Thank you Sonya
I hardly slept last night... just before bed I whispered to my husband how scared I was of waking up to the
and not a BFP, when he didn't say anything back, I told him that sometimes I feels like he doesn't care, what the heck was that for?!?!? He sat up and gave me this whole lecture about how we are different in the way we view this TTC, and how he simply trusts in the Lord and that he believe that when the time is right, when God says it's time, then we will get pregnant. He went on to say that he doesn't worry, and I told him that I don't either that I simply am scared, because I want this so bad. He made me cry my eyes out. I spent all of last night tossing and turning in bed, praying ... no begging to God that he would allow us to concieve. I don't know if I'm hurt or shocked by my husband's recent attitude. Or the fact that if I'm crying he simply turns the other way, WTH is up with that? I wanted to punch him last night.
Sorry for the long rant, but this is the only place I can cme to to talk to people who actually care, who actually feel the same way as me.