant
It hurt so bad but she apologized later and said she just didn't want me upset and if it didn't happen, then I wouldn't have to be upset
Anyways, I tried to be useful yesterday and shaved our dogs down and flea dipped them. I had a cigarette for the hell of it.
I'm trying to look at the positives like:
1. at least I KNOW, FOR SURE, that I CAN get pregnant
2. this was only the second round of clomid that REALLY worked(my temps shot up sky high after O) (the first round was iffy)
3. This round of Clomid was the first time that me and dh bd'd during my fertile window (last time, he was 2 days late because he was in Ohio)
4. Even tho my hcg was low, when it was still ok, my progesterone levels were good and not low so I know the Prometrium works.
What does this all mean? It was the first month that EVERYTHING went like it was supposed to and I did GET PREGNANT. Now, I just believe since everything else was good, it had to have been the babe itself, probably something chromosomal, where I could not do a thing to help it.
Looking at it this way gives me hope for the future and maybe we will have our little baby.
PS. Dr said that if my period started over the weekend, he wanted to put me on clomid right away because a mc even an early one can mess my cycles and such up.
I haven't really started yet tho. I mean I had some light bleeding yesterday, more than spotting but less than flow, it was brownish in color. This morning there was nothing, even tho I know it just needs time.
I have been having sort of weird pains on my left side but nothing horrible, but I definitely will keep an eye on it, just in case it's something worse.
Thank you again girls for all your support. It helps so much to have you all out there helping me through this who have gone through this kind of stress before.